It's already end of the week & I didn't achieve as much as I want to :(
Alhamdulillah that I woke up at 4am.
After performing the necessities, stayed up to prepare for the visit to SKR & UPSPD.
Strong presence of ladies in the management & I think they have 'high expectations' that I 'll be a difficult visitor.
Ha... ha... ha... MOK CIK find it difficult to muster enough energy to be in attendance... nak tanya soalan-soalan cepu emas...
Naaaah...
Was also rushing to get Mieza's, Joan-Soke Chee's & Bibi-Md Noor's extended abstracts edited.
Gave an opportunity for the senior grad student to cancel off his appointment.
Of course he took it.
Adoi... here we go again.
Dropped Bibi off at LRT station on the way home.
Selisih with Pak Mat & reminded myself to give him tamar, etc sometime next week.
Then, selisih with a silver Mercedes that flashed at me. Sorrylah Boss if I got into your lane.
I'm actually functioning with only my left eye!
Hope I can take time to the eye institute next week with Durrah & Aiman so that all of us could check our eyes. I also have my follow up with Dr Linda.
When I arrived home, Aiman rushed out to tell me that I just missed my anak susu (Hanan) with her parents. OOOooo, it was them flashing "HI-HELLO-ASSALAMUALAIKUM..." just now!
Kak Ha was at the table with T.Mak. Her left eye was covered with a see through plastic cover. She had a surgery to remove cataract & put in lens (???)
Saturday, August 22, 2009
BP90: 20 OGOS 2009
Amzari would be doing his candidature defence in IPS.
I was quite certain he would get through but I wished that he put in more effort.
He rehearsed & the group gave our input on Tuesday morning.
Took a ride from Mui Koon. Got to sit in front while the other 4 girls had to squeeze at the back.
One of the various perks of being a supervisor!
I had prepared Amzari mentally just in case he got 'difficult personalities grilling him'.
Well, instead of that happening... I was the one in position to do what I feared for Amzari.
Ironic...
I was quite certain he would get through but I wished that he put in more effort.
He rehearsed & the group gave our input on Tuesday morning.
Took a ride from Mui Koon. Got to sit in front while the other 4 girls had to squeeze at the back.
One of the various perks of being a supervisor!
I had prepared Amzari mentally just in case he got 'difficult personalities grilling him'.
Well, instead of that happening... I was the one in position to do what I feared for Amzari.
Ironic...
BP89 : 19 OGOS 2009 - RABU
Took leave with the intention of sending Pak Pozi to KLIA. He's going for umrah with Pak Umar.
We are all so happy for him.
We also feel envious that he gets to spend a part of Ramadhan in Mekah!
Lucky guy!
Due to the some technicalities... I didn't go. Instead stayed home & do some work at home in the morning.
Went to treat ourselves at TS with Saadah.
Head-shoulder massage.
Then, we joined the very small group being tutored by ProfH on e-learning/moodle.
A long way before I could master the whole thing.
Not that I want it to be a doa... but I think I became slow a bit after the Bell's Palsy episode... most likely due to prednisolone :(
We are all so happy for him.
We also feel envious that he gets to spend a part of Ramadhan in Mekah!
Lucky guy!
Due to the some technicalities... I didn't go. Instead stayed home & do some work at home in the morning.
Went to treat ourselves at TS with Saadah.
Head-shoulder massage.
Then, we joined the very small group being tutored by ProfH on e-learning/moodle.
A long way before I could master the whole thing.
Not that I want it to be a doa... but I think I became slow a bit after the Bell's Palsy episode... most likely due to prednisolone :(
Monday, August 17, 2009
BP87 - 17 OGOS 2009 : ISNIN
MONDAY... yet, no class. Yeay!
Today is the 1st day of the semester break.
I have been having class everyday. In addition, on Thursdays & Fridays there are also practical sessions in the afternoon!
Even in those days when my body system was normal... those 2 days are tiring days! What more now!
Alhamdulillah, I'm getting stronger by the day... but rather slowly & some days are still rather bad.
In additional to the "can't do much at home now", my feet will bengkak at the end of each day, more so on Thursdays & Fridays.
The doctors said that I don't have to worry about it... it's the effect of prednisolone.
So, now almost everything that is not normal with myself is either due to the side effect of prednisolone and/or my body is still adjusting to the prednisolone slowly going out of my body.
Hmmm... ye ke?
This morning (straight after sending Durrah to her sekolah ugama) was the first time I drove myself to UMMC & parked at the scary parking place.
Since I didn't have to rush back for class, I thought I should use the opportunity to get back my confidence.
Since last night I was deliberating whether to drive my small BFX or the big NAZA.
I went with NAZA because I felt more confident driving it.
I need everything to boost my confidence level.
If a person can survive this parking place, I think it's quite OK to give him/her a driving license without taking a driving test!
He.. he... he... marah pulak orang baca ni!
I had to go through the 'harrowing tunnels of each level to reach the 4th floor where I finallty found a spot.
I went out of the car & walked rather unsteadily to the Physiotherapy Unit.
Part of me felt like I just want to drop & lie down for a while.
I realized that my appointment was actually for 3pm but I was hoping that I would be given a chance to do the session in the morning.
Yes, they allowed me BUT of course with the warning that I should't do it in the future :)
This time the focus was on my upper & lower lips.
When I was done I went up to the clinic area that would be occupied by MediNeuro on Tuesday morning & Friday afternoon.
I had missed the appointment on 31 July (Friday) due to my Neuro practical session. The lady at the *JANJITEMU counter gave me 1 September 2009! Lamanya lagi!
(*"JANJITEMU" was being used rather than "temujanji", the term that was often used. But, if you think about it... probably "JANJITEMU" is correct. One has to berjanji before bertemu seperti yang dijanjikan))
The whole time I was in UMMC, the group was hard at work doing gotong royong. We had 2 additional members -- Amiruddin & Khairuddin.
Actually, for quite sometime I've felt very disturbed with the environment in the room... so crammed & cluttered!
However, when I came to the office with KFC lunch (as I had promised them), the room looked so nice ;)
Now, to make them maintain the place as is... Not too tough a job, I hope.
I even got them to help re-arranged the small room.
Oh yes, apart from being happy in seeing the place turned so cheery, I was scared to see the few full plastic bags put outside the door...
Aiyaa... did they throw away a lot of stuff with sentimental values to ME?
You can't win them all!
While I re-arranged my stuff a bit, I did find a box which MdNoor had refer to "Kotak Penuh Memori".
Indeed, he's right. I asked him to take a picture of it. He took 5!!
It was a box used by my PhD supervisor to send me a book WAY after I had left NEOUCOM.
He took his time in expressing his happiness that I completed my studies... probably due to the fact that I left WITHOUT his blessings, i.e. he wanted me to do post-docs & still be in charge of the lab (as I did for many years).
My flight was on 31st August & on 30th August, I still found a note with "CANCEL YOUR FLIGHT" on my office door.
Where did he think I was going? New York? Miami? San Francisco?
For goodness sake, I had even received my deposit back from my landlord!
It was really unfortunate that the end part of my full of happy memories study-stay in Rootstown was a very-very-very unhappy occasion :(
Everyone, in that small-one hallway department, was somewhat involved in my predicament.
Pascal & wife were kind enough to put me up for a night before my flight & they also drove me to the airport.
Of course anyone would be sad to leave a place where one spent so much of one's time & matured to adulthood in one's thinking, etc.
BUT, I was doing it with so much sadness & anger that I was put in a situation not to be able to enjoy saying my goodbyes.
Oh well... live & learn.
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BP81 - 11 OGOS 2009 : SELASA
Today was the 2nd day of the yearly convocation.
Chose today to attend it; Adli Isa's grandfather was to be honoured as Prof. Emeritus.
While getting ready for the perarakan event I met a couple of colleagues who've heard about my Bell's Palsy episode.
So, spent sometime explaining to people about it.
It was rather fun to hear DrR telling me her reaction when she heard that I was to visit her PTj (actually later in the afternoon).
Of course my Sungkai buddy, happily laughed away when I told her my 'hyper-self' during 50mg daily of prednisolone days -- red sandals & handbags !!!
All the while deep down I was hoping & praying that I would not embarassed myself, e.g. falling off while walking in or while sitting up there on the stage.
Alhamdulillah, I didn't do any of that.
Adli Isa's grandpa gave a good speech, especially the part about Kassim Selamat :)
The speech introducing him wasn't too bad. Three pantuns in the speech:
Bicara sopan amalan harian,
Berseri menawan kawan dan lawan,
Usaha digandakan kecemerlangan diharapkan,
Demi memastikan peningkatan berterusan
Durian rambutan buahan tempatan
Rasanya menawan hati perasaan
Kemudahan ditingkatkan keselesaan diutamakan
Intipati kecemerlangan fakulti bimbingan
Bumi Kenyalang kampong halaman
Dari Bintulu merantau ke Miri
Menyinar cahaya membawa harapan
Khidmat cemerlang menyuntik inspirasi
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BP79 - 09 OGOS 2009 : AHAD
'Chaperoned' Amzar to a class of 97 kindergarten reunion!
3 boys & 6 girls came.
There were more mothers at the event.
Found out that Wan's younger sister was actually from the same year!
BP78 - 08 OGOS 2009 : SABTU
We went to watch latest Harry Potter movie at Mid-Valley Mega Mall.
It reminded me of 2 things:
1) My win in 2007 as one of the 2 grand-winners of Harry Potter Competition organized by Popular Book Store.
It was a paid trip to Hong Kong Disneyland. Of course everyone was excited to follow me... so it ended up as "BUY 4 & GET 1 FREE".
It was a very good experience for the kids.
2) The last time we went out & saw a movie was the night before I the Bell's Palsy expressed itself, i.e. on 22 May!
So I guessed, it came as no surprise that I felt nervous to sleep!
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Sunday, July 26, 2009
BP65 - 26 JULAI 2009 : AHAD
The rain started early in the morning. I thought, "Hey... today would be a good day to buy 'the hard to get because the line's too long' Section 14 lontong! People would be too lazy to go out in the rain!"
I was no. 3 in the queue. I could have been no. 2 or no. 1, but I went first to buy Metro Ahad thinking that I would need something to pass the time.
When life gives you lemons... make lemonade!
I managed to do work... fighting off sleep most of the time but I succeed! I must be getting better, Alhamdulillah :)
Haris (son in law of Ibu Noraini, sister of Paman Salleh) called informing that he would be in UPM till Wednesday. He called from KLCC but he didn't know the program scheduled for him & 39 others who came along with him.
I thought of going to KLCC by LRT after 'Asr. He was supposed to call back so that arrangements could be made. Well, I fell asleep on the floor till 6.30pm while reading through Khairuddin's proposal! Zzz...
Osh-Azmi & kids dropped in on way back to Ipoh, after visiting Hanan. Then, Una-Mat & Syabil @ Uncle Pet (who'll be turning 4 years old next month!) came. Una's BP was pretty high (160/100). However, her pulse is low <70... that helps!
BP64 - 25 JULAI 2009 : SABTU
Went to TS hospital with Suami. I think the doctor could tell I was feeling tired & weak. I got 5 needles this time on my head & Suami said I was snoring away during the 20 minutes session.
After the session, we picked up Aiman to bring him to see Dr. Selva @ Bangsar. He was having fever... not surprising. Most likely, he got it from Amzar!
Dr Selve saw me for the first time since I got Bell's Palsy. Straight away he asked me, "Why is your face all puffed up?" So, told him what happened & he basically confirmed every bad thing prednisolone could do to a person... of course the effect differs depending on the person! He also told me that it would a few months to get my system back to normal.
When I went home I googled to find out what others got to say about the phase of getting off prednisolone. Some examples:
http://www.everydayhealth.com/blog/kelly-building-a-crohns-disease-community/prednisone-and-withdrawal/
April 5, 2007: Prednisone and withdrawal
Every week, I am supposed to go down 1 mg of prednisone. I like this therapy because I am going down slowly which my body seems to handle better, but it is bad because every week I go through withdrawal. I have heard some people (and some doctors) say that you can’t feel withdrawal from just a 1 mg decrease but I know that is not true for me. After about three to four days is when I usually will start to feel it. It seems like I have a harder time processing information and making sense of things. I have learned that I need to be more organized during these times because I am not able to do my typical five tasks at the same time routine. I have to focus on only one task at a time and make sure I outline what steps I have to do to complete them. I also become easily irritated and many times pick fights with my husband (mostly because I become a little irrational and obsessed).
Sometimes I make it through the withdrawal without noticing, but most of the time I feel it. I have also been having a lot of pain in my arms and in my body around the time that I decrease my prednisone. My rheumatologist says that it is from the decrease in the prednisone.
I have learned to warn my husband when I am going down on the prednisone. He is supposed to keep this in mind when I am acting crazy or get irrationally mad at him for things that make no difference to anything. Before, when I was on a really high dosage, I was going down 5 mg at a time but not every week. I would go down, and then have to remain at that level for a few weeks until I could go down again. Now that I am going down every week, I feel that it is hard work to keep myself under control and calm because it is a few days out of every week that I have to work harder.
But I think that it is worth it because I am getting down off the steroids, and all I want is to get off of them. I know I say that in almost every blog, and it is a daily thought. One day, I will not take the blasted prednisone.
But, one day at a time!!
Or as they say in French – petit a petit (little by little –or gradually)
There are many more...
The important thing is at least I know what I'm going through is normal :)
BP63 - 24 JULAI 2009 : JUMAAT
Woke up about 5 am.
Did my solat Isya'. Alhamdulillah, still alive...
Oh no... there were so many things I thought I wanted to do for today.
I had already scheduled to meet my 8 project students, 1st year students under my wings (4 international & 3 Msians), then the 2nd year students!
There would also be practical session in the afternoon.
Adoi... belum lagi janji dengan Zulfa!
I hope she would go easy on me & understand the situation that I'm in.
Seriously, I could fall asleep while I'm sms-ing!
Did my solat Isya'. Alhamdulillah, still alive...
Oh no... there were so many things I thought I wanted to do for today.
I had already scheduled to meet my 8 project students, 1st year students under my wings (4 international & 3 Msians), then the 2nd year students!
There would also be practical session in the afternoon.
Adoi... belum lagi janji dengan Zulfa!
I hope she would go easy on me & understand the situation that I'm in.
Seriously, I could fall asleep while I'm sms-ing!
BP62 - 23 JULAI 2009 : KHAMIS
Lecture in the morning & practical session in the afternoon.
What a tiring day.
Accidentally went to sleep at 8pm till 5am !!
The 'herotness' of my face is almost gone but the body is feeling like a sick body!
What a tiring day.
Accidentally went to sleep at 8pm till 5am !!
The 'herotness' of my face is almost gone but the body is feeling like a sick body!
Saturday, July 25, 2009
BP59 - 20 JULAI 2009 : ISNIN
Treated the group to lunch at K's Restaurant. MdNoor @RA will be officially leaving the group end of this month. The other RA that went away before this was Wan Adriyani who's currently doing her PhD in UK. It was also to thank all of them for their support that was in many forms, including helping me carry my stuff up & down!!
BP53 - 14 JULAI 2009 : SELASA
Day 2 off prednisolone.
HAPPY B'DAY KAK ERAH!
Muga ALLAH SWT terus merahmati kehidupan dengan semua yang baik-baik untuk dunia & akhirat.
We have sort of celebrated her b'day this weekend with a carrot cake ! The cake cuting was done after the meeting about Muaz's up coming engagement with Zura (3 October 2009, InsyaAllah -- IPOH MALI)
HAPPY B'DAY KAK ERAH!
Muga ALLAH SWT terus merahmati kehidupan dengan semua yang baik-baik untuk dunia & akhirat.
We have sort of celebrated her b'day this weekend with a carrot cake ! The cake cuting was done after the meeting about Muaz's up coming engagement with Zura (3 October 2009, InsyaAllah -- IPOH MALI)
Saturday, July 18, 2009
BP52 - 13 JULAI 2009 : ISNIN
Day 1 off prednisolonone
As usual, early in the morning Suami sent me for the facial electrotherapy @ UMMC.
Met CT Aishah but have to rush off, ie no breakfast with her. Class & all :(
I seriously am so very tired, especially by late afternoon.
Part of me felt maybe, I should just pop 1 of the blue colored prednisolone pills into my mouth!
It doesn't even give me a high... just a healthy + 'get up & go' feeling. Think of what goes on in the mind of an addict!
Had lunch with 3 of my former project students at the nearby KFC. Asked them about their Industrial Training experience & what next after B.Sc. (Science Biohealth)... very interesting, e.g one was at this place that normally gave about $300/month to a student who did 3 months of Industrial Training with them, but since this girl only did a 2 months worth of Industrial Training... she wasn't paid a single cent!! Hmm...
http://angel-angeline-angelicious.blogspot.com/2009/07/when-life-gives-you-lemon-make-lemonade.html
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dtSRvyfxc4http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dtSRvyfxc4
As usual, early in the morning Suami sent me for the facial electrotherapy @ UMMC.
Met CT Aishah but have to rush off, ie no breakfast with her. Class & all :(
I seriously am so very tired, especially by late afternoon.
Part of me felt maybe, I should just pop 1 of the blue colored prednisolone pills into my mouth!
It doesn't even give me a high... just a healthy + 'get up & go' feeling. Think of what goes on in the mind of an addict!
Had lunch with 3 of my former project students at the nearby KFC. Asked them about their Industrial Training experience & what next after B.Sc. (Science Biohealth)... very interesting, e.g one was at this place that normally gave about $300/month to a student who did 3 months of Industrial Training with them, but since this girl only did a 2 months worth of Industrial Training... she wasn't paid a single cent!! Hmm...
http://angel-angeline-angelicious.blogspot.com/2009/07/when-life-gives-you-lemon-make-lemonade.html
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dtSRvyfxc4http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8dtSRvyfxc4
BP51 - 12 JULAI 2009: AHAD
Day 9 tapering off prednisolonone : 5 mg (1 pill)
I went early to my sekolah menengah gathering, since there was also the invitation of Adli Isa's 1st b'day later in the day.
Before that, managed to get T.Mak ready so that AbangEm could pick her up in his new MyVi.
Rather dissapointing because from our batch there were only Mawar, Ida & me. Of course there were others... Amy's batch turned up in full force!
Found out that Puan Arfah had Bell's Palsy twice & another teacher had it when she was small. Didn't get to talk to them too long because so many former students/teachers also wanted to say HELLO to them.
I ended up only leaving the place at 3.30pm.
Solat Zohor & we're off to the b'day party.
Well... we got lost... again. We called up Adli's father & he was kind enough to pick us up. Phew :)
We were one of the first to leave. We had to rush for solat Asar & I was also feeling very tired already.
Told Kak Erah who wanted to use the house for a PP family meeting about Muaz's engagement to take care of the food, etc.
After solat Maghrib, I slept & when I woke up... they have had their makan (Syed's beriyani Bukhari, mee goreng GI's Yasin, sate, etc) & the meeting had started (in the next house).
Looked like everything went well with Kak Erah chairing the meeting with others interrupting with serious & silly suggestions (eg having ants as the decoration for each hantaran because Naufal will do his thesis on ants!)
Saturday, July 11, 2009
BP50 - 11 JULAI 2009 : SABTU
Day 8 tapering off prednisolonone : 5 mg (1 pill)
Slightly after midnight Durrah woke up menggeletar, but high fever. We didn't want to take chances, so brought her to UMMC.
Well... viral fever. NOT the dreaded H1N1, Alhamdulillah.
Slightly after midnight Durrah woke up menggeletar, but high fever. We didn't want to take chances, so brought her to UMMC.
Well... viral fever. NOT the dreaded H1N1, Alhamdulillah.
BP48 - 9 JULAI 2009 : KHAMIS
Day 7 tapering off prednisolonone : 10 mg (2 pills)
Would push myself further today... lecture in the morning & a quick lab late afternoon.
Would push myself further today... lecture in the morning & a quick lab late afternoon.
BP49 - 10 JULAI 2009 : JUMAAT
Day 7 tapering off prednisolonone : 10 mg (2 pills)
Went to TS Hospital for acupuncture session. CT Aishah went along to see what could be done to her situation.
We went to F&B cafe at PD after that! Wonderful cheesecake... :)
Went to TS Hospital for acupuncture session. CT Aishah went along to see what could be done to her situation.
We went to F&B cafe at PD after that! Wonderful cheesecake... :)
BP47 - 8 JULAI 2009 : RABU
Day 6 tapering off prednisolonone : 15 mg (3 pills)
Another 1st that I had to face: Neuro lecture
Another 1st that I had to face: Neuro lecture
BP46 - 7 JULAI 2009 : SELASA
Day 5 tapering off prednisolonone : 15 mg (3 pills)
Went straight from home for my 1st Histo lecture @ DK Ixora.
Couldn't help being anxious... Could I physically deliver a 50 minutes lecture? Would it be too much for my body? I knew my speech could already be understood, but I wasn't sure whether having to talk non-stop for long would cause herotness of my face becoming worse? Too gruesome?
Again those many pairs of eyes were on me. There were about 80 students.
My 1st slide was actually on my situation.
As usual I prefer to deal with something head on...
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Went straight from home for my 1st Histo lecture @ DK Ixora.
Couldn't help being anxious... Could I physically deliver a 50 minutes lecture? Would it be too much for my body? I knew my speech could already be understood, but I wasn't sure whether having to talk non-stop for long would cause herotness of my face becoming worse? Too gruesome?
Again those many pairs of eyes were on me. There were about 80 students.
My 1st slide was actually on my situation.
As usual I prefer to deal with something head on...
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BP45 - 6 JULAI 2009 : ISNIN
Day 4 tapering off prednisolonone : 20 mg (4 pills)
After sending Durrah to her sekolah ugama, I went straight to work. Suami was already waiting for me at the parking lot up front of the department to send me to UMMC for my faicial electrotherapy & also an appointment with the E&T group.
By abot 9.30am I was done with the electrotherapy. Met CT who was waiting for her name to be called in. Told her we couldn't go to breakfast since not only I had to rush for my E&T appointment, I also had a briefing for the new students @11.30am!
Quickly registered @ E&T. While waiting, I was pondering about how I'd go about in doing the briefing. I had 2 parts of power point presentations done up; 'introduction to who's who' & 'academic matters'. I would have to do the latter & I was mulling about whether I should contact Eda & make her do the first part. Originally, I had asked Yati but with her mum doing an angioplasty procedure today... Yati's place should be with her MOTHER!
By 10.30am I decided that Edah should do it & started making phone calls-arrangements.
I finally got in to see DrL @ 11am. DrTS was on emergency leave. Commended DrL on her suggestions about 'directly putting a tape on my right eye' + me going to RUKA (it was then I got new dosage for my BP & it had been under control since then, Alhamdulillah).
Took a taxi back to where my car was parked & rushed to the lecture hall where the briefing had been scheduled.
To be honest, I was feeling feeling anxious about this whole event.
It was going to be my 1st event going in front of a lecture hall of students.
All in all there should be 35 new students + 20 of the committee members of the student's BH club. Staff members of the program (2 tutors + 4 support staff + 6 academic staff) should also be joining the event. Some already knew about my Bell's Palsy & this event would give them a chance to see for themselves how I looked like.
When I came into the hall, they were there already except for the new students who're still stuck in another briefing. I took time to address the BH club about the kind of assistance that I hope they could give, etc. From their facial expression, I seriously doubt that they really heard what I was saying at the beginning. Some looked like they were about to burst into tears...
Then the new students came & the whole event went well. It was good that Eda did the first part of the briefing. She was FABULOUS & FUNNY... the students loved her!
By late afternoon, I was feeling like I need to lie down...
However, 5 foreign students were brought to me; 3 of them for BH program (1 Indonesian, 1 Somalian & I Jordan) & the other 2 going to other programs (Bioinformatics & Microbiology).
So, I gave them 'a quick' briefing of what was given earlier by both me & Eda.
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After sending Durrah to her sekolah ugama, I went straight to work. Suami was already waiting for me at the parking lot up front of the department to send me to UMMC for my faicial electrotherapy & also an appointment with the E&T group.
By abot 9.30am I was done with the electrotherapy. Met CT who was waiting for her name to be called in. Told her we couldn't go to breakfast since not only I had to rush for my E&T appointment, I also had a briefing for the new students @11.30am!
Quickly registered @ E&T. While waiting, I was pondering about how I'd go about in doing the briefing. I had 2 parts of power point presentations done up; 'introduction to who's who' & 'academic matters'. I would have to do the latter & I was mulling about whether I should contact Eda & make her do the first part. Originally, I had asked Yati but with her mum doing an angioplasty procedure today... Yati's place should be with her MOTHER!
By 10.30am I decided that Edah should do it & started making phone calls-arrangements.
I finally got in to see DrL @ 11am. DrTS was on emergency leave. Commended DrL on her suggestions about 'directly putting a tape on my right eye' + me going to RUKA (it was then I got new dosage for my BP & it had been under control since then, Alhamdulillah).
Took a taxi back to where my car was parked & rushed to the lecture hall where the briefing had been scheduled.
To be honest, I was feeling feeling anxious about this whole event.
It was going to be my 1st event going in front of a lecture hall of students.
All in all there should be 35 new students + 20 of the committee members of the student's BH club. Staff members of the program (2 tutors + 4 support staff + 6 academic staff) should also be joining the event. Some already knew about my Bell's Palsy & this event would give them a chance to see for themselves how I looked like.
When I came into the hall, they were there already except for the new students who're still stuck in another briefing. I took time to address the BH club about the kind of assistance that I hope they could give, etc. From their facial expression, I seriously doubt that they really heard what I was saying at the beginning. Some looked like they were about to burst into tears...
Then the new students came & the whole event went well. It was good that Eda did the first part of the briefing. She was FABULOUS & FUNNY... the students loved her!
By late afternoon, I was feeling like I need to lie down...
However, 5 foreign students were brought to me; 3 of them for BH program (1 Indonesian, 1 Somalian & I Jordan) & the other 2 going to other programs (Bioinformatics & Microbiology).
So, I gave them 'a quick' briefing of what was given earlier by both me & Eda.
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Saturday, July 4, 2009
BP43 - 4 JULAI 2009 : SABTU
Day 2 tapering off prednisolonone : 25 mg (5 pills)
Woke up later than usual. Apa lagi, Suami purposely woke me up late! Of course, he did it because he felt that I needed the sleep!
Suami had PIBG meeting today.
Amzar in Nilai this weekend for an activity & Aiman had Carnival Day to raise $. His class was going to sell Domino's pizza!
So, went to TS Hospital with Durrah as my companion :)
We set out a bit late from home & so by the time we got there it was already 9.30am & had to park at the visitors 2nd level parking area. But, actually, it's better than the normal place we parked. Each lot is big & there were ample spaces available. Of course we had to walk a bit, but it was OK.
We were than scanned at the entrance. Today, it was round blue labels :)
The place was rather crowded than weekdays. However, as usual, it didn't take long. Durrah said I had 25 needles altogether. One number up than the last time! However, when the good doctor poked 2 needles on my right leg, I could feel a surge like an electrical shock being passed into my nerve. Maybe it had something to do with the muscle pain I was having this morning, due to the slight fall I had yesterday on my way towards the parking lot at work.
As usual, once done I would just get out of KL quickly before the jam.
As a token of my appreciation to Durrah, treated her to big breakfast at Bangsar Village, then to MPH for her to spend her $. She bought the novel INKHEART.
I really have to be careful. She didn't do so well in her Penulisan BM in the last exam!
After breakfast I took my 5x5mg (i.e. 25mg) Prednisolone, ie this would be my 2nd day of cutting down the steroid which had been in my body FAR too long!
Bought different types of vegetables at the grocer. I now heaped my plate with vegetables :)
I had to watch the blood glucose.
When we arrived home, woke T.Mak up for a lunch of take away Nando's. The lemon & herbs flavor with it's fries, mediterranean rice, cole slaw & salad actually is rather similar to something one could buy at the foodcourt in the Hilton's Complex in front of Masjidil Haram! \
So, now you know why I loved Nando's :)
My blood pressure was on the low side (compared to the recent weeks).
So, I only took half of the Myacardis.
Deep down, I was hoping that my test-tube body was on its way of getting back to normal, InsyaAllah.
I took time after lunch to re-organize the blog.
Had it really been 43 days since the onset of Bell's Palsy?
I hope people do realize that the entries were written later than the events, themselves. I relied on sms in my phone for facts/notes. Unfortunately, those notes were gone when the phone kena air.
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Woke up later than usual. Apa lagi, Suami purposely woke me up late! Of course, he did it because he felt that I needed the sleep!
Suami had PIBG meeting today.
Amzar in Nilai this weekend for an activity & Aiman had Carnival Day to raise $. His class was going to sell Domino's pizza!
So, went to TS Hospital with Durrah as my companion :)
We set out a bit late from home & so by the time we got there it was already 9.30am & had to park at the visitors 2nd level parking area. But, actually, it's better than the normal place we parked. Each lot is big & there were ample spaces available. Of course we had to walk a bit, but it was OK.
We were than scanned at the entrance. Today, it was round blue labels :)
The place was rather crowded than weekdays. However, as usual, it didn't take long. Durrah said I had 25 needles altogether. One number up than the last time! However, when the good doctor poked 2 needles on my right leg, I could feel a surge like an electrical shock being passed into my nerve. Maybe it had something to do with the muscle pain I was having this morning, due to the slight fall I had yesterday on my way towards the parking lot at work.
As usual, once done I would just get out of KL quickly before the jam.
As a token of my appreciation to Durrah, treated her to big breakfast at Bangsar Village, then to MPH for her to spend her $. She bought the novel INKHEART.
I really have to be careful. She didn't do so well in her Penulisan BM in the last exam!
After breakfast I took my 5x5mg (i.e. 25mg) Prednisolone, ie this would be my 2nd day of cutting down the steroid which had been in my body FAR too long!
Bought different types of vegetables at the grocer. I now heaped my plate with vegetables :)
I had to watch the blood glucose.
When we arrived home, woke T.Mak up for a lunch of take away Nando's. The lemon & herbs flavor with it's fries, mediterranean rice, cole slaw & salad actually is rather similar to something one could buy at the foodcourt in the Hilton's Complex in front of Masjidil Haram! \
So, now you know why I loved Nando's :)
My blood pressure was on the low side (compared to the recent weeks).
So, I only took half of the Myacardis.
Deep down, I was hoping that my test-tube body was on its way of getting back to normal, InsyaAllah.
I took time after lunch to re-organize the blog.
Had it really been 43 days since the onset of Bell's Palsy?
I hope people do realize that the entries were written later than the events, themselves. I relied on sms in my phone for facts/notes. Unfortunately, those notes were gone when the phone kena air.
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BP42 - 3 JULAI 2009 - JUMAAT
In my blurry state of mind (macam dalam pantang) I agreed to lunch with a few girl frineds from Chico at a Chinese Muslim restaurant in KJ... when actually:
a) it was my duty to send Durrah to school (school starts at 2 pm on Fridays) &
b) there's also one of my more important appointment with ProfKJG of UMMC at 2pm!
The last time I saw him was way back in June.
Kena buat clone!
Well, told Suami I just had to make sure that I get to UMMC before the clinic closed. Certainly wouldn't want to miss this particular appointment.
There was also the driving, because with my blurry right eye, driving in unfamiliar territory would be BAD!
Luckily, Saadah was back but she had to go ASM after lunch.
Like I told Nina "sempat tak sempat... kita sempatkan aja..."
So, the arrangement was for me to sedn Durrah very early to school... then Nina & I would get a ride from Saadah. Suami would pick us up after lunch to send us to UMMC. Nina would get her way back from there.
Kiah, Yusri & Yam had their lunch already when we got there. Umi couldn't make it due to her younger sister pulang ke rahmatullah.
Al Fatihah!
Topics of conversation was on status of health (mine, Rahman's, Yam's, Saadah's & our parents ) + health food + Michael Jackson + former Chico's Charlie's angel is now "an Amirah" (KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK) + etc.
Kiah, Yusri & Nina are healthy, Alhamdulillah!
It was such a short lunch, so maybe Kiah will organize another one maybe next month, huh?
Saadah dropped me at UMMC & after I registered myself, I went to my favourite surau in UMMC, up at the 5th floor!
My number was still not up when I got back down to the clinic at level 1.
Then, my number was flashed but I was assigned another doctor.
Noo... I wanted to see Prof KJG, so that there would be continuity. When I told that to the ladies at the registration table, I was told that I should had requested.
Then, I saw Prof KJG coming out of his no. 35 room. After I told him of my case he went lover to room no. 32 to get my file though of course he politely told me that I could also see the other doctor & that she's a very good doctor, etc.
Anyway, I just had to wait some more because there were others ahead of me to see him. I ended up getting to know the lady who was to see him before me: a Parkinson's Disease patient.
ProfKJG told me to taper off my steroid intake:
So, from 40mg (which I actually had done for a week, under suggestion of DrTS) I should be doing:
30mg (6 pills) for 2 days then
20mg (4 pills) for 2 days then
15mg (3 pills) for 2 days then
10mg (2 pills) for 2 days then
5mg (1 pill) for 2 days
before stopping for good.
Well, that morning I dah taken 5 pills (25mg) & I thought I would take the other 3 pills (15mg) after dinner.
I decided, well since this steroid was an unfriendly alien in my body... I would just go ahead & stopped my tapering off at 5 pills (25mg), ie 5 mg less than what was being suggested by ProfKJG :)
Prof KJG told me that I had another 30-40% more to fully recover.
I told him, "It doesn't really matter. I'll continue as as I have. After all I've organized 2 half-day seminar for the program post-grad students this week & last week I was attending a conference :)"
I was so delighted by the news that I could taper off the steroid... I was about to walk back to the department! Af course it was too far & luckily a taxi was willing to take me. Did some work at the office & went back late for the first time since I got the Bell's Palsy.
Unfortunately, the day had been long & for my current condition the activities were more than I could handle (?).
As I wss walking to the car which I parked up front... I took a wrong step & fell. Scratched my right knee :(
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EVEN THE SUN & THE EARTH DON'T LAST FOREVER... Dust in the wind...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2DSKHZ1TcZE
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BP31-->35 - (22-->26 JUN 2009) : ISNIN -->JUMAAT
For the first time I skipped my facial electrotherapy Monday morning session at UMMC. Instead, I was boarding the LRT from Taman Jaya after parking BFX at the last slot in the parking area. No place to sit, but luckily I was at a corner & so I could lean a bit.
I was on my way to KLCC Convention Center to attend the 14th ICOT!
Did on the spot registration because it seemed the online registration I did on Friday did not go through. After quickly sampling the snacks available, I went straight to Plenary Hall for the keynote speaker by Gardner (to be followed by the opening Ceremony).
Surprise... surprise... guess who happened to be at the door 'receiving' me. THE CONVENOR of the conference, Net's sister, herself!
The next surprise... as I was walking up the aisle, trying to get a seat... someone called up my name. It was Hazami, a close friend. Ada gang!
So, that's what I did for the next 5 days, except for Tuesday.
I'd be in Plenary Hall for the keynote speakers at 9am & I normally stayed on till late afternoon. Lunch was provided.
It was rather tiring, especially on days that I didn't get a seat in LRT... but the fact that I got to be in attendance & listening to individuals like Buzan & de Bono was well worth it.
Net's sister & her committee member did very well! They bid to be the host all the way in 2005! I cringed at *the challenges they had to face to manage an event of this size with big local & international names.
*2 small examples that happened right in front of my eyes:
a) A participant from Indonesia complaining to the convenor the fact that the organizer failed to supply face masks to each participant (in reference to the H1N1). Convenor looked frazzled... but, I thought the guy had a point!
b) A local speaker complaining that she felt very dissappointed that at an event billed as 'a workshop', it did not take place as her expectation about what a workshop should be. Exasperated convenor said something about 'one couldn't actually dictate these big names & 'workshop' could mean differently to individuals of different background'. Good answer :)
During the closing ceremony, there was a standing ovation for her & lots of accolades. Net's sister, the convenor, was all teary eyed & surely very thankful that she's passing on the baton to the next convenor, another lady, for the 15th ICOT in 2011 to be held in Belfast.
On Tuesday, I was at the department for 2 meetings -- agihan projek penyelidikan called by Yati & a Buku Panduan meeting for coordinators. I missed the talk by TunM. He was the main speaker for Tuesday.
On that day, I forced Zulfa & Amzari to use my pass to go. It was actually a conference for their kind of work & I wanted them to have a feel of attending a big conference.
I was very grateful that I was given the rezeki to attend a talk & get to know a couple who for the past 6 years had taken care their eldest son who had brain injury. I shared my experience at the session. We also discussed about the lack of support group available & I volunteered myself to be part of the association that they are going to form. Most probably, I would invite someone from their group for my Diseases of the Nervous System. I had also urged them to write a book of whatever aspect of their experience that they wanted to share with the public.
Of course another big news is the death of Michael Jackson @ Mikaeel (There were reports that he converted to Islam in November 2008).
Al Fatihah.
However, there are also some write ups against this news.
http://trueslant.com/alieteraz/2009/06/26/was-michael-jackson-muslim-and-his-islamic-burial/
I also 'grew up' with Michael Jackson's songs, especially when I was studying in Chico. Song like "She's Out Of My Life" will forever be stuck in my mind... Saadah you almost drove me crazy playing that song over & over again!
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a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BD5tqRqkWCI&feature=related">
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I was on my way to KLCC Convention Center to attend the 14th ICOT!
Did on the spot registration because it seemed the online registration I did on Friday did not go through. After quickly sampling the snacks available, I went straight to Plenary Hall for the keynote speaker by Gardner (to be followed by the opening Ceremony).
Surprise... surprise... guess who happened to be at the door 'receiving' me. THE CONVENOR of the conference, Net's sister, herself!
The next surprise... as I was walking up the aisle, trying to get a seat... someone called up my name. It was Hazami, a close friend. Ada gang!
So, that's what I did for the next 5 days, except for Tuesday.
I'd be in Plenary Hall for the keynote speakers at 9am & I normally stayed on till late afternoon. Lunch was provided.
It was rather tiring, especially on days that I didn't get a seat in LRT... but the fact that I got to be in attendance & listening to individuals like Buzan & de Bono was well worth it.
Net's sister & her committee member did very well! They bid to be the host all the way in 2005! I cringed at *the challenges they had to face to manage an event of this size with big local & international names.
*2 small examples that happened right in front of my eyes:
a) A participant from Indonesia complaining to the convenor the fact that the organizer failed to supply face masks to each participant (in reference to the H1N1). Convenor looked frazzled... but, I thought the guy had a point!
b) A local speaker complaining that she felt very dissappointed that at an event billed as 'a workshop', it did not take place as her expectation about what a workshop should be. Exasperated convenor said something about 'one couldn't actually dictate these big names & 'workshop' could mean differently to individuals of different background'. Good answer :)
During the closing ceremony, there was a standing ovation for her & lots of accolades. Net's sister, the convenor, was all teary eyed & surely very thankful that she's passing on the baton to the next convenor, another lady, for the 15th ICOT in 2011 to be held in Belfast.
On Tuesday, I was at the department for 2 meetings -- agihan projek penyelidikan called by Yati & a Buku Panduan meeting for coordinators. I missed the talk by TunM. He was the main speaker for Tuesday.
On that day, I forced Zulfa & Amzari to use my pass to go. It was actually a conference for their kind of work & I wanted them to have a feel of attending a big conference.
I was very grateful that I was given the rezeki to attend a talk & get to know a couple who for the past 6 years had taken care their eldest son who had brain injury. I shared my experience at the session. We also discussed about the lack of support group available & I volunteered myself to be part of the association that they are going to form. Most probably, I would invite someone from their group for my Diseases of the Nervous System. I had also urged them to write a book of whatever aspect of their experience that they wanted to share with the public.
Of course another big news is the death of Michael Jackson @ Mikaeel (There were reports that he converted to Islam in November 2008).
Al Fatihah.
However, there are also some write ups against this news.
http://trueslant.com/alieteraz/2009/06/26/was-michael-jackson-muslim-and-his-islamic-burial/
I also 'grew up' with Michael Jackson's songs, especially when I was studying in Chico. Song like "She's Out Of My Life" will forever be stuck in my mind... Saadah you almost drove me crazy playing that song over & over again!
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BP22 - 13 JUN 2009 : SABTU
Went to TS Hospital with husband since I planned to attend ICOT next week. This was the first time that I went for an acupuncture session on a Saturday.
As we came in at teh door, body temperature was checked. A small yellow round sticker was put on each of our clothing to indicate that we passed the test :)
There were many people & both of us thought we were in for a long wait.
Yet, just as I was about to sit at the waiting area in fron of Room 120, a nurse waived to me & asked me to come in to a 3 beds room. There were already 2 elederly Chinese ladies & so I became the 3rd person!
Rezeki, Alhamdullillah :)
However, Suami was not allowed to come in.
We went out of KL straight away & headed to Bangsar Village for breakfast at one of the cafe located within the grocery store. 2 big breakfasts :)
As we came in at teh door, body temperature was checked. A small yellow round sticker was put on each of our clothing to indicate that we passed the test :)
There were many people & both of us thought we were in for a long wait.
Yet, just as I was about to sit at the waiting area in fron of Room 120, a nurse waived to me & asked me to come in to a 3 beds room. There were already 2 elederly Chinese ladies & so I became the 3rd person!
Rezeki, Alhamdullillah :)
However, Suami was not allowed to come in.
We went out of KL straight away & headed to Bangsar Village for breakfast at one of the cafe located within the grocery store. 2 big breakfasts :)
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
BP20 - 11 JUN 2009 : KHAMIS
When I was checking my e mail, found one from Nuruddin about 14th ICOT to be held next week.
I sort of seen the notification about the it ages ago, but it looked like it was such a hodge-podge conference (macam bubur lambuk... the focus wasn't there, I thought). There was going to be talk from leaders, academicians, businessmen, etc.
However, now they had the details of the programme & I found a few which were directly related to Neuroscince & on memory (good for Zulfa who would be looking at hafazan & Amzari who would use some sort of memory test for the Qiamullail activity).
So, I signed up online & would just have to apply for cuti khas persidangan. Too late to get peruntukan persidangan. $850 after discount registration (It was supposed to be $1,200) :(
I sort of seen the notification about the it ages ago, but it looked like it was such a hodge-podge conference (macam bubur lambuk... the focus wasn't there, I thought). There was going to be talk from leaders, academicians, businessmen, etc.
However, now they had the details of the programme & I found a few which were directly related to Neuroscince & on memory (good for Zulfa who would be looking at hafazan & Amzari who would use some sort of memory test for the Qiamullail activity).
So, I signed up online & would just have to apply for cuti khas persidangan. Too late to get peruntukan persidangan. $850 after discount registration (It was supposed to be $1,200) :(
BP19 - 10 JUN 2009 : RABU
I asked Kak Ijah & Kak Erah to accompany me for a massage that I badly need for my shoulder-back aches at TO in Bangsar Village 2. The headquarter of this Thai spa is in Mega Mall & it is one of those establishment which is is above board, professional, clean... of course it cost a bomb (at least in my scale of spending)!
Seronok-seronok sekali-sekala ok lah :)
When T.Mak could still walk a lot more than now, we have brought her there & she enjoyed the foot & back massages. The branch in Bangsar Village 2 looked like it is easily accessible & a bit more exclusive, but I've never been there & it would be nice to beramai-ramai to check out the place.
We didn't go with Pak Mat Des as we originally planned to, because Abang Em turned up to take BFX. He wanted to borrow it to balik kampung for kenduri of his adik ipar (Zali). So, we made him drove us to Bangsar.
Instead of going straight to the place, we walked straight into HJ on the ground floor.
For whatever reason, I've always ended getting something to commemarate significant events, e.g. Adlan-Sakina's, Irfan-Idura's... cari alasan saja.
Sometime back (after the Bell's Palsy episode), I've already made up my mind to get a pair of earings. Ye lah, to raikan the facial nerve that passed by near the ear. Ha... Ha... Ha...
I've seen a pair which was on sale for 50% off in one of those flyer advertisements that was shoved in my home mailbox.
Well, just my luck... that pair was no longer available, but a pair was just brought in the day before & it was 70% off! The cost was slightly less than the one advertised & this pair have 2 dangling items each which could be slipped on &off.
OK, I could give each of the dangling items to my future 2 daughter in laws!
So, in my 'cheapskate mind" this would be a good buy -- 70% off, hadiah untuk telinga, hadiah untuk bakal menantu... wah, multifunction buy!
Then Kak Ijah pun menggalakan dengan ungkapan,"Duit kamu... "
A funny thing happened...
Since, I didn't bring that much cash on me, I used my VISA card.
When I signed the bill, I stopped after 'signing' my name as "BELL". What was I thinking? Takkan sampai tukar nama ikut penyakit? Actually, I was about to continue signing on the 'name' "PALSY" when I realized what I just wrote down.
Adoi! Ini dah naik sasau!
I looked at the salesman & sheepishly informed him, "Dik sorry... Nama saya bukan Bell, tapi awak tengok muka saya ni... penyakit ni namanya Bell's Palsy..."
I didn't know what went through his mind, but Kak Ijah & Kak Erah nak ketawa mungkin sedih pun ada rasanya.
Kak Erah kata, "Sign aja apa-apa, dia orang terima aja...". Ye lah tu!
Anyway, I cancelled off "BELL" then signed my name. Terus pakai the dangling earing!
We walked on a bit through the different floors. At Hajaba I just sat at the chair while Kak Ijah & Kak Erah were looking at the clothings & tudung... Every now & then they metioned "Una" (my 6th sibling). Yeah... ini semua barang yang look good on Una & she can afford it. Kak Erah bought a heart-shape pink pendant for Fitrah :)
By the time we reached TO, I decided that I would belanja my sisters. Kak Erah was a bit reluctant... relax lah Kak Erah. You're on a holiday!
So, Kak Erah went for the foot massage while both me & Kak Ijah went for the half body (shoulder, etc) massage.
Since most of the time I had been sleeping in not very normal position, my body was aching all over.
It had been reported that although Bell's Palsy was supposed to effect only the facial nerve, thus specifically only the facial muscle control... yet, there seemed to be some individuals who could not physically stable themselves, e.g. while standing, walking, etc.
Guess what, I'm one of them. So, my walking & standing sometimes might be a bit wobbly / not steady. That could create some back aches, also.
Once done, we went to MPH. Each of them bought books for their grand-daughter (Ayrah & Qaisarah). I got few reference books for Arafah who would be sitting for her UPSR. We're hoping she would start her generation of cousins studying in the new Sek. Men. Sains BD.
Lunch at Nando's then we went back by cab.
Good outing with my 3rd & 4th siblings !
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Seronok-seronok sekali-sekala ok lah :)
When T.Mak could still walk a lot more than now, we have brought her there & she enjoyed the foot & back massages. The branch in Bangsar Village 2 looked like it is easily accessible & a bit more exclusive, but I've never been there & it would be nice to beramai-ramai to check out the place.
We didn't go with Pak Mat Des as we originally planned to, because Abang Em turned up to take BFX. He wanted to borrow it to balik kampung for kenduri of his adik ipar (Zali). So, we made him drove us to Bangsar.
Instead of going straight to the place, we walked straight into HJ on the ground floor.
For whatever reason, I've always ended getting something to commemarate significant events, e.g. Adlan-Sakina's, Irfan-Idura's... cari alasan saja.
Sometime back (after the Bell's Palsy episode), I've already made up my mind to get a pair of earings. Ye lah, to raikan the facial nerve that passed by near the ear. Ha... Ha... Ha...
I've seen a pair which was on sale for 50% off in one of those flyer advertisements that was shoved in my home mailbox.
Well, just my luck... that pair was no longer available, but a pair was just brought in the day before & it was 70% off! The cost was slightly less than the one advertised & this pair have 2 dangling items each which could be slipped on &off.
OK, I could give each of the dangling items to my future 2 daughter in laws!
So, in my 'cheapskate mind" this would be a good buy -- 70% off, hadiah untuk telinga, hadiah untuk bakal menantu... wah, multifunction buy!
Then Kak Ijah pun menggalakan dengan ungkapan,"Duit kamu... "
A funny thing happened...
Since, I didn't bring that much cash on me, I used my VISA card.
When I signed the bill, I stopped after 'signing' my name as "BELL". What was I thinking? Takkan sampai tukar nama ikut penyakit? Actually, I was about to continue signing on the 'name' "PALSY" when I realized what I just wrote down.
Adoi! Ini dah naik sasau!
I looked at the salesman & sheepishly informed him, "Dik sorry... Nama saya bukan Bell, tapi awak tengok muka saya ni... penyakit ni namanya Bell's Palsy..."
I didn't know what went through his mind, but Kak Ijah & Kak Erah nak ketawa mungkin sedih pun ada rasanya.
Kak Erah kata, "Sign aja apa-apa, dia orang terima aja...". Ye lah tu!
Anyway, I cancelled off "BELL" then signed my name. Terus pakai the dangling earing!
We walked on a bit through the different floors. At Hajaba I just sat at the chair while Kak Ijah & Kak Erah were looking at the clothings & tudung... Every now & then they metioned "Una" (my 6th sibling). Yeah... ini semua barang yang look good on Una & she can afford it. Kak Erah bought a heart-shape pink pendant for Fitrah :)
By the time we reached TO, I decided that I would belanja my sisters. Kak Erah was a bit reluctant... relax lah Kak Erah. You're on a holiday!
So, Kak Erah went for the foot massage while both me & Kak Ijah went for the half body (shoulder, etc) massage.
Since most of the time I had been sleeping in not very normal position, my body was aching all over.
It had been reported that although Bell's Palsy was supposed to effect only the facial nerve, thus specifically only the facial muscle control... yet, there seemed to be some individuals who could not physically stable themselves, e.g. while standing, walking, etc.
Guess what, I'm one of them. So, my walking & standing sometimes might be a bit wobbly / not steady. That could create some back aches, also.
Once done, we went to MPH. Each of them bought books for their grand-daughter (Ayrah & Qaisarah). I got few reference books for Arafah who would be sitting for her UPSR. We're hoping she would start her generation of cousins studying in the new Sek. Men. Sains BD.
Lunch at Nando's then we went back by cab.
Good outing with my 3rd & 4th siblings !
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Monday, June 29, 2009
BP18 - 9 JUN 2009 : SELASA
Kak Erah & I went out again with Pak Mat Des to Institut Tun Hussin Onn Eye Center. I told her that I wanted to change the frame of my current glasses to a lighter one. Furthermore, the left lense had came off & there was a chip on one of the corners. I wasn't just going to accompany her.
First we have her registered then we went to the optomerist. This time Dr. Azimah was there & I told her about what we wanted todo the day before. Since we already saw Dr. Linda, she didn't see a need to see us. She looked sad, though. Anyway, then she went about helping me to get the right frame. By then, I realized that I left my phone in Pak Mat's cab. Kak Erah's phone wasn't working & she had passed it to Fitrah to get it fixed! Double AIIYYAA!!!
So, called up Aiman at home asking him to tell Pak Mat Des about my phone & to get Fitrah's number to make arrangement about fetching Kak Erah. I had my TS acupuncture session to keep, in addition to having Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah-Rahil-Ayra wanting to tag along!
The test Kak Erah had to undergo didn't go well.
She had to repeat the tests so very many times... maybe she was too anxious or maybe the computer-Dr Linda should just accept the 'weird' results from Kak Erah as one of those out of the regular results.
After all Kak Erah is certainly NOT your regular kind of person!
Finally, Dr. Linda decided that Kak Erah should just quit the test & it was already 3.30pm. She had to wait some more for Dr. Linda's analysis of the results & while waiting she had a bowl of mee curry at the cafeteria.
Again, I thought, "Hey... that's a lot of carbo. I have to help her finished it!" So, when she went to the toilet, I finished whatever was in the bowl & buat-buat tak faham saja when she came back in. He... He...
Finally, Pak Mat Des arrived & we went back home for me to solat Zohor, get Naza, get TS registration card & picked up the others from VA.
Of course, Pak Mat Des knows all the short cuts & we managed to get there in time to see Dr. Wu. Phew!
Rahil was having bouts of migraine almost daily & so she wanted to try acupuncture. So, me & her we shared a room with 2 beds for the acupuncture treatment. I was behind a curtained bed since Pak Pozi was sitting in the room menemankan his one & only daughter going through the rather adventurous-scary experience. Kak Ijah was with Ayra going in & out of the room... well, mostly out!
I had about the same number of needles on my right foot, arm, face, middle of the head & one on my left forehead (I was told later by a colleague, Prof Datin LAL that energy from the OK left side was being pulled to the right!)
It helped to have people you know & close to your heart while you're being poked by those needles :)
Before we were finished, Kak Erah & Fitrah arrived. By then, however, the registration for 2-5pm had closed.
We thought it was Fitrah who wanted to try acupuncture for her shoulder pain.
As usual easily scared (with things like this lah... hal lain ya amat berani!) Kak Erah wanted to pull out -- herself and/or for her daughter, ie after Fitrah dah pecut across town at the busy time of the day!
I decided to leave early first with Rahil-Ayra & Pak Mat Des.
It had been a long day for me & with my usual sleeping of only about 2-3 hours a night, I was about to pengsan.
However, I did sempat said this to Kak Erah, "Nabi pun kata unta kena ikat dulu... kemudian kita tawakkal"
Later on that night, it seemed Kak Erah got herself registered but not for acupuncture... for traditional-herbs medicine of her diabetes. Not fair... her herbs ubat was already bottled!
Whateverlah.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQTj5OzQMy8&feature
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First we have her registered then we went to the optomerist. This time Dr. Azimah was there & I told her about what we wanted todo the day before. Since we already saw Dr. Linda, she didn't see a need to see us. She looked sad, though. Anyway, then she went about helping me to get the right frame. By then, I realized that I left my phone in Pak Mat's cab. Kak Erah's phone wasn't working & she had passed it to Fitrah to get it fixed! Double AIIYYAA!!!
So, called up Aiman at home asking him to tell Pak Mat Des about my phone & to get Fitrah's number to make arrangement about fetching Kak Erah. I had my TS acupuncture session to keep, in addition to having Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah-Rahil-Ayra wanting to tag along!
The test Kak Erah had to undergo didn't go well.
She had to repeat the tests so very many times... maybe she was too anxious or maybe the computer-Dr Linda should just accept the 'weird' results from Kak Erah as one of those out of the regular results.
After all Kak Erah is certainly NOT your regular kind of person!
Finally, Dr. Linda decided that Kak Erah should just quit the test & it was already 3.30pm. She had to wait some more for Dr. Linda's analysis of the results & while waiting she had a bowl of mee curry at the cafeteria.
Again, I thought, "Hey... that's a lot of carbo. I have to help her finished it!" So, when she went to the toilet, I finished whatever was in the bowl & buat-buat tak faham saja when she came back in. He... He...
Finally, Pak Mat Des arrived & we went back home for me to solat Zohor, get Naza, get TS registration card & picked up the others from VA.
Of course, Pak Mat Des knows all the short cuts & we managed to get there in time to see Dr. Wu. Phew!
Rahil was having bouts of migraine almost daily & so she wanted to try acupuncture. So, me & her we shared a room with 2 beds for the acupuncture treatment. I was behind a curtained bed since Pak Pozi was sitting in the room menemankan his one & only daughter going through the rather adventurous-scary experience. Kak Ijah was with Ayra going in & out of the room... well, mostly out!
I had about the same number of needles on my right foot, arm, face, middle of the head & one on my left forehead (I was told later by a colleague, Prof Datin LAL that energy from the OK left side was being pulled to the right!)
It helped to have people you know & close to your heart while you're being poked by those needles :)
Before we were finished, Kak Erah & Fitrah arrived. By then, however, the registration for 2-5pm had closed.
We thought it was Fitrah who wanted to try acupuncture for her shoulder pain.
As usual easily scared (with things like this lah... hal lain ya amat berani!) Kak Erah wanted to pull out -- herself and/or for her daughter, ie after Fitrah dah pecut across town at the busy time of the day!
I decided to leave early first with Rahil-Ayra & Pak Mat Des.
It had been a long day for me & with my usual sleeping of only about 2-3 hours a night, I was about to pengsan.
However, I did sempat said this to Kak Erah, "Nabi pun kata unta kena ikat dulu... kemudian kita tawakkal"
Later on that night, it seemed Kak Erah got herself registered but not for acupuncture... for traditional-herbs medicine of her diabetes. Not fair... her herbs ubat was already bottled!
Whateverlah.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rQTj5OzQMy8&feature
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Thursday, June 25, 2009
BP17 - 8 JUN 2009 : ISNIN
I went out with Suami for my weekly facial electrotherapy massage at UMMC. To the frequency of the session, the girl whom I normally deals with told me it's done once a week because of the unavailability of it. However, if I want to do more than once a week, I would have to get maybe a doctor from UMSC to give the instruction, i.e. best to see same doctor that's seeing you in UMMC. In my case Prof KJG.
I've put up the idea to him & he didn't buy it. I had blurted to him about my acupuncture dos.
Anyway, As usual, I brought some work that I can pass my time with while undergoing the session. Talked to CT Aisyah a bit... UMMC still have things to check on her neck-arm excruciating pain.
Went back straight home with a cab. Getting a cab at the front entrance of UMMC is easy in the morning-noon time. There are always people that the cabs are sending -- patients & would be patients plus of course those who came visiting. BUT, try to get them in very late afternoon... the drivers become choosy & there was in 1 occasion, the driver refused to use the meter to go to AMCORP! Flat fee of $5.
At home Kak Erah was browsing the internet & she was already ready to go with me to Institut Tun Hussien Onn at 11am naik teksi Pak Mat Des when he sent Aiman from tuition.
I just wanted to see Dr Azimah (*PP honorary optomerist) & just get her opinion on my blurry right eye & discuss about sleeping problem, etc.
Of course killing 2 birds with 1 stone... I wanted Kak Erah to have a proper eye check up, since she's a cronic diabetic person. Deep down I didn't think she would agree to any of thet, so having her to see Dr Azimah would be the least I could trick her into doing!
We stopped by at the department first to exchange documents with the NeuroRG grad students. I then made them meet Kak Erah, who was waiting for me in the taxi. I didn't expect her to come out... but she did & held center court at the parking lot. Kut politician... politician lah juga :)
Aiyaa... our luck... Dr Azimah was on leave for the day. Only 2 optomerists working & so they were not accepting any more patients!!
Managed to convince Kak Erah to join me & see Dr. Linda, an eye specialist (I've seen her before). Begrudgingly, she relented. So, I did the registration for her, etc.
Later on, I figured out it was because she felt uneasy because she didn't have enough cash on her. Passed her some $ that I wanted to give to Al-Ulum & told her that she could use it first.
We had our eyesight checked & of course I failed misreably with my watery-blurry right eye :(
By the time we were in front of Dr. Linda's clinic, it was way past noon. Her nurse called our names only to tell us to go to lunch, but to be back by 2.30pm! Ooo.. Ooo.. Kak Erah yang takut jumpa apa-apa doktor pun... ajak balik :(
Told her, pada balik... baik pi AMCORP lunch & shopping... after all we're already outside.
We walked out to the main road & got into a taxi. At about the same time, received an sms from Kak Ijah informing us she's in AMCORP with Pak Pozi for lunch.
Yeay, maybe she could help me convince HER younger sister to see Dr Linda at 2.30pm :)
We had our lunch at another Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah's favourite restaurant. Kak Erah ordered mee bandung Muar which was served in a big bowl & I thought, " Wow... so much carbo! Bad for her diabetes! I have to help her finish this one!"
Kamila called asking my whereabouts. Supposedly a group of people were with her & they thought of coming to visit me.
(People, I know & appreciate that you all are concerned about me... Rezeki dalam bentuk friendship!
BUT (a big one) I hate being "VISITED". It's as if I'm sick... I'm in a denial mode ! Meet me for breakfast, lunch, high tea... no need to visit me lah!)
We were at a shop, choosing tudungs when Dr. Linda's nurse called to remind us to come back for our appointment. Kak Ijah made arrangement to send us in TAF. Yeay, Kak Erah just had to ikut. Itu pun, on the way out sempat lagi tengok baju-baju jualan. Belilah baju kurung warna tema lilac-purplish Tini & Bibik Khasanah untuk kenduri bertunang Muaz.
We had to wait a bit before our the pupils of our eyes (anak mata) were dilated. Each of us had sticker put on our tudung & we were making jokes about the 2 of us invalids trying to find our way home after that. Both of us went in together to see Dr. Linda:
1) She told me that mine is a temporary condition due to the Bell's Palsy condition. She also prescribed me a type of gel for the eye (to which I would be grateful for) -- GenTeal Gel (a product of Novartis) -- as an additional protection for the unblinking-always opened right eye. Gave me an MC for the day.
2) As for Kak Erah, looked like she had both her optic nerves (cranial nerve II) macam bengkak-kembang sedikit & some other non-normal indicators. Dr. Linda wanted her to take more test the next day at 1pm.
Ooo... Ooo...
We rushed home then went out again to bring T.Mak to see Prof KJG at UMSC. Fitrah sent us. It didn't take long & as usual we normally enjoyed chatting with Prof KJG. T.Mak was prescribed her usual Aricept.
As we normally do, we went down to the cafetaria to have our minum petang. Hey, they sell waffles now!
Sitting at the same table from which T.Mak could look at the cars coming out of the PJ gate, she would eventually asked about the big trees up on the slope of the back of the Engineering Faculty & also 'the brightness' from the setting of the sun which could also be seen through the glass doors of the cafetaria.
I had Suami picked me up from UMSC on his way to pick up Durrah, leaving them to continue with the outing & to be picked up later by Pak Pozi.
I was close to my limit of what I could physically handle.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=giUlSGaXeSM&feature=related
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I've put up the idea to him & he didn't buy it. I had blurted to him about my acupuncture dos.
Anyway, As usual, I brought some work that I can pass my time with while undergoing the session. Talked to CT Aisyah a bit... UMMC still have things to check on her neck-arm excruciating pain.
Went back straight home with a cab. Getting a cab at the front entrance of UMMC is easy in the morning-noon time. There are always people that the cabs are sending -- patients & would be patients plus of course those who came visiting. BUT, try to get them in very late afternoon... the drivers become choosy & there was in 1 occasion, the driver refused to use the meter to go to AMCORP! Flat fee of $5.
At home Kak Erah was browsing the internet & she was already ready to go with me to Institut Tun Hussien Onn at 11am naik teksi Pak Mat Des when he sent Aiman from tuition.
I just wanted to see Dr Azimah (*PP honorary optomerist) & just get her opinion on my blurry right eye & discuss about sleeping problem, etc.
Of course killing 2 birds with 1 stone... I wanted Kak Erah to have a proper eye check up, since she's a cronic diabetic person. Deep down I didn't think she would agree to any of thet, so having her to see Dr Azimah would be the least I could trick her into doing!
We stopped by at the department first to exchange documents with the NeuroRG grad students. I then made them meet Kak Erah, who was waiting for me in the taxi. I didn't expect her to come out... but she did & held center court at the parking lot. Kut politician... politician lah juga :)
Aiyaa... our luck... Dr Azimah was on leave for the day. Only 2 optomerists working & so they were not accepting any more patients!!
Managed to convince Kak Erah to join me & see Dr. Linda, an eye specialist (I've seen her before). Begrudgingly, she relented. So, I did the registration for her, etc.
Later on, I figured out it was because she felt uneasy because she didn't have enough cash on her. Passed her some $ that I wanted to give to Al-Ulum & told her that she could use it first.
We had our eyesight checked & of course I failed misreably with my watery-blurry right eye :(
By the time we were in front of Dr. Linda's clinic, it was way past noon. Her nurse called our names only to tell us to go to lunch, but to be back by 2.30pm! Ooo.. Ooo.. Kak Erah yang takut jumpa apa-apa doktor pun... ajak balik :(
Told her, pada balik... baik pi AMCORP lunch & shopping... after all we're already outside.
We walked out to the main road & got into a taxi. At about the same time, received an sms from Kak Ijah informing us she's in AMCORP with Pak Pozi for lunch.
Yeay, maybe she could help me convince HER younger sister to see Dr Linda at 2.30pm :)
We had our lunch at another Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah's favourite restaurant. Kak Erah ordered mee bandung Muar which was served in a big bowl & I thought, " Wow... so much carbo! Bad for her diabetes! I have to help her finish this one!"
Kamila called asking my whereabouts. Supposedly a group of people were with her & they thought of coming to visit me.
(People, I know & appreciate that you all are concerned about me... Rezeki dalam bentuk friendship!
BUT (a big one) I hate being "VISITED". It's as if I'm sick... I'm in a denial mode ! Meet me for breakfast, lunch, high tea... no need to visit me lah!)
We were at a shop, choosing tudungs when Dr. Linda's nurse called to remind us to come back for our appointment. Kak Ijah made arrangement to send us in TAF. Yeay, Kak Erah just had to ikut. Itu pun, on the way out sempat lagi tengok baju-baju jualan. Belilah baju kurung warna tema lilac-purplish Tini & Bibik Khasanah untuk kenduri bertunang Muaz.
We had to wait a bit before our the pupils of our eyes (anak mata) were dilated. Each of us had sticker put on our tudung & we were making jokes about the 2 of us invalids trying to find our way home after that. Both of us went in together to see Dr. Linda:
1) She told me that mine is a temporary condition due to the Bell's Palsy condition. She also prescribed me a type of gel for the eye (to which I would be grateful for) -- GenTeal Gel (a product of Novartis) -- as an additional protection for the unblinking-always opened right eye. Gave me an MC for the day.
2) As for Kak Erah, looked like she had both her optic nerves (cranial nerve II) macam bengkak-kembang sedikit & some other non-normal indicators. Dr. Linda wanted her to take more test the next day at 1pm.
Ooo... Ooo...
We rushed home then went out again to bring T.Mak to see Prof KJG at UMSC. Fitrah sent us. It didn't take long & as usual we normally enjoyed chatting with Prof KJG. T.Mak was prescribed her usual Aricept.
As we normally do, we went down to the cafetaria to have our minum petang. Hey, they sell waffles now!
Sitting at the same table from which T.Mak could look at the cars coming out of the PJ gate, she would eventually asked about the big trees up on the slope of the back of the Engineering Faculty & also 'the brightness' from the setting of the sun which could also be seen through the glass doors of the cafetaria.
I had Suami picked me up from UMSC on his way to pick up Durrah, leaving them to continue with the outing & to be picked up later by Pak Pozi.
I was close to my limit of what I could physically handle.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=giUlSGaXeSM&feature=related
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Saturday, June 20, 2009
BP16 - 7 JUN 2009 : AHAD
2 weeks of the Bell's Palsy episode... I am past the 'rush hour' period, now time to reflect & plan for the next course of actions.
So, I went for my walk at the reflexology path at the nearby park.
I must remember to tell Durrah that 2 swings of her favourite spot in the park were vandalized!My Sunday usual routine... Today, Durrah in Bukit Maxwell celebrating Datin Osh's b'day! Osh shared same b'day as aruah Azran (Suami's younger brother).
Being in the park is also the time I normally used to look through my sms & do tidying up.
The words of encouragement I received not just through the sms / e mails, etc etc etc just amazed me. People have been very kind.
Syukur, ini juga rezeki :)
So, things I would be doing:
1) Monday -- Facial electrotherapy at UMMC early in the morning.
2) Monday -- To Institut Mata Tun Hussin Onn after that. Blurriness of the right eye bothering me a lot & worrying me!
3) Tuesday -- TS Hospital (3rd acupuncture session)
4) Wednesday -- Massage at TO in Bangsar Village II & maybe buy ear rings (?) to commemarate the inflammed facial nerve passing close by the right ear. Ha... Ha... Cari excuse saja nak shopping :)
5) Thursday -- Meeting of coordinators in the department
6) Friday -- TS Hospital (4th acupuncture session)
Intake wise -- prednisolone & medications to counter its effects; some nutrients to help the nerve (honey, CENTRUM multivitamin, Zinc, POE / Primrose evening oil suggested by June, methycobal.
Amzar eagerly drove Suami-Aiman to Pasar Tani of Bukit Angkasa for their usual grilled lamb chops! Ate breakfast bought by them & then just laze around reading Sunday papers before preparing to send Amzar to Nilai.
On the way back from Nilai, I was discussing with Aiman about his current ambition / future plans.
It was very obvious that he wanted to go to ASiS but I hope not to follow it up with law (as big brother, Amzar)!
Aiman said that he didn't want to just be engineer who build roads, etc or architect who build buildings but... would like to do something '*useful' to the society, something along doing medicine, etc. Adoii... can just imagine him 'tersilap bedah, etc'.
(*Roads & buildings are useful lah Aiman!)
I mean, this second son of mine (whose laughter has this power to induce smile from those just hearing him laughes) had among others:
- Hurt his head on edge of a PD hotel swimming pool by somersaulting backwards!
This happened within 10 minutes after I strongly warned him NOT to jump/run into the pool because it was dangerous. He innocently told me that he had followed my instructions, i.e. he DID not jump/run into the pool! Yeah, he somersaulted backwards!
- Had 20+ stitches in & around his mouth-lips when his father yanked his head out from being stuck in the space in between the escalator & the wall as you go up the escalator near KFC of Mega Mall. Figure that out.
He was just testing the size of the space!
- Had his knee stitched up because he walked into the drain at school while looking at a cat which was being 'tortured' by some bigger boys
So, I'm always grateful, amat bersyukur to ALLAH swt when he reached his annual b'day!
Back to his ambition, suggested to him maybe he could do Biomedical Engineering? That would be marrying Biology-Medicine-Engineering/Mathematics. Gave him my condition as an example:
- Modern medicine couldn't really do anything, anymore. More of a waiting game & hoping-praying the nerve will have a speedy & complete recovery, InsyaAllah.
- It would be nice if for example a chip could be implanted near the edge of the non-functioning side of the lips & it could be activated when Bell's Palsy victim like me want to pronounce problematic words (e.g. the ones with "BBB", "MMM", "PPP").
It would be a BIG help during the recovery period :)
Currently, I have to:
a) alternatively choose another word with similar meaning or
b) use my finger to pull slightly the right edge of my lips.
(*This had the effect of some of my graduate students, without them realizing, having their own fingers placed on their cheeks while talking to me! Maybe, unconsciously they feel that they're helping me with my speech!)
This way I could speak as fast as I normally would & it would be less difficult for the person I'm conversing with to understand me.
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Doa saya selama ini adalah supaya SEMUA yang membantu & cuba membantu (+ berniat untuk membantu pun) saya dalam apa-apa hal kebajikan (apa bentuk sekali pun) diberi ganjaran sebaiknya oleh ALLAH swt.
Terlebih lagilah doa yang sama ini saya panjatkan kepadaNYA semasa saya mengalami episod Bell's Palsy!
Amin...
Terima kasih semua :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Row45JVFKsA&feature=related
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So, I went for my walk at the reflexology path at the nearby park.
I must remember to tell Durrah that 2 swings of her favourite spot in the park were vandalized!My Sunday usual routine... Today, Durrah in Bukit Maxwell celebrating Datin Osh's b'day! Osh shared same b'day as aruah Azran (Suami's younger brother).
Being in the park is also the time I normally used to look through my sms & do tidying up.
The words of encouragement I received not just through the sms / e mails, etc etc etc just amazed me. People have been very kind.
Syukur, ini juga rezeki :)
So, things I would be doing:
1) Monday -- Facial electrotherapy at UMMC early in the morning.
2) Monday -- To Institut Mata Tun Hussin Onn after that. Blurriness of the right eye bothering me a lot & worrying me!
3) Tuesday -- TS Hospital (3rd acupuncture session)
4) Wednesday -- Massage at TO in Bangsar Village II & maybe buy ear rings (?) to commemarate the inflammed facial nerve passing close by the right ear. Ha... Ha... Cari excuse saja nak shopping :)
5) Thursday -- Meeting of coordinators in the department
6) Friday -- TS Hospital (4th acupuncture session)
Intake wise -- prednisolone & medications to counter its effects; some nutrients to help the nerve (honey, CENTRUM multivitamin, Zinc, POE / Primrose evening oil suggested by June, methycobal.
Amzar eagerly drove Suami-Aiman to Pasar Tani of Bukit Angkasa for their usual grilled lamb chops! Ate breakfast bought by them & then just laze around reading Sunday papers before preparing to send Amzar to Nilai.
On the way back from Nilai, I was discussing with Aiman about his current ambition / future plans.
It was very obvious that he wanted to go to ASiS but I hope not to follow it up with law (as big brother, Amzar)!
Aiman said that he didn't want to just be engineer who build roads, etc or architect who build buildings but... would like to do something '*useful' to the society, something along doing medicine, etc. Adoii... can just imagine him 'tersilap bedah, etc'.
(*Roads & buildings are useful lah Aiman!)
I mean, this second son of mine (whose laughter has this power to induce smile from those just hearing him laughes) had among others:
- Hurt his head on edge of a PD hotel swimming pool by somersaulting backwards!
This happened within 10 minutes after I strongly warned him NOT to jump/run into the pool because it was dangerous. He innocently told me that he had followed my instructions, i.e. he DID not jump/run into the pool! Yeah, he somersaulted backwards!
- Had 20+ stitches in & around his mouth-lips when his father yanked his head out from being stuck in the space in between the escalator & the wall as you go up the escalator near KFC of Mega Mall. Figure that out.
He was just testing the size of the space!
- Had his knee stitched up because he walked into the drain at school while looking at a cat which was being 'tortured' by some bigger boys
So, I'm always grateful, amat bersyukur to ALLAH swt when he reached his annual b'day!
Back to his ambition, suggested to him maybe he could do Biomedical Engineering? That would be marrying Biology-Medicine-Engineering/Mathematics. Gave him my condition as an example:
- Modern medicine couldn't really do anything, anymore. More of a waiting game & hoping-praying the nerve will have a speedy & complete recovery, InsyaAllah.
- It would be nice if for example a chip could be implanted near the edge of the non-functioning side of the lips & it could be activated when Bell's Palsy victim like me want to pronounce problematic words (e.g. the ones with "BBB", "MMM", "PPP").
It would be a BIG help during the recovery period :)
Currently, I have to:
a) alternatively choose another word with similar meaning or
b) use my finger to pull slightly the right edge of my lips.
(*This had the effect of some of my graduate students, without them realizing, having their own fingers placed on their cheeks while talking to me! Maybe, unconsciously they feel that they're helping me with my speech!)
This way I could speak as fast as I normally would & it would be less difficult for the person I'm conversing with to understand me.
******************************************
Doa saya selama ini adalah supaya SEMUA yang membantu & cuba membantu (+ berniat untuk membantu pun) saya dalam apa-apa hal kebajikan (apa bentuk sekali pun) diberi ganjaran sebaiknya oleh ALLAH swt.
Terlebih lagilah doa yang sama ini saya panjatkan kepadaNYA semasa saya mengalami episod Bell's Palsy!
Amin...
Terima kasih semua :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Row45JVFKsA&feature=related
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BP15 - 6 JUN 2009 : SABTU
After Kak Erah & her infamous blogger friend left the house for the gathering in Shah Alam (sent by Fitrah), we left for a Jala Emas breakfast at States.
Amzar, eager to drive!
THEN, I saw the damage done by my 117 gate to the BFX (driver's door)!
Well... certainly not going to fix it. Let it be a reminder to the new driver.
I thought I want to give good food to my body. So, instead the usual nasi lemak, etc... bought set roti bakar & telor ayam kampung separuh masak + madu.
Berkesan ke makan yang sihat-sihat ni sekali-sekala? Ni ala-ala mencurah air ke daun keladi?
Had a restful day, just dozing off here-there & everywhere.
For dinner, we went out to try another of Pak Pozi's favourite restaurant -- Ali Cafe (?) with the aluminium gate.
We were there rather early, so easy parking & all.
By now, I've a regiment of a sort to do "facial muscle exercise" by berzikir-bertasbih after every solat & of course the usual reading of al-Quran.
The bbb---mmm---ppp---etc, etc, etc are all there :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtBO26wJt48&feature=related
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Amzar, eager to drive!
THEN, I saw the damage done by my 117 gate to the BFX (driver's door)!
Well... certainly not going to fix it. Let it be a reminder to the new driver.
I thought I want to give good food to my body. So, instead the usual nasi lemak, etc... bought set roti bakar & telor ayam kampung separuh masak + madu.
Berkesan ke makan yang sihat-sihat ni sekali-sekala? Ni ala-ala mencurah air ke daun keladi?
Had a restful day, just dozing off here-there & everywhere.
For dinner, we went out to try another of Pak Pozi's favourite restaurant -- Ali Cafe (?) with the aluminium gate.
We were there rather early, so easy parking & all.
By now, I've a regiment of a sort to do "facial muscle exercise" by berzikir-bertasbih after every solat & of course the usual reading of al-Quran.
The bbb---mmm---ppp---etc, etc, etc are all there :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YtBO26wJt48&feature=related
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Friday, June 19, 2009
BP14 - 5 JUN 2009 : JUMAAT
2 appointments at UMMC: morning at ORL & afternoon with Prof KJG.
With the different appointments on my UMMC card & my rather 'blurry' state of mind, I didn't realize when, who, why the abbreviation ORL was written on my appointment card!
In other words, I didn't actually know where I was supposed to go.
Let me see... which of my friends would be a good source of reference.
After considering related factors, I narrowed the choice to 2: either Jie or Yati; both regularly visit UMMC.
However, Yati would probably forward my enquiry to her doctor brother...
So, sms-ed Jie. But, she didn't know also!
Asked Suami to drop me in front of the building for the electrotherapy session & I told him, "I'm sure someone knows".
Went to the registration counter of the facial electrotherapy & showed them the appointment card with the abbreviation ORL written on it.
They didn't know.
Went to neuromedical. Asked the ladies at the registration + nurse counters. They were not sure, also.
Then, one of the more senior nurses, asked the girl at the registration counter to call someone / a unit (?).
Macam tu lah... kut kita sendiri tak boleh tolong, mesti ada orang yang boleh kita tanya untuk bantu orang yang minta pertolongan.
I was then told that it would be at E&T. OK, the place near DF :)
This time I met a young lady doctor. With her were 2 students & I thought a foreign male doctor.
The focus of our discussion was about the eye, my high BP (170/100), my high pulse (~100). The outcomes:
1) She suggested that instead of covering my right eye with a pad, just stick the tape straight to the eye lids! Less hassles, less anxiety evoked & impossible to take out the tapes during sleep!
(It turned out that this was a very good suggestion! The only thing was that it hurt a bit when I or when Aiman and/or Durrah helped took off the tape in the morning. A few of my eye lashes yang memang bukan tebal would come off. Kak Ijah told me that if most of my eye lashes came off, then I would have the opportunity to see hantu. Joke is related to some Malay beliefs!
2) She wrote a referal for me to go to RUKA & maybe I could be looked at right away to deal with the high BP.
3) A referral for me to see a doctor about my blurry vision! Back at the E&T registration counter, I was given 16 July for the eye. Lamanya lagi... kena pi sendiri Institut Mata Tun Husin Onn nampaknya.
I went straight to the front counter with the different referral notes.
Alhamdulillah, my luck... although, it was already rather late.. somebody would be able to see me.
As I walked past the people who're waiting in front of the different clinics, met a lecturer from PASUM that I knew from audit training & session. ProfA also called & so chatted with him for a while about my situation.
The young male doctor I met (a Dr H) told me to stop the current BP medication & take the new BP medication - Micardis / telmisartan 40mg daily. That would be 5 times the normal dose of BP medication I was taking!
Other than that he was advising me to take it easy & also alluded to my age :)
I agreed with him that I should remember about my body not being so young anymore... BUT, I also told him another perspective about MOK CIK-MOK CIK working ladies who are at the age of 40+ years yet showed dedication at the work place...
The young always felt that we MOK CIK-MOK CIK should take it easy.
At this age I told him, most ladies could ACTUALLY concentrate / be focused on their work.
Earlier on at our younger age, our maternal instincts would pull us back more towards the needs of bringing up of our young children.
Before I left, I was asked to participate in a survey on Chronic Pain.
As usual, sebuk-sebuk bagi idea how to improve the soal-selidik!
Ha... Ha... macam tak cukup soal-selidik Amzari & Zulfa yang mesti dibetulkan!
Finished just in time to catch a ride home with Suami.
After solat Jumaat, Suami drove me back to UMMC with Amzar & Aiman tagging along. Amzar had to do zeroxing of class materials since he was picked as his class monitor.
When we're about to arrive in UMMC, Amzar realized that he didn't have the set in his bag & so they would have to turn back. Hmmm...
I dozed off while sitting down waiting for my turn.
I was so very tired!
The sleeping of only 2-3 hours a day, the prednisolone causing havocs to my body system & me trying to keep life as normal as possible...
Maybe I did the later TOO WELL, because I was getting sms & calls from Suami & my first child about the missing set to be zeroxed.
I couldn't believe these 2 guys!
By the time I went in to see Prof KJG I was frazzled!
He asked me to make a few facial expressions & of course I couldn't.
He set the next appointment to be on 3 July because he said the nerve conductance test on Thursday last week showed a conductance block & now a week later, no significance change could be detected.
Does it mean that it would be around 3 July before any possibility of recovery?
Adoi.... lamanya lagi... a month, 30 days!
High probability, I would have to wait for regeneration? Re-innervation? Re-myelination? Or just that the axonal nerves are in shock?
As for the nutrients for nerve tissue, no real established report.
"If not, we could just give it to everyone who needs it. You know better all this..."
Yeah, factually I couldn't say that he's wrong.
Classic training of conventional text book medicine.
http://www.bellspalsy.ws/links.htm
Then to wrap up he asked about T.Mak & I told him that we're bringing her in to see him in UMSC early next week, ie she's already in PJ.
He asked me more about T.Mak & us, her 9 children & 30+ cucu & 3 cicit (Ayra, Adli Isa & Qaisara).
I think he knew such a conversation would reduce the heaviness of the facts that he had told me about my Bell's Palsy situation.
So, sms to both Suami & first child that I was done. Told them that I would take a taxi if it was a big deal for them to pick me up (as in if they were too busy still arguing about the missing set to be zeroxed -- a bigger issue than me. Ni kira masuk bab merajuk lah...).
Quickly, they scrambled with sms & calls for me to wait at UMMC entrance. They would pick me up & we would go for minum petang in KL.
In the car, I told them the whole situation was ridiculous.
My life had changed & they were 'arguing' about some missing documents that could be gotten back from the lecturer.
Amzar talked about him not wanting to look like he couldn't deliver in his first task as a monitor. HAAAH !!!
He also repeated what he had mentioned earlier at home, something along the line of, "Mama, InsyaAllah Mama akan baik. Tapi mungkin ambil masa sikit. Mama relaks lah, kalau tidak lagilah Mama stress. Hawkings pun boleh kasi lecture in his condition!"
In my heart, "Hawkings? Did he say Hawkings? I don't care about Hawkings?"
I thought Amzar was really out of touch about my Bell's Palsy episode.
Couldn't exactly blame him because he was not at home... he never read my blog... he was all caught up in his new life.
Also, I guess, in a way he had too much confidence in me of being able to correct what goes wrong, to bounce back, to point out the silver lining of every cloud, to be his supermum (?).
Then... he played the song "Yesterday" on his phone & I was really upset.
I usually spoke very little when I got to this level of being very upset.
So, I just said, "Mama tak mahu cakap apa-apa dah. Please make sure you read my blog tonight. I just want to sleep."
By the time we got to the place to use the $80 vouchers won by Aiman-Suami team in answering a quiz on Radio 24 Bernama, I told myself, "OK lah... Sudahlah... Go with the flow..."
So, we had our minum petang in Laman Sembang. We got to meet To'Ki the infamous Pengguna Islam spokesman who regularly appeared on Radio 24 or Channel 502 Bernama.
Bought some food to send to rumah Abang Em later in the night.
But, I told them I wouldn't be going.
I couldn't bring myself to face my mother today... too much for me to handle.
When we reached home & after the necessities, I took my nap in my normal half-lying & half-sitting position.
Suami & the boys went to Abang Em's house with Amzar driving my BFX. The driving school representative sent his driving license earlier in the day.
It was already night time, they woke me up excitedly to inform me that Amzar hit my 117 gate when he tried to park!
"You all think I worry about my gate ke?"
Anyway, I played along... told him to keep some of his $ to pay me.
Even sms his final year law cousin, Fitrah, that I was appointing her to sue Amzar for damage to my gate, cc-ed the sms to Amzar! Huh!!!
Anyway... by the time I came down for dinner, I knew Amzar had read my blog.
He treated me differently... & maybe there was a tinge of sadness on his face.
But then, when I started sitting in front of my laptop, he told me that HE would only allow me to use it up to 12.30, i.e. after the usual TV3 Nightline news.
Eh??
So, there I was blogging, checking the latest on Manohara's case lah...
12.30 came & gone.
I was thinking, "What was it that he wanted to do? Dah tertidurlah tu... Ha... Ha... Ha..."
Kak Erah pun for the past few nights would also start with lying down on the sofa at the living room & sleepily would say, "Bila kamu nak tidur?"
Suddenly, at 1.30am Amzar came down & said, "OK, Mama... that's it. I'm switching off everything... the plug, the light... semua, everything!"
Kak Erah yang tertidur on the sofa pun terjaga, "Amzar, biarlah Mama saved her work first... kesian kat Mama di dah penat-penat buat!"
He just went, "I'm turning off everything..."
AND HE DID.
So, I went up & got myself ready to sleep. Most of the time I was muttering a couple of times to myself, "I don't believe this boy!"
Suami terjaga & he looked at the clock.
I told him, "Your son turned off everything on me!"
After putting in the artificial tear into the right eye & for the first time I put the tape directly on my right eye lids.
The right technique is to put the tape from the lower lid & pull it up!
In closing the eye, the bottom lid must also be slightly 'pushed up'.
(*Don't have to figure it out, it's done automatically in normal situation. Masya'Allah!)
Anyway, this was the earliest so far that I went to bed. 2.30 am.
Most of the time, InsyaAllah, with the right foundation / basis young people would act accordingly if they were made to understand the issues at hand.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONXp-vpE9eU
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With the different appointments on my UMMC card & my rather 'blurry' state of mind, I didn't realize when, who, why the abbreviation ORL was written on my appointment card!
In other words, I didn't actually know where I was supposed to go.
Let me see... which of my friends would be a good source of reference.
After considering related factors, I narrowed the choice to 2: either Jie or Yati; both regularly visit UMMC.
However, Yati would probably forward my enquiry to her doctor brother...
So, sms-ed Jie. But, she didn't know also!
Asked Suami to drop me in front of the building for the electrotherapy session & I told him, "I'm sure someone knows".
Went to the registration counter of the facial electrotherapy & showed them the appointment card with the abbreviation ORL written on it.
They didn't know.
Went to neuromedical. Asked the ladies at the registration + nurse counters. They were not sure, also.
Then, one of the more senior nurses, asked the girl at the registration counter to call someone / a unit (?).
Macam tu lah... kut kita sendiri tak boleh tolong, mesti ada orang yang boleh kita tanya untuk bantu orang yang minta pertolongan.
I was then told that it would be at E&T. OK, the place near DF :)
This time I met a young lady doctor. With her were 2 students & I thought a foreign male doctor.
The focus of our discussion was about the eye, my high BP (170/100), my high pulse (~100). The outcomes:
1) She suggested that instead of covering my right eye with a pad, just stick the tape straight to the eye lids! Less hassles, less anxiety evoked & impossible to take out the tapes during sleep!
(It turned out that this was a very good suggestion! The only thing was that it hurt a bit when I or when Aiman and/or Durrah helped took off the tape in the morning. A few of my eye lashes yang memang bukan tebal would come off. Kak Ijah told me that if most of my eye lashes came off, then I would have the opportunity to see hantu. Joke is related to some Malay beliefs!
2) She wrote a referal for me to go to RUKA & maybe I could be looked at right away to deal with the high BP.
3) A referral for me to see a doctor about my blurry vision! Back at the E&T registration counter, I was given 16 July for the eye. Lamanya lagi... kena pi sendiri Institut Mata Tun Husin Onn nampaknya.
I went straight to the front counter with the different referral notes.
Alhamdulillah, my luck... although, it was already rather late.. somebody would be able to see me.
As I walked past the people who're waiting in front of the different clinics, met a lecturer from PASUM that I knew from audit training & session. ProfA also called & so chatted with him for a while about my situation.
The young male doctor I met (a Dr H) told me to stop the current BP medication & take the new BP medication - Micardis / telmisartan 40mg daily. That would be 5 times the normal dose of BP medication I was taking!
Other than that he was advising me to take it easy & also alluded to my age :)
I agreed with him that I should remember about my body not being so young anymore... BUT, I also told him another perspective about MOK CIK-MOK CIK working ladies who are at the age of 40+ years yet showed dedication at the work place...
The young always felt that we MOK CIK-MOK CIK should take it easy.
At this age I told him, most ladies could ACTUALLY concentrate / be focused on their work.
Earlier on at our younger age, our maternal instincts would pull us back more towards the needs of bringing up of our young children.
Before I left, I was asked to participate in a survey on Chronic Pain.
As usual, sebuk-sebuk bagi idea how to improve the soal-selidik!
Ha... Ha... macam tak cukup soal-selidik Amzari & Zulfa yang mesti dibetulkan!
Finished just in time to catch a ride home with Suami.
After solat Jumaat, Suami drove me back to UMMC with Amzar & Aiman tagging along. Amzar had to do zeroxing of class materials since he was picked as his class monitor.
When we're about to arrive in UMMC, Amzar realized that he didn't have the set in his bag & so they would have to turn back. Hmmm...
I dozed off while sitting down waiting for my turn.
I was so very tired!
The sleeping of only 2-3 hours a day, the prednisolone causing havocs to my body system & me trying to keep life as normal as possible...
Maybe I did the later TOO WELL, because I was getting sms & calls from Suami & my first child about the missing set to be zeroxed.
I couldn't believe these 2 guys!
By the time I went in to see Prof KJG I was frazzled!
He asked me to make a few facial expressions & of course I couldn't.
He set the next appointment to be on 3 July because he said the nerve conductance test on Thursday last week showed a conductance block & now a week later, no significance change could be detected.
Does it mean that it would be around 3 July before any possibility of recovery?
Adoi.... lamanya lagi... a month, 30 days!
High probability, I would have to wait for regeneration? Re-innervation? Re-myelination? Or just that the axonal nerves are in shock?
As for the nutrients for nerve tissue, no real established report.
"If not, we could just give it to everyone who needs it. You know better all this..."
Yeah, factually I couldn't say that he's wrong.
Classic training of conventional text book medicine.
http://www.bellspalsy.ws/links.htm
Then to wrap up he asked about T.Mak & I told him that we're bringing her in to see him in UMSC early next week, ie she's already in PJ.
He asked me more about T.Mak & us, her 9 children & 30+ cucu & 3 cicit (Ayra, Adli Isa & Qaisara).
I think he knew such a conversation would reduce the heaviness of the facts that he had told me about my Bell's Palsy situation.
So, sms to both Suami & first child that I was done. Told them that I would take a taxi if it was a big deal for them to pick me up (as in if they were too busy still arguing about the missing set to be zeroxed -- a bigger issue than me. Ni kira masuk bab merajuk lah...).
Quickly, they scrambled with sms & calls for me to wait at UMMC entrance. They would pick me up & we would go for minum petang in KL.
In the car, I told them the whole situation was ridiculous.
My life had changed & they were 'arguing' about some missing documents that could be gotten back from the lecturer.
Amzar talked about him not wanting to look like he couldn't deliver in his first task as a monitor. HAAAH !!!
He also repeated what he had mentioned earlier at home, something along the line of, "Mama, InsyaAllah Mama akan baik. Tapi mungkin ambil masa sikit. Mama relaks lah, kalau tidak lagilah Mama stress. Hawkings pun boleh kasi lecture in his condition!"
In my heart, "Hawkings? Did he say Hawkings? I don't care about Hawkings?"
I thought Amzar was really out of touch about my Bell's Palsy episode.
Couldn't exactly blame him because he was not at home... he never read my blog... he was all caught up in his new life.
Also, I guess, in a way he had too much confidence in me of being able to correct what goes wrong, to bounce back, to point out the silver lining of every cloud, to be his supermum (?).
Then... he played the song "Yesterday" on his phone & I was really upset.
I usually spoke very little when I got to this level of being very upset.
So, I just said, "Mama tak mahu cakap apa-apa dah. Please make sure you read my blog tonight. I just want to sleep."
By the time we got to the place to use the $80 vouchers won by Aiman-Suami team in answering a quiz on Radio 24 Bernama, I told myself, "OK lah... Sudahlah... Go with the flow..."
So, we had our minum petang in Laman Sembang. We got to meet To'Ki the infamous Pengguna Islam spokesman who regularly appeared on Radio 24 or Channel 502 Bernama.
Bought some food to send to rumah Abang Em later in the night.
But, I told them I wouldn't be going.
I couldn't bring myself to face my mother today... too much for me to handle.
When we reached home & after the necessities, I took my nap in my normal half-lying & half-sitting position.
Suami & the boys went to Abang Em's house with Amzar driving my BFX. The driving school representative sent his driving license earlier in the day.
It was already night time, they woke me up excitedly to inform me that Amzar hit my 117 gate when he tried to park!
"You all think I worry about my gate ke?"
Anyway, I played along... told him to keep some of his $ to pay me.
Even sms his final year law cousin, Fitrah, that I was appointing her to sue Amzar for damage to my gate, cc-ed the sms to Amzar! Huh!!!
Anyway... by the time I came down for dinner, I knew Amzar had read my blog.
He treated me differently... & maybe there was a tinge of sadness on his face.
But then, when I started sitting in front of my laptop, he told me that HE would only allow me to use it up to 12.30, i.e. after the usual TV3 Nightline news.
Eh??
So, there I was blogging, checking the latest on Manohara's case lah...
12.30 came & gone.
I was thinking, "What was it that he wanted to do? Dah tertidurlah tu... Ha... Ha... Ha..."
Kak Erah pun for the past few nights would also start with lying down on the sofa at the living room & sleepily would say, "Bila kamu nak tidur?"
Suddenly, at 1.30am Amzar came down & said, "OK, Mama... that's it. I'm switching off everything... the plug, the light... semua, everything!"
Kak Erah yang tertidur on the sofa pun terjaga, "Amzar, biarlah Mama saved her work first... kesian kat Mama di dah penat-penat buat!"
He just went, "I'm turning off everything..."
AND HE DID.
So, I went up & got myself ready to sleep. Most of the time I was muttering a couple of times to myself, "I don't believe this boy!"
Suami terjaga & he looked at the clock.
I told him, "Your son turned off everything on me!"
After putting in the artificial tear into the right eye & for the first time I put the tape directly on my right eye lids.
The right technique is to put the tape from the lower lid & pull it up!
In closing the eye, the bottom lid must also be slightly 'pushed up'.
(*Don't have to figure it out, it's done automatically in normal situation. Masya'Allah!)
Anyway, this was the earliest so far that I went to bed. 2.30 am.
Most of the time, InsyaAllah, with the right foundation / basis young people would act accordingly if they were made to understand the issues at hand.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ONXp-vpE9eU
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Wednesday, June 17, 2009
BP13 - 4 JUN 2009 : KHAMIS
Suami drove Amzar to Nilai to catch his first day of class. The ladies (Kak Erah & her infamous M-blogger) went off the house to their gathering earlier than me & Aiman because they were going all the way to Shah Alam.
After sending Aiman I went to Abang Em's house, but surprise... surprise Kak Hana was home. It seemed Nizam, Abang Halim & Kak Zainab wanted to visit T.Mak. So, she didn't think it would be fair for me in my current condition be playing host. I had to say that I agreed.
So... here I was at another difficult part that I had to go through. Facing my mother for the first time with my situation.
She was at the table having breakfast.
She looked at me & she could not hide her maternal instinct of feeling so bad-sad for what had happened to me, her daughter.
T.Mak always have things together in front of us when it comes to buffering whatever bad things that besieged us, her 9 children!
Being a mother myself, I understand how we mothers have to put up with these sorts of fronts.
However, in her condition of being a stroke patient (since late 2007), she could not play her part well.
She was so sad & I could see tears in her eyes.
And I was so sad that my condition was causing her this raw pain that was written all over her face.
To be honest, for the first time ever since 23 May... I felt like crying.
She asked simply, "Apa mulanya? Demam?" & she mentioned something about it being termed as balawa'(berlawa?) in Banjar.
Mentioned about mesti urut.
I hugged & kissed her... then, told her that I was ok.
I tried to change the subject & I suceeded a bit, i.e. she forgot about it for a while.
Then, she noticed the face again & she was hurt all over again.
The stroke had caused T.Mak not to be able to make generally any new memories, at all.
She had one of those rare cases that her stroke specifically hit the area to convert new info as memory!
It means that she could 'learn' new information but it didn't get stored.
So, it also means that every experience is a new thing to her, i.e. she didn't get desensitize by previous info on a situation.
Thus, if it is a hurtful experience -- it would be 'first cut' for her each time!
Luckily, *Kak Ha & Abang Zul also came to take away some of T.Mak's attention to other matters.
(*Kak Ha passed shbt Azizan's salam & doa to me. TQ, InsyaAllah doa dimakbulkan)
Back to T.Mak & her reaction to my Bell's Palsy... it seemed she did discussed more about it with Kak Ha, because before Kak Ha left she told me that T.Mak said, I should go for urut.
When Kak Ha & Abang Zul left, T.Mak was looking at me with that sad look again.
Oh God... this is difficult.
When she went into the room to take a nap, I took a nap on the sofa at the living room.
Escapism!
I was at the place till Nizam & parents came. By then, T.Mak's attention was fully focused on making sure the visitors were well taken care of.
Since they had the experience with Mak Aji (eldest sister of T.Mak. My mother is the youngest amongst her siblings), they understood her insistence that they had not tambah their makanan, etc.
Situations that had happened but T.Mak had no re-collections of the matter.
The late Mak Aji was diagnosed as having Alzheimer's Disease (another neuro disease!). Although T.Mak does not have Alzheimer's Disease, some of the symptoms due to her *stroke are rather similar.
(*To divert a bit... teaching the course Diseases of the Nervous System last semester was emotionally difficult for me. T.Mak was with me until the last day of the semester. There were times I felt like crying & I had to keep my emotion checked when the matter being discussed / lectured was very much about what my mother was going through. In fact, I thought if only the students could meet T.Mak, then they would appreciate the subject better, etc.)
By the time the visitors left, Suami had called to inform that we couldn't go to TS Hospital on Saturday because it would be closed due to Agong's birthday. I have an appointment at UMMC on Friday afternoon, thus, I would have to go for my second session today & have it delayed till next week.
Aiman was already sent by Pak Mat Des & had his lunch. So, we drove home & waited for Amzar to turn up before asking Pak Mat Des to send us to TS Hospital.
At this visit, I was not asked to go to the consultation room anymore, but straight to the treatment room.
The doctor saw me there: took my pulse & asked me to stick out my tounge.
I really should ask him why I had to do the latter.
Again... the needles on the right foot, right arm & right face!
So, this time Amzar helped Aiman counted the needles... still 21 but now there was 1 needle put on my left forehead.
During the first session the needles were only on my right face.
I felt as if the focus this time, based on the tingling feel, was on the area near the cheek?
Oh yes, for the follow up session the charge was $22 :)
Once done, Pak Mat Des drove us straight back. We did stop at Yasin Restaurant, all around... mee mamak & ice lemon tea.
We took home some mee mamak to lapik perut Suami before we go for Maghrib at the nearby mosque. We joined other individuals who also had requests / hajat with the Majlis Baca Yasin Khamis malam Jumaat.
Only then I thought of sending sms to the 2 boys in NeuroRG & shbt Halim. Agak lambat.
Before going I also insisted that T.Ayah's name was not to be mentioned; suffice that I would be isteri to Suami.
However, Suami had already given my full name to the Imam a few days ago.
When we arrived at the mosque, I happened to met shbt Pak Kob (mantan top management team). So, showed him the face.
Later, I didn't join the dinner downstairs at the hall, itself, but stayed on at the prayer area.
I wasn't sure that I would be up to making conversations. As one of the hosts, the kenduri food was packed for us to take home.
It seemed Abang Em managed to be at the mosque for Isya'.
Suami told me later, when he changed the details on me, the Ustaz who lead the prayer introduced himself as someone who had studied in Al-Ulum & of course knew T.Ayah.
Deep down I was glad.
Muga diperkenankan doa-doa hamba Mu, Ya ALLAH.
I ate the packed food with Kak Erah & her infamous blogger friend. Discussed a bit on results for the day & the calons for the bigger posts of their gathering.
We also decided also that the next time I met T.Mak, I would just say that my face was stung by the bee :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qNx7ggPTLc&feature=related
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Y5GpYQSpVQ&feature=related
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After sending Aiman I went to Abang Em's house, but surprise... surprise Kak Hana was home. It seemed Nizam, Abang Halim & Kak Zainab wanted to visit T.Mak. So, she didn't think it would be fair for me in my current condition be playing host. I had to say that I agreed.
So... here I was at another difficult part that I had to go through. Facing my mother for the first time with my situation.
She was at the table having breakfast.
She looked at me & she could not hide her maternal instinct of feeling so bad-sad for what had happened to me, her daughter.
T.Mak always have things together in front of us when it comes to buffering whatever bad things that besieged us, her 9 children!
Being a mother myself, I understand how we mothers have to put up with these sorts of fronts.
However, in her condition of being a stroke patient (since late 2007), she could not play her part well.
She was so sad & I could see tears in her eyes.
And I was so sad that my condition was causing her this raw pain that was written all over her face.
To be honest, for the first time ever since 23 May... I felt like crying.
She asked simply, "Apa mulanya? Demam?" & she mentioned something about it being termed as balawa'(berlawa?) in Banjar.
Mentioned about mesti urut.
I hugged & kissed her... then, told her that I was ok.
I tried to change the subject & I suceeded a bit, i.e. she forgot about it for a while.
Then, she noticed the face again & she was hurt all over again.
The stroke had caused T.Mak not to be able to make generally any new memories, at all.
She had one of those rare cases that her stroke specifically hit the area to convert new info as memory!
It means that she could 'learn' new information but it didn't get stored.
So, it also means that every experience is a new thing to her, i.e. she didn't get desensitize by previous info on a situation.
Thus, if it is a hurtful experience -- it would be 'first cut' for her each time!
Luckily, *Kak Ha & Abang Zul also came to take away some of T.Mak's attention to other matters.
(*Kak Ha passed shbt Azizan's salam & doa to me. TQ, InsyaAllah doa dimakbulkan)
Back to T.Mak & her reaction to my Bell's Palsy... it seemed she did discussed more about it with Kak Ha, because before Kak Ha left she told me that T.Mak said, I should go for urut.
When Kak Ha & Abang Zul left, T.Mak was looking at me with that sad look again.
Oh God... this is difficult.
When she went into the room to take a nap, I took a nap on the sofa at the living room.
Escapism!
I was at the place till Nizam & parents came. By then, T.Mak's attention was fully focused on making sure the visitors were well taken care of.
Since they had the experience with Mak Aji (eldest sister of T.Mak. My mother is the youngest amongst her siblings), they understood her insistence that they had not tambah their makanan, etc.
Situations that had happened but T.Mak had no re-collections of the matter.
The late Mak Aji was diagnosed as having Alzheimer's Disease (another neuro disease!). Although T.Mak does not have Alzheimer's Disease, some of the symptoms due to her *stroke are rather similar.
(*To divert a bit... teaching the course Diseases of the Nervous System last semester was emotionally difficult for me. T.Mak was with me until the last day of the semester. There were times I felt like crying & I had to keep my emotion checked when the matter being discussed / lectured was very much about what my mother was going through. In fact, I thought if only the students could meet T.Mak, then they would appreciate the subject better, etc.)
By the time the visitors left, Suami had called to inform that we couldn't go to TS Hospital on Saturday because it would be closed due to Agong's birthday. I have an appointment at UMMC on Friday afternoon, thus, I would have to go for my second session today & have it delayed till next week.
Aiman was already sent by Pak Mat Des & had his lunch. So, we drove home & waited for Amzar to turn up before asking Pak Mat Des to send us to TS Hospital.
At this visit, I was not asked to go to the consultation room anymore, but straight to the treatment room.
The doctor saw me there: took my pulse & asked me to stick out my tounge.
I really should ask him why I had to do the latter.
Again... the needles on the right foot, right arm & right face!
So, this time Amzar helped Aiman counted the needles... still 21 but now there was 1 needle put on my left forehead.
During the first session the needles were only on my right face.
I felt as if the focus this time, based on the tingling feel, was on the area near the cheek?
Oh yes, for the follow up session the charge was $22 :)
Once done, Pak Mat Des drove us straight back. We did stop at Yasin Restaurant, all around... mee mamak & ice lemon tea.
We took home some mee mamak to lapik perut Suami before we go for Maghrib at the nearby mosque. We joined other individuals who also had requests / hajat with the Majlis Baca Yasin Khamis malam Jumaat.
Only then I thought of sending sms to the 2 boys in NeuroRG & shbt Halim. Agak lambat.
Before going I also insisted that T.Ayah's name was not to be mentioned; suffice that I would be isteri to Suami.
However, Suami had already given my full name to the Imam a few days ago.
When we arrived at the mosque, I happened to met shbt Pak Kob (mantan top management team). So, showed him the face.
Later, I didn't join the dinner downstairs at the hall, itself, but stayed on at the prayer area.
I wasn't sure that I would be up to making conversations. As one of the hosts, the kenduri food was packed for us to take home.
It seemed Abang Em managed to be at the mosque for Isya'.
Suami told me later, when he changed the details on me, the Ustaz who lead the prayer introduced himself as someone who had studied in Al-Ulum & of course knew T.Ayah.
Deep down I was glad.
Muga diperkenankan doa-doa hamba Mu, Ya ALLAH.
I ate the packed food with Kak Erah & her infamous blogger friend. Discussed a bit on results for the day & the calons for the bigger posts of their gathering.
We also decided also that the next time I met T.Mak, I would just say that my face was stung by the bee :)
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_qNx7ggPTLc&feature=related
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_Y5GpYQSpVQ&feature=related
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BP12 - 3 JUN 2009 : RABU
In the morning, I took a ride with Suami to the department. Alhamdulillah, my work place is really on his rumah-kerja way. A few things I need to settle with the group.
Siti Salwa wanted to give me air zam-zam brought back home by one of her Arab student from umrah.
However, this had to wait since I didn't really want to menyusahkan Ida to drive me to Siti Salwa's place. Anyway, I still have the bottle of air zam-zam that Ida had given me late last Friday.
Actually, Ida had made arrangement to pick me up after 10.30am so that I could accompany her booked beadings for baju kenduri. Mana lagi... AMCORP!
More shopping, including 2 cotton blouses for Kak Ijah & Kak Erah (buy 1 free 1 & the ones left were their sizes) who would be coming with T.Mak from kampung, also a tout bag similar to my wallet. Bought some extra fun food in preparation of *T.Mak going to be in Abang Em's place.
(*wherever she would be, the place would be visited by warga PP in the Klang Valley!)
Ida & I had sandwich at Subway. This was after she reluctantly told me that's where she wanted to go. She was scared that I would find it difficult to eat the sandwich! Well, betul maybe susah... but perlahan-lahanlah makan! We talked over 'current issues' at work & at home, then she sent me home.
My body really seriously felt bad.
My Microlife BP automatic machine was really recording high readings: BP about 170/100 & pulse around 100.
I kept feeling like I was a horse about ready to race!
I seriously didn't know why I didn't imagine myself as a sportsperson on the race track ready to run in a stadium!
Then there's this fact that I was not supposed to lie down on the affected right side of my face.
BUT, I could feel my heart pumping, especially when lying down on the left side!
I imagined my heavy body stressing on this *pulsating heart!
(Reminded myself of fixation by perfusion through the heart that I did in my lab work!)
So, during the day it was sleeping in a semi-sitting position with a piece of paper folded in such a way heavy enough to anchor down my right eye lid & kept it that way by sliding it down underneath the right side of my lense.
I kept thinking, it must be the prednisone & the different anxiety within me.
No wonder steroid is considered dangerous.
BUT, maybe the machine is wrong... the calibration is off.
Deep down I was getting more scared to sleep.
The chance of getting stroke is soemething else!
I was popping the Atacand / Candesartan cilexetil 16 mg before I slept at 4am & during the day, too or anytime I saw the scary readings!
I used to take only half of that pill daily!
There were only 3 left now. I need to see Dr Selva.
I woke up at 5pm awakened by a phone call from Amzar informing that he was coming back using the komuter from Nilai because classes had not started, yet.
Saw missed calls from Kak Erah & a message that Pak Ripin's car rosak now & parked near Stadium Shah Alam with T.Mak in it! Kak Erah was already at a meeting. Aiyyooo!
Dispatched Fitrah with Aiman to the rescue & to pick T.Mak back to Abang Em's house.
After Maghrib, Suami drove us to the clinics. The lady locum doctor was there & Amzar accompanied me.
She gave me 2 days worth of mcs & advised me to go back to UMMC about my BP, etc.
We had dinner at Mahbob :)
Amzar realized that he had made decision of coming back based on wrong information. First class was to start at 9am the next morning. Some of his friends had even gone back to Pahang & Kelantan.
Live & learn... "info accepted to be right" must also mean that correct designated person releasing the info!
We went to Abang Em's house after that but T.Mak was soundly asleep. Didn't have the heart to wake her up. Promised them that I could stay with her after I sent Aiman to tuition at 8 am tomorrow morning.
Adults plan to go to opening of the big gathering :)
When we reached home Kak Erah & her friend were ready to call it a day! Of course had to show my herot face first to Kak Erah.
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Siti Salwa wanted to give me air zam-zam brought back home by one of her Arab student from umrah.
However, this had to wait since I didn't really want to menyusahkan Ida to drive me to Siti Salwa's place. Anyway, I still have the bottle of air zam-zam that Ida had given me late last Friday.
Actually, Ida had made arrangement to pick me up after 10.30am so that I could accompany her booked beadings for baju kenduri. Mana lagi... AMCORP!
More shopping, including 2 cotton blouses for Kak Ijah & Kak Erah (buy 1 free 1 & the ones left were their sizes) who would be coming with T.Mak from kampung, also a tout bag similar to my wallet. Bought some extra fun food in preparation of *T.Mak going to be in Abang Em's place.
(*wherever she would be, the place would be visited by warga PP in the Klang Valley!)
Ida & I had sandwich at Subway. This was after she reluctantly told me that's where she wanted to go. She was scared that I would find it difficult to eat the sandwich! Well, betul maybe susah... but perlahan-lahanlah makan! We talked over 'current issues' at work & at home, then she sent me home.
My body really seriously felt bad.
My Microlife BP automatic machine was really recording high readings: BP about 170/100 & pulse around 100.
I kept feeling like I was a horse about ready to race!
I seriously didn't know why I didn't imagine myself as a sportsperson on the race track ready to run in a stadium!
Then there's this fact that I was not supposed to lie down on the affected right side of my face.
BUT, I could feel my heart pumping, especially when lying down on the left side!
I imagined my heavy body stressing on this *pulsating heart!
(Reminded myself of fixation by perfusion through the heart that I did in my lab work!)
So, during the day it was sleeping in a semi-sitting position with a piece of paper folded in such a way heavy enough to anchor down my right eye lid & kept it that way by sliding it down underneath the right side of my lense.
I kept thinking, it must be the prednisone & the different anxiety within me.
No wonder steroid is considered dangerous.
BUT, maybe the machine is wrong... the calibration is off.
Deep down I was getting more scared to sleep.
The chance of getting stroke is soemething else!
I was popping the Atacand / Candesartan cilexetil 16 mg before I slept at 4am & during the day, too or anytime I saw the scary readings!
I used to take only half of that pill daily!
There were only 3 left now. I need to see Dr Selva.
I woke up at 5pm awakened by a phone call from Amzar informing that he was coming back using the komuter from Nilai because classes had not started, yet.
Saw missed calls from Kak Erah & a message that Pak Ripin's car rosak now & parked near Stadium Shah Alam with T.Mak in it! Kak Erah was already at a meeting. Aiyyooo!
Dispatched Fitrah with Aiman to the rescue & to pick T.Mak back to Abang Em's house.
After Maghrib, Suami drove us to the clinics. The lady locum doctor was there & Amzar accompanied me.
She gave me 2 days worth of mcs & advised me to go back to UMMC about my BP, etc.
We had dinner at Mahbob :)
Amzar realized that he had made decision of coming back based on wrong information. First class was to start at 9am the next morning. Some of his friends had even gone back to Pahang & Kelantan.
Live & learn... "info accepted to be right" must also mean that correct designated person releasing the info!
We went to Abang Em's house after that but T.Mak was soundly asleep. Didn't have the heart to wake her up. Promised them that I could stay with her after I sent Aiman to tuition at 8 am tomorrow morning.
Adults plan to go to opening of the big gathering :)
When we reached home Kak Erah & her friend were ready to call it a day! Of course had to show my herot face first to Kak Erah.
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Tuesday, June 16, 2009
BP11 - 2 JUN 2009 : SELASA
Yes... I woke up this morning feeling rather excited... the day I was really going to try *acupuncture!
Suami already called TS Hospital yesterday & we were advised to come between 2-5 pm, i.e. less crowded.
(For the field of Neuroscience, acupuncture is something that one looks at sceptically. Of course there have been many reports / documentaries of its success, even as a replacement to anesthetic agent for an operation... I've shown this documentary to my Neurobiology class. BUT how does it work?)
Before we went, packed Durrah's stuff because her Ipoh Mali cousins (Umar, Syifa' & Widad) invited her to go back with them & spend part of the school holidays in Ipoh (Syifa's b'day & a bowling event) & a trip to Maxwell Hill (Datin Osh's bday!). Aiman couldn't follow because he has his tuition classes. He seemed so determine to go to ASiS for his Form 4... following the footsteps of his big brother!
When we left for TS Hospital, those leaving for Ipoh were still at home. First we went to the department, so that I could do the normal exchange of documents with my NeuroRG post-grad students... downstairs near the surau.
Then off to TS with a printed out map from its website & we managed to find it without much difficulties. It was at the junction after the end of the row of shops opposite the infamous Pudu Raya.
Coming in through the entrance gate, there were 2 junctions: Left to Western Medicine & Right to Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM).
As we came in through the TCM front door, a guard on duty already pressed the button to give me a number to register.
To be honest, I had withdraw quite a sum of $, in preparation in case it wasn't going to accept credit card & that it was going to cost us a bomb!
So, we were very surprised that we only needed to pay $25:
a) Registration fee was $3
b) Acupuncture session (using disposable needles) with a specialist from Beijing University (an Associate Prof. Dr. WZT) was $22.
I was actually given the option to see a Malaysian doctor who would also be an acupunturist specialist for (only) $18. Adoi, "non-branded"?
Well, we came all the way... so, as much as my "Malaysia Boleh" in me... the option taken would be rather obvious!
We were then asked to go upstairs (room 120) to see the doctor.
As we walked up the stair case we saw some posters on acupuncture on the rather bare walls. Nothing fancy in sight & all I could think of "everything is just based on functionalities". The only frivolous things I saw were ornamental bamboo trees in big plastic brown pots!
While taking in the hints from the work environment of the place, we kept walking to a row of chairs close to room 120.
An Indonesian young lady who was walking slightly ahead of me with a limp, sort of slowed down & then just fell flat on her back in front of my path.
A group of nurses rushed to the scene, each bombarding me repeatedly with questions: "Is this your daughter? What happened to her? Is she your amah? Did she eat today?"
Aiyyahh! Am I supposed to be in charge of this girl (also)?
Suami & Aiman were also shocked & they had this "what's going on look" on their faces!
I thought Aiman had even asked me whether I pushed the girl?
"Hey... Mama tahulah Mama ada Bell's Palsy, but I don't go round knocking people down! Biar betul..."
Luckily, the commotion caused the boss of this young lady to come out from a nearby room & she mentioned something like the girl had complained about pain in her leg for the past 2 weeks, etc etc etc. I also heard the girl said that she had not taken anything today (it was already way past 3 pm!!)
I didn't get to hear much anymore because my name was called & I went into the consultation room with Suami & Aiman, with thoughts like, "Did the Indonesian maid want me to save her from a situation?"
Sitting beside the doctor's table, a nurse came to help with the translations of getting the background session (Onset? Had I seek western medicine? Western medicine being taken?).
One thing for certain, I could tell that the doctor wasn't too happy with the fact that it had been TEN (10) days before I came to have my 1st acupuncture session.
After he wrote it all down in my file (but I couldn't deciphere his writings), he asked me to put my left palm on *a white square pillow.
He analysed my pulse & my face, asked me to stick out my tounge.
He told me something like, "You... No computer, no TV... Sleep! Sleep!" The nurses happily added, "No shopping!"
The doctor looked a bit embarassed that his nurse dared suggested an absurd thing.
But I thought... "Hmmm, this nurse must have met many ladies with Bell's Palsy :)"
Then, we were asked to go to the single bed treatment room next door.
The nurse made me lie down in the direction so that my right face would be close to the side of the bed. An infra red lamp (?) was turned on with its light to my feet.
I was asked to take off my glasses, my tudung & also the anak tudung then to roll up the right side of my pants up to just below the knee.
The doctor pushed the first needle onto my right foot just below the knee while I was answering his question about something. That was a trick, huh..!
Ouch! Not too painful but rather I was just too surprised by the whole thing.
I mean why poke needle to my feet... it's the face with the problem!
The doctor said something about the feet-the face being connected.
Suami told me to just let the doctor do his job!
Then, the doctor just went on quickly, pricking in the needles... more on the foot, then a few on my right arm, a few on the midline of my head & finally many on the right side of the face. Even surrounding the eyes. Scariest to me at the moment!
At some points the needles were connected to some electrical gadget, I think.
He then asked me to close my eyes... by that time more nurses were in the room & excitedly told me to close my eyes!
I thought "CRAZY! I have not done that since 10 days ago!"
Suami & Aiman also joined the chorus of urging me to close my eyes.
I did it. I closed my eyes & I thought the nurses clapped their hands & excitedly said, "See... she closed her eyes!"
They were all excited, like as if I'm a baby who just took my first step.
The nurses & the doctor then left the room leaving the 3 of us behind.
Left to ourselves, Suami & Aiman excitedly counted the needles on me. 21 of them! Of course taking pictures & asking me whether I was in pain, etc... etc...
Nope, I wasn't in pain, but I could feel the twitching of some of the muscles.
I felt so very sleepy & I thought I went to the zzzzz land a couple of times while trying to stop myself from the urge to snore :)
After about 20 minutes the nurse & the doctor came in again.
They started taking out the needles & ensured none was left still sticking to my body.
The nurse told me that the doctor would like me to buy a packet of herbs, but I didn't have to do it if I didn't want to.
It was going to cost $46 & I could get it at the dispensary counter (hmm.. interesting, the term pharmacy was not used).
I asked the doctor, "Any animal... animal parts in the packet?"
He was shaking his head, "No... All plants... Herbs... HALAL! Malaysia Boleh!"
He told me to come again... twice a week would be good.
As we went downstairs to the dispensary, I tried closing my right eye... Nope, still couldn't do it :(
Near the dispensary there was a white board & on it were flyers about TS going for ISO.
Interesting... I know a certain someone who believes strongly in ISO has a clinic in TS Western Medical side :)
Anyway, after getting the packets of herbs, I was given a short briefing on how to double boil the herbs.
Part of the instruction was something about adding a bowl of water.
So, I asked the lady who dispensed the herbs, "What size is the bowl?"
She replied, "Oh... you know the normal size of the bowl you eat rice in."
My first instinct was to say, "Lady... I don't eat rice in a bowl."
Then, I wanted to say, "You mean the bowl we used when it's time to eat the fried rice during a dinner event that serves Chinese dinner?"
Finally, I thought to myself, "She's talking about the bowls used in Chinese dramas lah..."
By then logics came over me, "Girl... Lebih kurang sajalah... ini bukan nak buat solutions in the lab!"
Once done, we just wanted to get out of KL before the jam started.
In the car of course the conversation was about the cost, the no nonsense outlook of the hospital & the wonders of acupuncture.
I was just too tired... I told Aiman, "Nabi kata tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negeri China... mungkin ini salah-satu ilmunya"
When we reached our housing area, we went straight to Restoran Yasin, a new restaurant in our place, for roti telor garing & mee mamak to calm the nerves + carrot susu to quench the thirst!
On reaching home I went straight to bed & slept in a semi-sitting position as I had been used to doing when I slept during the day!
That night I had to write down in point forms the translation of the instructions about the boiling of the herbs to Tini.
Once the boiling was done & it was cool... I took a sip.
Urghhh... I'm supposed to drink this yucky pahit drink daily & at a rate of a packet a day?
Into the fridge, first, while I think some more about this directive!
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=laL-kax2ctw
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Suami already called TS Hospital yesterday & we were advised to come between 2-5 pm, i.e. less crowded.
(For the field of Neuroscience, acupuncture is something that one looks at sceptically. Of course there have been many reports / documentaries of its success, even as a replacement to anesthetic agent for an operation... I've shown this documentary to my Neurobiology class. BUT how does it work?)
Before we went, packed Durrah's stuff because her Ipoh Mali cousins (Umar, Syifa' & Widad) invited her to go back with them & spend part of the school holidays in Ipoh (Syifa's b'day & a bowling event) & a trip to Maxwell Hill (Datin Osh's bday!). Aiman couldn't follow because he has his tuition classes. He seemed so determine to go to ASiS for his Form 4... following the footsteps of his big brother!
When we left for TS Hospital, those leaving for Ipoh were still at home. First we went to the department, so that I could do the normal exchange of documents with my NeuroRG post-grad students... downstairs near the surau.
Then off to TS with a printed out map from its website & we managed to find it without much difficulties. It was at the junction after the end of the row of shops opposite the infamous Pudu Raya.
Coming in through the entrance gate, there were 2 junctions: Left to Western Medicine & Right to Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM).
As we came in through the TCM front door, a guard on duty already pressed the button to give me a number to register.
To be honest, I had withdraw quite a sum of $, in preparation in case it wasn't going to accept credit card & that it was going to cost us a bomb!
So, we were very surprised that we only needed to pay $25:
a) Registration fee was $3
b) Acupuncture session (using disposable needles) with a specialist from Beijing University (an Associate Prof. Dr. WZT) was $22.
I was actually given the option to see a Malaysian doctor who would also be an acupunturist specialist for (only) $18. Adoi, "non-branded"?
Well, we came all the way... so, as much as my "Malaysia Boleh" in me... the option taken would be rather obvious!
We were then asked to go upstairs (room 120) to see the doctor.
As we walked up the stair case we saw some posters on acupuncture on the rather bare walls. Nothing fancy in sight & all I could think of "everything is just based on functionalities". The only frivolous things I saw were ornamental bamboo trees in big plastic brown pots!
While taking in the hints from the work environment of the place, we kept walking to a row of chairs close to room 120.
An Indonesian young lady who was walking slightly ahead of me with a limp, sort of slowed down & then just fell flat on her back in front of my path.
A group of nurses rushed to the scene, each bombarding me repeatedly with questions: "Is this your daughter? What happened to her? Is she your amah? Did she eat today?"
Aiyyahh! Am I supposed to be in charge of this girl (also)?
Suami & Aiman were also shocked & they had this "what's going on look" on their faces!
I thought Aiman had even asked me whether I pushed the girl?
"Hey... Mama tahulah Mama ada Bell's Palsy, but I don't go round knocking people down! Biar betul..."
Luckily, the commotion caused the boss of this young lady to come out from a nearby room & she mentioned something like the girl had complained about pain in her leg for the past 2 weeks, etc etc etc. I also heard the girl said that she had not taken anything today (it was already way past 3 pm!!)
I didn't get to hear much anymore because my name was called & I went into the consultation room with Suami & Aiman, with thoughts like, "Did the Indonesian maid want me to save her from a situation?"
Sitting beside the doctor's table, a nurse came to help with the translations of getting the background session (Onset? Had I seek western medicine? Western medicine being taken?).
One thing for certain, I could tell that the doctor wasn't too happy with the fact that it had been TEN (10) days before I came to have my 1st acupuncture session.
After he wrote it all down in my file (but I couldn't deciphere his writings), he asked me to put my left palm on *a white square pillow.
He analysed my pulse & my face, asked me to stick out my tounge.
He told me something like, "You... No computer, no TV... Sleep! Sleep!" The nurses happily added, "No shopping!"
The doctor looked a bit embarassed that his nurse dared suggested an absurd thing.
But I thought... "Hmmm, this nurse must have met many ladies with Bell's Palsy :)"
Then, we were asked to go to the single bed treatment room next door.
The nurse made me lie down in the direction so that my right face would be close to the side of the bed. An infra red lamp (?) was turned on with its light to my feet.
I was asked to take off my glasses, my tudung & also the anak tudung then to roll up the right side of my pants up to just below the knee.
The doctor pushed the first needle onto my right foot just below the knee while I was answering his question about something. That was a trick, huh..!
Ouch! Not too painful but rather I was just too surprised by the whole thing.
I mean why poke needle to my feet... it's the face with the problem!
The doctor said something about the feet-the face being connected.
Suami told me to just let the doctor do his job!
Then, the doctor just went on quickly, pricking in the needles... more on the foot, then a few on my right arm, a few on the midline of my head & finally many on the right side of the face. Even surrounding the eyes. Scariest to me at the moment!
At some points the needles were connected to some electrical gadget, I think.
He then asked me to close my eyes... by that time more nurses were in the room & excitedly told me to close my eyes!
I thought "CRAZY! I have not done that since 10 days ago!"
Suami & Aiman also joined the chorus of urging me to close my eyes.
I did it. I closed my eyes & I thought the nurses clapped their hands & excitedly said, "See... she closed her eyes!"
They were all excited, like as if I'm a baby who just took my first step.
The nurses & the doctor then left the room leaving the 3 of us behind.
Left to ourselves, Suami & Aiman excitedly counted the needles on me. 21 of them! Of course taking pictures & asking me whether I was in pain, etc... etc...
Nope, I wasn't in pain, but I could feel the twitching of some of the muscles.
I felt so very sleepy & I thought I went to the zzzzz land a couple of times while trying to stop myself from the urge to snore :)
After about 20 minutes the nurse & the doctor came in again.
They started taking out the needles & ensured none was left still sticking to my body.
The nurse told me that the doctor would like me to buy a packet of herbs, but I didn't have to do it if I didn't want to.
It was going to cost $46 & I could get it at the dispensary counter (hmm.. interesting, the term pharmacy was not used).
I asked the doctor, "Any animal... animal parts in the packet?"
He was shaking his head, "No... All plants... Herbs... HALAL! Malaysia Boleh!"
He told me to come again... twice a week would be good.
As we went downstairs to the dispensary, I tried closing my right eye... Nope, still couldn't do it :(
Near the dispensary there was a white board & on it were flyers about TS going for ISO.
Interesting... I know a certain someone who believes strongly in ISO has a clinic in TS Western Medical side :)
Anyway, after getting the packets of herbs, I was given a short briefing on how to double boil the herbs.
Part of the instruction was something about adding a bowl of water.
So, I asked the lady who dispensed the herbs, "What size is the bowl?"
She replied, "Oh... you know the normal size of the bowl you eat rice in."
My first instinct was to say, "Lady... I don't eat rice in a bowl."
Then, I wanted to say, "You mean the bowl we used when it's time to eat the fried rice during a dinner event that serves Chinese dinner?"
Finally, I thought to myself, "She's talking about the bowls used in Chinese dramas lah..."
By then logics came over me, "Girl... Lebih kurang sajalah... ini bukan nak buat solutions in the lab!"
Once done, we just wanted to get out of KL before the jam started.
In the car of course the conversation was about the cost, the no nonsense outlook of the hospital & the wonders of acupuncture.
I was just too tired... I told Aiman, "Nabi kata tuntutlah ilmu hingga ke negeri China... mungkin ini salah-satu ilmunya"
When we reached our housing area, we went straight to Restoran Yasin, a new restaurant in our place, for roti telor garing & mee mamak to calm the nerves + carrot susu to quench the thirst!
On reaching home I went straight to bed & slept in a semi-sitting position as I had been used to doing when I slept during the day!
That night I had to write down in point forms the translation of the instructions about the boiling of the herbs to Tini.
Once the boiling was done & it was cool... I took a sip.
Urghhh... I'm supposed to drink this yucky pahit drink daily & at a rate of a packet a day?
Into the fridge, first, while I think some more about this directive!
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=laL-kax2ctw
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Sunday, June 14, 2009
BP10 - 1 JUN 2009 : ISNIN
Since it was school holiday, I insisted that Durrah accompanied me to my 2nd facial electrotherapy. I wanted her to get involved & de-mystify the whole Bell's Palsy episode.
Suami sent Aiman for tuition then picked us up at home to UMMC.
I registered & then we waited a while along the hallway. I was making small talks with Durrah about others that we saw... people accompanying parents, grandparents, etc, i.e. she was doing the right thing to be there with me.
When my name was called, Durrah came in with me & sat across me at the table.
She saw my face being 'set up' for the session (3 sites: forehead aread, cheek area & mouth area). I could not talk much & so she read a book she brought.
Half way through the treatment, more people started to come in. Horror... Durrah was asked to go out of the room. Aiyya... That was more scary for me than for her, maybe!
Did I make the wrong decision of bringing her along? I could not possibly walk out to accompany me & get her settled at the hallway.
Durrah is already in standard 5, a prefect in both schools she goes to... but she's only a baby in my heart! Was she going to be traumatized having to wait for me with strangers many of which showing physical ill health conditions? I tried not to show the panick in me & instead gave her the re-assuring *"both thumbs up"!
(*I'm still learning to do this with my kids. Better late than never! I picked this up in December 2008 from Pak Hasmi, my Bandung 3rd cousin, during a trip up the Mountain of Perahu Tangkupan. To me the tortuous road was DANGEROUS but they were groups of motorcycle riding kids speeding up & down. Meeting each group, Pak Hasmi without fail gave them the both thumbs up & shouted 'HATI-HATI YA!!!'. He explained to us that as concerned adults we should not discourage youngsters from demonstrating their bravery. It should be commended & accompanied with a reminder to be careful. For whatever reason, I had this vision of 'never say die' Indonesian badminton players fighting it out with the roaring of Sendayan Auditorium rooting for them.)
We took a taxi home & I could tell Durrah was not comfortable. I think she had read too many e mails with scary taxi ride stories! When Aiman came back after his tuition at 11am Pak Mat Des sent us to LRT Taman Jaya. Told them we're going to KLCC. It was school holidays... looked like we're not going to Terengganu for cuti-cuti Msia!
Aiman was sort of in charge for the trip. Not only my right eye could not blink, it was also getting blurry.
We went straight to lunch at the food court, bought tickets to buy 3D movie of "Monsters vs Aliens" (Adoi, mahalnya tiket 3D movie!) then solat zohor before the movie. It was Aiman's & Durrah's kind of movie but I fell asleep every now & then... in between sms communications with Yati @ the Pemangku & Kamila who was asked to go on trip. When? Ha... Ha... Ha...
We went back after kids chose some food to take home, supposedly, for their Ipoh Mali cousins that we're expecting that night. When we reached home, I 'pengsan' on the sofa.
It was late when Osh-Azmi & kids arrived after sending Dani to France (Yeay, he's doing Chemical Engineering!).This was Osh's first time to see me. Syifaa' said, "Ibu nangis masa dia dapat tahu pasal *Mama..."
(*I'm also Mama to them because Hanan, their eldest sister is my anak susu)
By the time we exchanged stories, etc it was early morning. It's OK with me because I was avoiding sleep anyway (I think)!
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Friday, June 12, 2009
BP9 - 31 MEI 2009 : AHAD
We planned to visit Amzar at his Nilai campus & get our lunch there.
So, took time early in the morning to go to the nearby taman to use the reflexology walking path... to think about the week that had ended & to also think about my 2nd week into the Bell's Palsy episode.
For one, by now I knew I would NOT be one of those who would have full recovery within 2-3 weeks after the onset.
Of course, my thoughts turned to the new academic session that would start in July.
I wondered whether I would be OK by then to welcome new batch of students or to be teaching Histology & Neurobiology?
Of course, lectures of all my courses used power point presentations, but takkan jadi wayang bisu kut?
OK... OK... sabar-sabar, satu-satu dulu...
Better to focus on the regiment that I would set to follow.
One thing for certain would be adding the acupuncture part to the treatment & it should be to TS Hospital, near Pudu Raya as I had been advised.
Went back to have breakfast & enjoy the Sunday papers. Then time to get ready for Nilai campus.
This was our 2nd trip there. We visited the place when Amzar got the offer letter. It was quiet, then.
Today, an air of festivities ala-ala resort filled the air.
"Young grown ups" wearing sandals & track pants walking around in groups; macam mundar-mandir saja.. OBVIOUSLY ENJOYING THEIR CURRENT STATUS of not being pelajar sekolah menengah!
A few had plastic bags containing hangers, mee maggi & the likes. Really teringat time when we were settling in at Chico (MARA students had to stay in the dormitories while KP students were not bound by that rule!)
Back to now... some of the boys looked really young. Ini mesti nerds lah, yang dapat sekurang-kurangnya 10A!
The funniest scene I saw... these boys singing "... Ikan di laut, asam di darat..."
Kelakar teramat!
I imagined they were making jokes about how parents & schools (especially boarding schools) used to discourage them from socializing much with the opposite gender with all sorts of rules & regulations.
Then, WALLA... here they were to live life in such a place where there students of nursing college, USIM girls & UIA matriculation girls breathing the same air! For every single meal, ALL of them are supposed to buy food from the restaurants situated on the ground floor of the complexes.
Adoi, intoxicating!
I kept teasing Amzar, "Kalau macam ni keadaannya, baik masuk Matrikulasi Gopeng KPT ajalah"
His response, "Dugaan aja, Mama.. :)"
Well, to be honest... the situation is OK compared to living away from home at the same age that myself & Suami had gone through way back in l979!
The tales we could tell about some weird situations we would be exposed to & how easy it was to go astray.
Alhamdulillah, we passed that phase to become what we are today.
Every now & then I did get the jitters of whether it was a right act on my part to NOT doa a 10A1 results for him, but doa apa-apa yang terbaik untuk kejayaan di dunia & di akhirat!
I always laugh to their faces when the kids asked me to doa specific no. of As before their exams.
They know that I don't entertain such requests & so far they have not been able to come up with a good argument why I should change :)
Seriously, at each junction of our lives... things probably would end up differently depending on the choice we made.
How do we know that our choice or what we wanted is actually the best choice for us.
That's why I never chase anything or tried hard to get anything in my life.
I do doa that I would make the right choice after objectively considering the facts at hands.
Setelah usaha kena bertawakkal & redha.
InsyaAllah, puzzle pieces will fit nicely :)
Back to Nilai, I didn't have to socialize with anyone except the family & we went about doing the normal activities : Masjid Putra Nilai, Giant shopping complex.
Bought a few CDs that I thought would be good for the soul - Hijjaz, Al Maathurat by Badrul Amin & 30 juz Al-Quran.
Going back from Nilai, I was thanking God that Amzar is in UIA Nilai Campus.
Pieces of puzzles fit :)
*******************************************
So, took time early in the morning to go to the nearby taman to use the reflexology walking path... to think about the week that had ended & to also think about my 2nd week into the Bell's Palsy episode.
For one, by now I knew I would NOT be one of those who would have full recovery within 2-3 weeks after the onset.
Of course, my thoughts turned to the new academic session that would start in July.
I wondered whether I would be OK by then to welcome new batch of students or to be teaching Histology & Neurobiology?
Of course, lectures of all my courses used power point presentations, but takkan jadi wayang bisu kut?
OK... OK... sabar-sabar, satu-satu dulu...
Better to focus on the regiment that I would set to follow.
One thing for certain would be adding the acupuncture part to the treatment & it should be to TS Hospital, near Pudu Raya as I had been advised.
Went back to have breakfast & enjoy the Sunday papers. Then time to get ready for Nilai campus.
This was our 2nd trip there. We visited the place when Amzar got the offer letter. It was quiet, then.
Today, an air of festivities ala-ala resort filled the air.
"Young grown ups" wearing sandals & track pants walking around in groups; macam mundar-mandir saja.. OBVIOUSLY ENJOYING THEIR CURRENT STATUS of not being pelajar sekolah menengah!
A few had plastic bags containing hangers, mee maggi & the likes. Really teringat time when we were settling in at Chico (MARA students had to stay in the dormitories while KP students were not bound by that rule!)
Back to now... some of the boys looked really young. Ini mesti nerds lah, yang dapat sekurang-kurangnya 10A!
The funniest scene I saw... these boys singing "... Ikan di laut, asam di darat..."
Kelakar teramat!
I imagined they were making jokes about how parents & schools (especially boarding schools) used to discourage them from socializing much with the opposite gender with all sorts of rules & regulations.
Then, WALLA... here they were to live life in such a place where there students of nursing college, USIM girls & UIA matriculation girls breathing the same air! For every single meal, ALL of them are supposed to buy food from the restaurants situated on the ground floor of the complexes.
Adoi, intoxicating!
I kept teasing Amzar, "Kalau macam ni keadaannya, baik masuk Matrikulasi Gopeng KPT ajalah"
His response, "Dugaan aja, Mama.. :)"
Well, to be honest... the situation is OK compared to living away from home at the same age that myself & Suami had gone through way back in l979!
The tales we could tell about some weird situations we would be exposed to & how easy it was to go astray.
Alhamdulillah, we passed that phase to become what we are today.
Every now & then I did get the jitters of whether it was a right act on my part to NOT doa a 10A1 results for him, but doa apa-apa yang terbaik untuk kejayaan di dunia & di akhirat!
I always laugh to their faces when the kids asked me to doa specific no. of As before their exams.
They know that I don't entertain such requests & so far they have not been able to come up with a good argument why I should change :)
Seriously, at each junction of our lives... things probably would end up differently depending on the choice we made.
How do we know that our choice or what we wanted is actually the best choice for us.
That's why I never chase anything or tried hard to get anything in my life.
I do doa that I would make the right choice after objectively considering the facts at hands.
Setelah usaha kena bertawakkal & redha.
InsyaAllah, puzzle pieces will fit nicely :)
Back to Nilai, I didn't have to socialize with anyone except the family & we went about doing the normal activities : Masjid Putra Nilai, Giant shopping complex.
Bought a few CDs that I thought would be good for the soul - Hijjaz, Al Maathurat by Badrul Amin & 30 juz Al-Quran.
Going back from Nilai, I was thanking God that Amzar is in UIA Nilai Campus.
Pieces of puzzles fit :)
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Thursday, June 11, 2009
BP8 - 30 MEI 2009 : SABTU
Well... the long week was over & basically, facts established:
1) Bell's Palsy with full paralysis of right facial muscle. NOT stroke, Alhamdulillah.
However, damage occurred at facial nerve (7th cranial nerve) as it came out to innervate the whole area of right facial muscles.
Basically, dekat toll keluar highway... belum pecah jadi small roads.
So, all small roads to different areas were affected!
If a specific branch was the only one affected, then it would only correlate to specific concerned area, e.g. the muscles closing the eye only.
It could not be ascertained whether the damage involved the axons or only the myelin (yes... the sausage looking structures made by the Schwann neuroglial).
2) Obvious problems:
- couldn't close eyes even to blink
- breathing through right nostril affected slightly
- eating-drinking-speech affected
- facial expression couldn't be made with the right side
3) If I were to talk much & in my normal way, the face would get "pulled" to the left side.
It's like orang tarik tali, one side is losing... I think, it's more uncomfortable for people who're talking to me when this happened as a conversation progressed.
You see... I didn't get to see how I looked like!
4) Treatments:
- Prednisolone to bring down the inflammation & Losec to reduce nausea caused by Prednisolone.
- Methylcobalt for nutrient supply to the neural tissue.
- Natural tear fluid for the right eye.
- Electrotherapy for the face.
- Massage for the face.
- Rest.
At first we wanted to do a majlis doa selamat (for me & Amzar) but the timing wasn't good.
Too many things happening -- medications to buy from pharmacy, first day of cuti sekolah, some of the kids were just coming back from the different boarding schools by afternoon, Amzar was supposed to go by UIA bus to start his life in Nilai campus, etc.
So, instead, we had this open invitation to family members to visit me the whole of today :p
I know they clan members had been wanting to visit me... worried, curious... the works.
But, with my daily activities & me being tired when I arrived home... having to 'entertain' visitors is not really a welcoming thought.
Had Kak Ijah & Pak Pozi arranged food from Azizan of JE, PJ State -- set nasi putih & lauk, pulut kuning-roti jala.
Of course, I posed, made faces & explained about Bell's Palsy throughout the day.
We were also entertained by CDs brought by Pak Unggai & family on current events at our home state !
Una who came at night with Mat looked tired, herself. Mat was looking forward to his trip to Paris to scout for engineers to be brought back to Msia!
Told Una to be weary of this viral flu-like fever that I think us, females, normally just push it aside. We will just carry on with our punishing-vigorous daily activities of trying to be a good wife, mother, worker, sister, etc etc etc.
At the very least, must take those supplements / madu / whatever lah!
Abang Long-Kak Long, Amin & Elli also came at night... I'm sure partly a visit insisted on by my mother in law. I'm sure Mak Temerloh is very worried about me while she, herself, is not well in Temerloh.
I didn't want to call & talk to her because I think she would think the worse when my speech get affected during the conversation.
I also didn't muster enough courage to talk to T.Mak during this whole ordeal.
The last person left a bit way past mid-night, I think.
OK, so got this part over & done with.
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xyAZFO8IkM
Surah Al Insyirah (94):
أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ (1
Yusuff Ali translation:
1: Have We not expanded thee thy breast?
2: And removed from thee thy burden
3: The which did gall thy back?
4: And raised high the esteem (in which) thou (art held)?
5: So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.
6: Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
7: Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard,
8: And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention.
1: Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan untuk mu dada mu?
2: Dan Kami telah menghilangkan daripada mu beban mu,
3: yang memberatkan punggung mu?
4: Dan Kami tinggikan bagi mu sebutan (nama) mu.
5: Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan,
6: sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.
7: Maka apabila kamu telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), kerjakanlah dengan sungguh-sungguh (urusan) yang lain,
8: dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap.
*********************************
Sekarang I realized the followings:
- Kalau nak ziarah orang sakit, rasanya baik melawat semasa dia masih berada di hospital.
- Bukan ide yang baik untuk melawat pesakit yang masih boleh bergerak normal di rumah, sebab nanti dia sebuk nak melayan pelawat... terutama jika dia seorang wanita & dia adalah tuan rumah!
- Oleh kerana dia sebenarnya sakit... ziarah kita itu sebenarnya akan memenatkan fizikalnya.
- Tetapi, kalau yang sakit memang betul-betul terbaring... ziarahlah dia di mana saja dia berada :)
Atau sememangnya yang bersakit menjemput, "Tak apa.. datanglah!"
- InsyaAllah, doa-solat hajat, dll lebih sesuai terutamanya digabungkan sekali dengan sms &/atau e mel.
Bahagian sms &/atau e mel tu kira good PR lah :)
*******************************************
1) Bell's Palsy with full paralysis of right facial muscle. NOT stroke, Alhamdulillah.
However, damage occurred at facial nerve (7th cranial nerve) as it came out to innervate the whole area of right facial muscles.
Basically, dekat toll keluar highway... belum pecah jadi small roads.
So, all small roads to different areas were affected!
If a specific branch was the only one affected, then it would only correlate to specific concerned area, e.g. the muscles closing the eye only.
It could not be ascertained whether the damage involved the axons or only the myelin (yes... the sausage looking structures made by the Schwann neuroglial).
2) Obvious problems:
- couldn't close eyes even to blink
- breathing through right nostril affected slightly
- eating-drinking-speech affected
- facial expression couldn't be made with the right side
3) If I were to talk much & in my normal way, the face would get "pulled" to the left side.
It's like orang tarik tali, one side is losing... I think, it's more uncomfortable for people who're talking to me when this happened as a conversation progressed.
You see... I didn't get to see how I looked like!
4) Treatments:
- Prednisolone to bring down the inflammation & Losec to reduce nausea caused by Prednisolone.
- Methylcobalt for nutrient supply to the neural tissue.
- Natural tear fluid for the right eye.
- Electrotherapy for the face.
- Massage for the face.
- Rest.
At first we wanted to do a majlis doa selamat (for me & Amzar) but the timing wasn't good.
Too many things happening -- medications to buy from pharmacy, first day of cuti sekolah, some of the kids were just coming back from the different boarding schools by afternoon, Amzar was supposed to go by UIA bus to start his life in Nilai campus, etc.
So, instead, we had this open invitation to family members to visit me the whole of today :p
I know they clan members had been wanting to visit me... worried, curious... the works.
But, with my daily activities & me being tired when I arrived home... having to 'entertain' visitors is not really a welcoming thought.
Had Kak Ijah & Pak Pozi arranged food from Azizan of JE, PJ State -- set nasi putih & lauk, pulut kuning-roti jala.
Of course, I posed, made faces & explained about Bell's Palsy throughout the day.
We were also entertained by CDs brought by Pak Unggai & family on current events at our home state !
Una who came at night with Mat looked tired, herself. Mat was looking forward to his trip to Paris to scout for engineers to be brought back to Msia!
Told Una to be weary of this viral flu-like fever that I think us, females, normally just push it aside. We will just carry on with our punishing-vigorous daily activities of trying to be a good wife, mother, worker, sister, etc etc etc.
At the very least, must take those supplements / madu / whatever lah!
Abang Long-Kak Long, Amin & Elli also came at night... I'm sure partly a visit insisted on by my mother in law. I'm sure Mak Temerloh is very worried about me while she, herself, is not well in Temerloh.
I didn't want to call & talk to her because I think she would think the worse when my speech get affected during the conversation.
I also didn't muster enough courage to talk to T.Mak during this whole ordeal.
The last person left a bit way past mid-night, I think.
OK, so got this part over & done with.
********************************
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xyAZFO8IkM
Surah Al Insyirah (94):
أَلَمْ نَشْرَحْ لَكَ صَدْرَكَ (1
وَوَضَعْنَا عَنكَ وِزْرَكَ (2
الَّذِي أَنقَضَ ظَهْرَكَ (3
وَرَفَعْنَا لَكَ ذِكْرَكَ (4
فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا (5
إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا (6
فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانصَبْ (7
وَإِلَى رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ (8
وَرَفَعْنَا لَكَ ذِكْرَكَ (4
فَإِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا (5
إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا (6
فَإِذَا فَرَغْتَ فَانصَبْ (7
وَإِلَى رَبِّكَ فَارْغَبْ (8
Yusuff Ali translation:
1: Have We not expanded thee thy breast?
2: And removed from thee thy burden
3: The which did gall thy back?
4: And raised high the esteem (in which) thou (art held)?
5: So, verily, with every difficulty, there is relief.
6: Verily, with every difficulty there is relief.
7: Therefore, when thou art free (from thine immediate task), still labour hard,
8: And to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention.
1: Bukankah Kami telah melapangkan untuk mu dada mu?
2: Dan Kami telah menghilangkan daripada mu beban mu,
3: yang memberatkan punggung mu?
4: Dan Kami tinggikan bagi mu sebutan (nama) mu.
5: Kerana sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan,
6: sesungguhnya sesudah kesulitan itu ada kemudahan.
7: Maka apabila kamu telah selesai (dari sesuatu urusan), kerjakanlah dengan sungguh-sungguh (urusan) yang lain,
8: dan hanya kepada Tuhanmulah hendaknya kamu berharap.
*********************************
Sekarang I realized the followings:
- Kalau nak ziarah orang sakit, rasanya baik melawat semasa dia masih berada di hospital.
- Bukan ide yang baik untuk melawat pesakit yang masih boleh bergerak normal di rumah, sebab nanti dia sebuk nak melayan pelawat... terutama jika dia seorang wanita & dia adalah tuan rumah!
- Oleh kerana dia sebenarnya sakit... ziarah kita itu sebenarnya akan memenatkan fizikalnya.
- Tetapi, kalau yang sakit memang betul-betul terbaring... ziarahlah dia di mana saja dia berada :)
Atau sememangnya yang bersakit menjemput, "Tak apa.. datanglah!"
- InsyaAllah, doa-solat hajat, dll lebih sesuai terutamanya digabungkan sekali dengan sms &/atau e mel.
Bahagian sms &/atau e mel tu kira good PR lah :)
*******************************************
Monday, June 8, 2009
BP7 - 29 MEI 2009 : JUMAAT DI UMMC
Today was to be spent in E&T, UMMC.
Made arrangement for *Ida to pick me up at UMMC before we would go for lunch-chat at AMCORP (mana lagi?). Till Thursday, she was attending the course in preparation of AD Bil. 10 (which would take place mid June-early July).
(*Ida is part of the me-she-Manis set of friends which went back to my Sri Aman days!)
Suami & I went out slightly late this morning. I insisted on eating nasi lemak I bought at the gerai near Durrah's sekolah ugama to lapik perut before prednisolone. I think deep down I was also tired from the rigorous daily to UMMC routine.
On my appointment card, the name was one rather similar to a lady cabinet member. Surprise... surprise, the doctor was actually a young male (DrTS)!
Now that I already knew the routine... background check first, etc.
In my eagerness to get this part over & done with, I was going off tangent in my story line. DrTS in a pleading-exasperated way had this to tell me, "Can we do this systematically? My way? You are causing me to lose my lines of thoughts..."
Ha.. ha.. ha.. kesian the guy, "Stop patronizing this young doctor. Let him do his work, girl...!"
OK, so I told him about my vertigo bout involving my right ear during my 1st winter in Kent, Ohio, U.S.A.
Remembered, having to be walked up from the basement of Mazhar's house (which me, Bella, Nikki & Netasha had rented) to the car before the seniors brought me to the clinics. Everything was just reeling.
I remembered it was a viral attack & that I couldn't even drive for sometime. Vaguely remembered, Dr. Bill Cruce driving me back from Rootstown & I was trying so hard to control myself from throwing up in his car... & we were just pulling out of the parking lot to go out of NEOUCOM.
Back to the present.
DrTS checked my ears, sent me to Audiology lab & wrote prescriptions:
1) More artificial tears
2) Losec (to help with the nausea due to prednisolone)
3) Methycobal, a good supplement for neural tissue. I told him that I read somewhere vitamins B6, B12 & Zinc could help & that I've bought Centrum (to cover the first 2 vitamins) & Zinc, on itself. Methycobal has all that & more!
At the Audiology Lab, which was not too easy to locate... my hearing was checked through a few tests.
All sorts of sounds with different tones were put into my ears.
The results showed that everything was all within normal range & so, any problems within the ears (especially the right ear) was crossed off & no connection to my Bell's Palsy.
By the time I got back to E&T, DrTS was no longer there & a lady doctor (DrL) was in his place but she was already briefed about my case.
While I had this perception that DrTS was totally against alternative medicine, DrL was OK with it, i.e. making informed decision after scouting for info in the internet!
However, I was lost during her analogy about conductance between Ipoh-KL...
"Huh? Is this how the students felt if I used too weird an analogy to whatever topic at hand that I was covering in class?"
Some examples of mine:
"ubi kayu" & "bunch of grapes" for exocrine gland; "raisins thrown in between bunch of grapes" for Islets of Langerhans in pancreas; "donuts" as ionophores; "rambutan" for neurons... etc.
Eh... Food... Glorious Food ke semuanya? Ha... Ha... Ha...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAjCBZao38I
Or maybe, the sounds put into my ear has created 'dumb bells' in my head that I wasn't getting what she was saying? Wahteverlah, just put on that "OK, OK... TQ for taking the trouble to explain" smile :)
When I was done, it was close to 12 noon & I told Ida that I would just get a taxi & go straight to AMCORP. I wanted to go to the pharmacy to buy those prescribed by DrTS.
Since Ida was coming from home, I would have enough time. I was also worried with the fact that we wouldn't have much time since I was supposed to send Durrah to school. Solat Jumaat for Suami!
We went to the restaurant that I thought would provide a quick service & also a chance for us to chat. She brought along a bottle of Air Zam-Zam. We both took the same noodle dish but Ida wasn't eating much :(
She insisted of driving me home & sending Durrah to school.
I, then, pushed us back to AMCORP!
Since I treated her to the quick lunch, insisted that she treated us for dessert at the newly opened SR.
I wanted to unwind after a long week of daily UMMC activities & I was not feeling guilty of spending time with her because she's in her sabbatical leave.
We also had much to catch up since her 2nd daughter just entered PASUM while my 1st son in Matrikulasi UIA... both these kids have a common friend (ehmm...).
We slowly walked through the shops at the ground floor level under the pretense of me looking for tudungs to wear during my visits to UMMC which must fulfill the followings:
- easily manageable (i.e. without having to wear pins-brooches)
- made up of airy material (a lot of waitings in rather warm locations)
- with patterns (would not get stained easily by food/drinks not handled well by my herot mouth)
- adult-looking (I had been using Durrah's!).
Mission accomplished at Kak Ijah's favourite DT shop & of course, Ida also shopped. We ended up spending $ in a few other shops, too.
Well, as the saying goes... WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH... THE TOUGH GOES SHOPPING !
After dessert of a piece of carrot cake & a piece of strawberry mousse plus talks on *potential menantus, she sent me home.
(*Mimi, a friend of ours from Sri Aman, proposed that a few of us marry off our children to each other. The logic is, we can be quite confident of how each of us has brought up our children. Ni semua respons kepada keadaan di luar yang penuh lakonan... However, none of this kahwin paksa, but parents -- MOTHERS! -- act as facilatators. Adoi... not sure about the idea of berbisan among friends!)
On reaching home, I went straight to the sofa & this bakal mak mertua fell asleep soundly.
The body was certainly not what it used to be :)
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Part of SUNRISE, SUNSET:
Is this the little girl I carried,
Is this the little boy at play?
I don't remember growing older,
When did they?
When did she get to be a beauty,
When did he grow to be so tall?
Wasn't it yesterday when they were small?
Sunrise, sunset (x2),
Swiftly flow the days.
Seedlings turn overnight to sunflowers,
Blossoming even as we gaze.
Sunrise, sunset (x2),
Swiftly fly the years,
One season following another,
Laiden with happiness and tears.
What words of wisdom can I give them,
How can I help to ease their way?
******************************************
Made arrangement for *Ida to pick me up at UMMC before we would go for lunch-chat at AMCORP (mana lagi?). Till Thursday, she was attending the course in preparation of AD Bil. 10 (which would take place mid June-early July).
(*Ida is part of the me-she-Manis set of friends which went back to my Sri Aman days!)
Suami & I went out slightly late this morning. I insisted on eating nasi lemak I bought at the gerai near Durrah's sekolah ugama to lapik perut before prednisolone. I think deep down I was also tired from the rigorous daily to UMMC routine.
On my appointment card, the name was one rather similar to a lady cabinet member. Surprise... surprise, the doctor was actually a young male (DrTS)!
Now that I already knew the routine... background check first, etc.
In my eagerness to get this part over & done with, I was going off tangent in my story line. DrTS in a pleading-exasperated way had this to tell me, "Can we do this systematically? My way? You are causing me to lose my lines of thoughts..."
Ha.. ha.. ha.. kesian the guy, "Stop patronizing this young doctor. Let him do his work, girl...!"
OK, so I told him about my vertigo bout involving my right ear during my 1st winter in Kent, Ohio, U.S.A.
Remembered, having to be walked up from the basement of Mazhar's house (which me, Bella, Nikki & Netasha had rented) to the car before the seniors brought me to the clinics. Everything was just reeling.
I remembered it was a viral attack & that I couldn't even drive for sometime. Vaguely remembered, Dr. Bill Cruce driving me back from Rootstown & I was trying so hard to control myself from throwing up in his car... & we were just pulling out of the parking lot to go out of NEOUCOM.
Back to the present.
DrTS checked my ears, sent me to Audiology lab & wrote prescriptions:
1) More artificial tears
2) Losec (to help with the nausea due to prednisolone)
3) Methycobal, a good supplement for neural tissue. I told him that I read somewhere vitamins B6, B12 & Zinc could help & that I've bought Centrum (to cover the first 2 vitamins) & Zinc, on itself. Methycobal has all that & more!
At the Audiology Lab, which was not too easy to locate... my hearing was checked through a few tests.
All sorts of sounds with different tones were put into my ears.
The results showed that everything was all within normal range & so, any problems within the ears (especially the right ear) was crossed off & no connection to my Bell's Palsy.
By the time I got back to E&T, DrTS was no longer there & a lady doctor (DrL) was in his place but she was already briefed about my case.
While I had this perception that DrTS was totally against alternative medicine, DrL was OK with it, i.e. making informed decision after scouting for info in the internet!
However, I was lost during her analogy about conductance between Ipoh-KL...
"Huh? Is this how the students felt if I used too weird an analogy to whatever topic at hand that I was covering in class?"
Some examples of mine:
"ubi kayu" & "bunch of grapes" for exocrine gland; "raisins thrown in between bunch of grapes" for Islets of Langerhans in pancreas; "donuts" as ionophores; "rambutan" for neurons... etc.
Eh... Food... Glorious Food ke semuanya? Ha... Ha... Ha...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tAjCBZao38I
Or maybe, the sounds put into my ear has created 'dumb bells' in my head that I wasn't getting what she was saying? Wahteverlah, just put on that "OK, OK... TQ for taking the trouble to explain" smile :)
When I was done, it was close to 12 noon & I told Ida that I would just get a taxi & go straight to AMCORP. I wanted to go to the pharmacy to buy those prescribed by DrTS.
Since Ida was coming from home, I would have enough time. I was also worried with the fact that we wouldn't have much time since I was supposed to send Durrah to school. Solat Jumaat for Suami!
We went to the restaurant that I thought would provide a quick service & also a chance for us to chat. She brought along a bottle of Air Zam-Zam. We both took the same noodle dish but Ida wasn't eating much :(
She insisted of driving me home & sending Durrah to school.
I, then, pushed us back to AMCORP!
Since I treated her to the quick lunch, insisted that she treated us for dessert at the newly opened SR.
I wanted to unwind after a long week of daily UMMC activities & I was not feeling guilty of spending time with her because she's in her sabbatical leave.
We also had much to catch up since her 2nd daughter just entered PASUM while my 1st son in Matrikulasi UIA... both these kids have a common friend (ehmm...).
We slowly walked through the shops at the ground floor level under the pretense of me looking for tudungs to wear during my visits to UMMC which must fulfill the followings:
- easily manageable (i.e. without having to wear pins-brooches)
- made up of airy material (a lot of waitings in rather warm locations)
- with patterns (would not get stained easily by food/drinks not handled well by my herot mouth)
- adult-looking (I had been using Durrah's!).
Mission accomplished at Kak Ijah's favourite DT shop & of course, Ida also shopped. We ended up spending $ in a few other shops, too.
Well, as the saying goes... WHEN THE GOING GETS TOUGH... THE TOUGH GOES SHOPPING !
After dessert of a piece of carrot cake & a piece of strawberry mousse plus talks on *potential menantus, she sent me home.
(*Mimi, a friend of ours from Sri Aman, proposed that a few of us marry off our children to each other. The logic is, we can be quite confident of how each of us has brought up our children. Ni semua respons kepada keadaan di luar yang penuh lakonan... However, none of this kahwin paksa, but parents -- MOTHERS! -- act as facilatators. Adoi... not sure about the idea of berbisan among friends!)
On reaching home, I went straight to the sofa & this bakal mak mertua fell asleep soundly.
The body was certainly not what it used to be :)
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Part of SUNRISE, SUNSET:
Is this the little girl I carried,
Is this the little boy at play?
I don't remember growing older,
When did they?
When did she get to be a beauty,
When did he grow to be so tall?
Wasn't it yesterday when they were small?
Sunrise, sunset (x2),
Swiftly flow the days.
Seedlings turn overnight to sunflowers,
Blossoming even as we gaze.
Sunrise, sunset (x2),
Swiftly fly the years,
One season following another,
Laiden with happiness and tears.
What words of wisdom can I give them,
How can I help to ease their way?
******************************************
BP6 - 28 MEI 2009 : KHAMIS DI UMMC
To be honest, I woke up feeling nervous about my appointment at UMMC today.
In a way, I was waiting for this particular appointment.
I was supposed to go to Neuro Lab at 5th floor to check extent of damage to my 7th (facial) cranial nerve.
In indirect way, it would give me some idea about my recovery.
The appointment was not until 11.30am, but a staff from the lab called to confirm my attendance & I told her that I would come early. After all I was just killing time at home without the focus to do anything much...
I was toying the idea of either calling Pak Mat Des (our honorary family taxi man) to send me or took up the standing offer of Pak Pozi & Kak Ijah, who were in VA.
Probably, to ease the anxiety in me, I chose to be sent by family members.
Tok Pa & Nek Mak actually had to send their Ayrah to the childcare, then settle some $ matter (on behalf of T.Mak) responding to an SOS & then on off to LCCT to pick up Pak Ripin from his Tual trip.
ProfKJG, himself, did the different tests. Half way into the test, he started humming to himself. I thought to myself, "This is not too good, girl...":
1) Blink Reflex - stimulating supraorbital left & right. In both cases my right orbital oculi didn't respond positively to "look at my hand up here... now here... look straight on, look down..."
2) Motor NCS - different branches of the nerve were checked. Needles were poked to different sites on the face. Adoi !
His official comments on my EMG report:
The right R1 & R2 waves were absent on bilateral stimulation. The facial nerve CMAP is smaller on the right. Needle electromyography showed no active axonal denervation but markedly reduced recruitment pattern. The study suggests a right facial nerve palsy. There is evidence of axonal continuity still.
He explained:
1) I have seen worse cases but your case doesn't look too good, either. There is a conduction block.
2) You have to continue with the established prednisolone treatment.
3) Going for acupuncture will not cause any more damage, but whether it would really help... we don't know. If you're going to do it, do it at a real place, e.g. Tung Shin Hospital.
Alhamdulillah, although not too good good, neither was it SO bad. The inflammation had already started when my ear was already sensitive to the handphone on Thursday night... the onset of the Bell's Palsy was on Saturday early morning; i.e. about 24hours + of the inflammation!
Certainly I would not fall under the category of those who would be back to normal about 2 weeks post-onset.
Finished the tests in time to catch a ride from Suami... But, first to UMMC foodcourt to get rojak & yong tou foo :)
Didn't tell Suami much about results of the tests.
Needed to mull over things...
I was about to take my siesta when Pak Ripin & Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah arrived. However, even at the door Pak Ripin was more concerned over my situation rather than being excited about his adventure!
They brought more rojak.
Luckily, we were joined by Rahil (after work at Smart Reader) & Azmi (from a meeting at Amcorp!) with Madu Kaula.
So, we got to hear a bit about the Tual trip & Pak Ripin's experiences with *the relatives over there (interspersed with answering his & Azmi's questions about my situation).
*Of course, mostly about Adli !
Adli (leading the Tual pack) wouldn't allow Pak Ripin to buy us good pearls, to ensure that we (or representative from each family) come to Tual, ourselves. Betul-betul taktik mafia!
However, he gave 1 normal good quality pearl :) Actually, I did not get a chance to do anything to the 5 pearls he sent earlier through Pak Pozi- Kak Ijah!!
There were 2 disks of photos (taken during the trip & another on the wedding of Adli's son).
While Pak Ripin rested a bit, Kak Ijah did the necessities of dividing the ole-ole.
That night, Kak Ha & Abang Zul came.
Of course, she wanted me to rest my mouth :)
*********************************
http://www.video4viet.com/watchvideo.html?id=1pjU3PAxTbk&title=Ampar%20Ampar%20Pisang
Ampar ampar pisang
Pisangku balum masak
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Mangga lepak mangga lepok
Patah kayu bengkok
Bengkok dimakan api, apinya canculupan
Patah kayu bengkok
Bengkok dimakan api, apinya canculupan
Jari kaki sintak dahulu akan masak
Ampar ampar pisang
Pisangku balum masak
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Mangga ricak mangga ricak
Patah kayu bengkok
Tanduk sapi tanduk sapi kulibir bawang
Nang mana batis kutung dikitip bidawang
Pencipta / Pengarang Lagu & Lirik : Hamiedan AC
*********************************************************
In a way, I was waiting for this particular appointment.
I was supposed to go to Neuro Lab at 5th floor to check extent of damage to my 7th (facial) cranial nerve.
In indirect way, it would give me some idea about my recovery.
The appointment was not until 11.30am, but a staff from the lab called to confirm my attendance & I told her that I would come early. After all I was just killing time at home without the focus to do anything much...
I was toying the idea of either calling Pak Mat Des (our honorary family taxi man) to send me or took up the standing offer of Pak Pozi & Kak Ijah, who were in VA.
Probably, to ease the anxiety in me, I chose to be sent by family members.
Tok Pa & Nek Mak actually had to send their Ayrah to the childcare, then settle some $ matter (on behalf of T.Mak) responding to an SOS & then on off to LCCT to pick up Pak Ripin from his Tual trip.
ProfKJG, himself, did the different tests. Half way into the test, he started humming to himself. I thought to myself, "This is not too good, girl...":
1) Blink Reflex - stimulating supraorbital left & right. In both cases my right orbital oculi didn't respond positively to "look at my hand up here... now here... look straight on, look down..."
2) Motor NCS - different branches of the nerve were checked. Needles were poked to different sites on the face. Adoi !
His official comments on my EMG report:
The right R1 & R2 waves were absent on bilateral stimulation. The facial nerve CMAP is smaller on the right. Needle electromyography showed no active axonal denervation but markedly reduced recruitment pattern. The study suggests a right facial nerve palsy. There is evidence of axonal continuity still.
He explained:
1) I have seen worse cases but your case doesn't look too good, either. There is a conduction block.
2) You have to continue with the established prednisolone treatment.
3) Going for acupuncture will not cause any more damage, but whether it would really help... we don't know. If you're going to do it, do it at a real place, e.g. Tung Shin Hospital.
Alhamdulillah, although not too good good, neither was it SO bad. The inflammation had already started when my ear was already sensitive to the handphone on Thursday night... the onset of the Bell's Palsy was on Saturday early morning; i.e. about 24hours + of the inflammation!
Certainly I would not fall under the category of those who would be back to normal about 2 weeks post-onset.
Finished the tests in time to catch a ride from Suami... But, first to UMMC foodcourt to get rojak & yong tou foo :)
Didn't tell Suami much about results of the tests.
Needed to mull over things...
I was about to take my siesta when Pak Ripin & Pak Pozi-Kak Ijah arrived. However, even at the door Pak Ripin was more concerned over my situation rather than being excited about his adventure!
They brought more rojak.
Luckily, we were joined by Rahil (after work at Smart Reader) & Azmi (from a meeting at Amcorp!) with Madu Kaula.
So, we got to hear a bit about the Tual trip & Pak Ripin's experiences with *the relatives over there (interspersed with answering his & Azmi's questions about my situation).
*Of course, mostly about Adli !
Adli (leading the Tual pack) wouldn't allow Pak Ripin to buy us good pearls, to ensure that we (or representative from each family) come to Tual, ourselves. Betul-betul taktik mafia!
However, he gave 1 normal good quality pearl :) Actually, I did not get a chance to do anything to the 5 pearls he sent earlier through Pak Pozi- Kak Ijah!!
There were 2 disks of photos (taken during the trip & another on the wedding of Adli's son).
While Pak Ripin rested a bit, Kak Ijah did the necessities of dividing the ole-ole.
That night, Kak Ha & Abang Zul came.
Of course, she wanted me to rest my mouth :)
*********************************
http://www.video4viet.com/watchvideo.html?id=1pjU3PAxTbk&title=Ampar%20Ampar%20Pisang
Ampar ampar pisang
Pisangku balum masak
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Mangga lepak mangga lepok
Patah kayu bengkok
Bengkok dimakan api, apinya canculupan
Patah kayu bengkok
Bengkok dimakan api, apinya canculupan
Jari kaki sintak dahulu akan masak
Ampar ampar pisang
Pisangku balum masak
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Masak sabigi dihurung bari-bari
Mangga ricak mangga ricak
Patah kayu bengkok
Tanduk sapi tanduk sapi kulibir bawang
Nang mana batis kutung dikitip bidawang
Pencipta / Pengarang Lagu & Lirik : Hamiedan AC
*********************************************************
Saturday, June 6, 2009
BP5 - 27 MEI 2009 : RABU DI UMMC
Was actually still up at 3:44am when I received an sms from Khalil via Kak Ha:
Just did a tawaf sunat & solat hajat for MkZ & T.Mak, semoga sembuh dengan segera, InsyaAllah! =)
Jazakallah Khalil!
It was only about 5am when I slept, i.e. after the usual hassles of putting eyepad to the right eye & trying another creative technique to put it in place. Tried using a hair band.. no luck, still didn't work :(
Good that my appointment today at UMMC, i.e. at the Occupational Therapy Unit was for late afternoon. I was at home in the morning & I took time to send out 2 sms firsts:
1) sms to DSHA NeuroRG grad students + Lin Eng + Heida:
Salam. Nice to wake up yesterday late evening to a box of BA donuts + a basket of fruits together with a Get Well card full of wishes. Alhamdulillah, psychologically better, since yesterday ProfKJG ruled out stroke. Thursday neuro lab will check extend of damage so can approximate recovery rate. Physically don't feel so good: 'oozy-woozy'. Maybe effect of increase steroid dosage and/or daily encounter of not so healthy people at UMMC. TQ again!
*Amzari was sent on this errand by the group.
Aiman & Durrah, especially, enjoyed the donuts!
2) sms *Nina to meet me for lunch at UMMC food court level.
Nina had been sending me all sorts of sms related to my Bell's Palsy case: wanting to see me because she would be back in Taiping for school holidays, alternative medications to try, side effects of steroid, etc.
She even told me about the possibility of getting facial hairs. My response to that sms, "I don't intend to take the steroid THAT long sampai tumbuh misai, janggut & jambang lah".
(*Nina, Saadah & Izan were my CSUC room/house mates since way back in 1979 at Bidwell Place, Chico, California, U.S.A. We changed apartments a couple of times after that but we've always stuck together, even when one of us moved out when she got married. We rotated room mates every few months, to ensure that each of us was not stuck with any one person too long a time & this was done throughout the years till we graduated in 1983)
We had the UMMC meehoon soup. The only food with a poster advertising it at the main entrance of the cafetaria! I treated her because I said the meeting was an exchange of what would have been me melayan dia di rumah if she were to visit me at home :) She paid for the dessert.
We chatted about my condition. Nina, the well concerned friend she was & would always be, wanted me to try out some alternative stuff. Told her that I was keeping my options open but I did want to get some facts established first before trying out anything 'unconventional'.
She also voiced out that if she were to be put into my situation, she wouldn't be going about doing things like I was doing, i.e. she would the take the option of 'sitting it out for awhile'.
I told her that if that would have helped, I would also do the same.
I had no problem of others 'looking my way slightly longer' when they saw I had slight difficulties eating, etc. I would just shrug off the situation.
As always, I have full confidence in the good naturedness & the logicness of human being.
In relation to my current case, people should think that it was perfectly normal to see such sights in a hospital.
Well, even outside the hospital, we should expect to see/meet all types of people living in this world. Each has a right to live life as others are, including dining out.
I told Nina, "After all, they might also think that I had always looked that way or looked worse & I had actually improved!"
Nina was all smiles after that!
Sincerely, I do hope that by seeing me (as someone known or unknown to others) living out there in the open.. those in such similar situations or in any situation that put them feeling slightly inferior about themselves (because they feel that they don't measure up to -- what in their mind -- should be normal): SHOULD THINK AGAIN, re-asses matters.
I mean, what is 'normal'? That is a yardstick which should actually consider all sorts of aspects / values depending on the related / relevant factors to the situation.
It is not a value of one for all!
Anyway, back to lunch.... When we took our seat, I saw "long time no see sahabat MY" paying for his food.
In fact that very morning, I was wondering to myself whether I should be informing him & sahabat-sahabat seangkatan dengannya about my situation. Serba-salah...
Well, God took care of that. Here, I stumbled into him & he got to see my condition, himself!
I looked around & couldn't see anyone I knew with him. sms sahabat Zul about MY's presence. When MY walked past where Nina & I were seating, I showed him my Bell's Palsy face & his response, "Dah... jangan melawan Boss :)"
I just laughed off his statement, but in my heart I was thinking, "What in the world is MY talking about? Hey, ingat I masih pegang admin work ke?"
A lady took him to join a group of others. Only then, I received an sms from sahabat Zul on the serious condition of mother of sahabat MY at level 3, ICU. My doas...
Sent off Nina to UMMC's entrance so that she could get a cab. Passed some documents to be picked up by Mui Koon & Mieza from her office.
Then, registered myself at Occupational Therapy. I got myself about 1 hour to kill. Just sat at the waiting lounge sms communicating.
When it was time, a Cik Faridah sat with me, first of course establishing the background of the case.
Then she had an intern sat with us.
They did a few tests to check my coordination, Carpal Tunnel sysndrome & all.
Everything was within the normal range in comparison with the tests I had to do about my right face!
Next, it was the importance of massaging the face: the right types & in the right directions!
A handout with some drawings was used as a guideline & a long mirror was put in front of me to make the learning less awkward and/or less difficult to follow:
1) Touch cheek & press fingers into cheek to assist lift.
Lift cheek *without fingers (*Impossible for me to do!).
Do this for specific side & for both sides.
2) Touch cheek, press fingers into cheek & **pull back toward ear (**Macam letak blusher Puan!)
Pull back cheek *without fingers (*Impossible for me to do!).
Do this for specific side & for both sides.
**Huh??? I hardly used blusher nowadays, except to special functions. Not even sure, I was doing it the correct way. Most of my cosmetic training was done in Chico with Nina, Izan & Saadah. Actually, ALL my cosmetic trainings were acquired, then. We went to the extreme... facial exercise, home blended masks that at times looked like leftover cekodok's batter kept in the fridge!
Memory is one rezeki ALLAH swt which is so very unique. Look at the memories that were being evoked & accessed by my Bell's Palsy situation :)
The intern was then assigned to show me some techniques to handle my right hand Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. Told them, maybe I could drop by some other times to get a handout on the matter.
Too much info for me to take in at the sitting.
Tahu pun... ini selalu dalam kelas, selagi ada beberapa saat atau minit pun, ada saja... "just one more slide, huh..."
Ha... Ha..
Once done, I went up to 3rd floor hoping that I could get in to visit mother of sahabat MY's.
No luck. Since Suami could only pick me up on his way back from work (1-2 hours later), instead, called up my room office hoping either *Mui Koon or *Soke Chee could pick me up near office of Medical Faculty Dean's office.
Yes, I am losing weight partly due to the waking I'm doing...
(*Zulfa, Mieza & Amzari have motorbikes... tak sanggup merempit)
It was Mui Koon driving in her normal 'gregarious way' with Soke Chee & Joan in tow. Tried sneaking into office without meeting people because I would like to concentrate on my first face-to-face real interaction with DSHA NeuroRG grad group. Tried to make the meeting as normal as possible & got Amzari to take pictures of me... printed a copy for me & instructed them to print 3 more copies -- for Pjbt Am, Pjbt HEP & for the room.
Lin Eng & NYR also came by... hope they both felt "she'll be ok" by the time I had to leave.
Suami came & we went to pick up Durrah
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I could tell which of my friends have a lot things happening in their lives or not by the way they reacted during my first meeting with them.
The ones who do, can be less difficult to convince that, "Yes, I have this problem now. BUT, myself & the family are coping/managing. Life goes on & I'm still me except for the herot-ness, difficulties in speech, eating & drinking."
Then, we could move on & normally get on the normal griping about the going ons in their lives :)
Those whose lives were not too busy / hectic & living daily activities, seemed to be more affected. They were the ones with slight tinge of sadness on their faces that were more difficult to wipe off.
Ladies & all,
InsyaAllah, with usaha + berkat doa everyone, I will have a speedy & a full recovery.
Ini dah jatuh atas rezeki dugaan masing-masing.
We'll just have to see.
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Just did a tawaf sunat & solat hajat for MkZ & T.Mak, semoga sembuh dengan segera, InsyaAllah! =)
Jazakallah Khalil!
It was only about 5am when I slept, i.e. after the usual hassles of putting eyepad to the right eye & trying another creative technique to put it in place. Tried using a hair band.. no luck, still didn't work :(
Good that my appointment today at UMMC, i.e. at the Occupational Therapy Unit was for late afternoon. I was at home in the morning & I took time to send out 2 sms firsts:
1) sms to DSHA NeuroRG grad students + Lin Eng + Heida:
Salam. Nice to wake up yesterday late evening to a box of BA donuts + a basket of fruits together with a Get Well card full of wishes. Alhamdulillah, psychologically better, since yesterday ProfKJG ruled out stroke. Thursday neuro lab will check extend of damage so can approximate recovery rate. Physically don't feel so good: 'oozy-woozy'. Maybe effect of increase steroid dosage and/or daily encounter of not so healthy people at UMMC. TQ again!
*Amzari was sent on this errand by the group.
Aiman & Durrah, especially, enjoyed the donuts!
2) sms *Nina to meet me for lunch at UMMC food court level.
Nina had been sending me all sorts of sms related to my Bell's Palsy case: wanting to see me because she would be back in Taiping for school holidays, alternative medications to try, side effects of steroid, etc.
She even told me about the possibility of getting facial hairs. My response to that sms, "I don't intend to take the steroid THAT long sampai tumbuh misai, janggut & jambang lah".
(*Nina, Saadah & Izan were my CSUC room/house mates since way back in 1979 at Bidwell Place, Chico, California, U.S.A. We changed apartments a couple of times after that but we've always stuck together, even when one of us moved out when she got married. We rotated room mates every few months, to ensure that each of us was not stuck with any one person too long a time & this was done throughout the years till we graduated in 1983)
We had the UMMC meehoon soup. The only food with a poster advertising it at the main entrance of the cafetaria! I treated her because I said the meeting was an exchange of what would have been me melayan dia di rumah if she were to visit me at home :) She paid for the dessert.
We chatted about my condition. Nina, the well concerned friend she was & would always be, wanted me to try out some alternative stuff. Told her that I was keeping my options open but I did want to get some facts established first before trying out anything 'unconventional'.
She also voiced out that if she were to be put into my situation, she wouldn't be going about doing things like I was doing, i.e. she would the take the option of 'sitting it out for awhile'.
I told her that if that would have helped, I would also do the same.
I had no problem of others 'looking my way slightly longer' when they saw I had slight difficulties eating, etc. I would just shrug off the situation.
As always, I have full confidence in the good naturedness & the logicness of human being.
In relation to my current case, people should think that it was perfectly normal to see such sights in a hospital.
Well, even outside the hospital, we should expect to see/meet all types of people living in this world. Each has a right to live life as others are, including dining out.
I told Nina, "After all, they might also think that I had always looked that way or looked worse & I had actually improved!"
Nina was all smiles after that!
Sincerely, I do hope that by seeing me (as someone known or unknown to others) living out there in the open.. those in such similar situations or in any situation that put them feeling slightly inferior about themselves (because they feel that they don't measure up to -- what in their mind -- should be normal): SHOULD THINK AGAIN, re-asses matters.
I mean, what is 'normal'? That is a yardstick which should actually consider all sorts of aspects / values depending on the related / relevant factors to the situation.
It is not a value of one for all!
Anyway, back to lunch.... When we took our seat, I saw "long time no see sahabat MY" paying for his food.
In fact that very morning, I was wondering to myself whether I should be informing him & sahabat-sahabat seangkatan dengannya about my situation. Serba-salah...
Well, God took care of that. Here, I stumbled into him & he got to see my condition, himself!
I looked around & couldn't see anyone I knew with him. sms sahabat Zul about MY's presence. When MY walked past where Nina & I were seating, I showed him my Bell's Palsy face & his response, "Dah... jangan melawan Boss :)"
I just laughed off his statement, but in my heart I was thinking, "What in the world is MY talking about? Hey, ingat I masih pegang admin work ke?"
A lady took him to join a group of others. Only then, I received an sms from sahabat Zul on the serious condition of mother of sahabat MY at level 3, ICU. My doas...
Sent off Nina to UMMC's entrance so that she could get a cab. Passed some documents to be picked up by Mui Koon & Mieza from her office.
Then, registered myself at Occupational Therapy. I got myself about 1 hour to kill. Just sat at the waiting lounge sms communicating.
When it was time, a Cik Faridah sat with me, first of course establishing the background of the case.
Then she had an intern sat with us.
They did a few tests to check my coordination, Carpal Tunnel sysndrome & all.
Everything was within the normal range in comparison with the tests I had to do about my right face!
Next, it was the importance of massaging the face: the right types & in the right directions!
A handout with some drawings was used as a guideline & a long mirror was put in front of me to make the learning less awkward and/or less difficult to follow:
1) Touch cheek & press fingers into cheek to assist lift.
Lift cheek *without fingers (*Impossible for me to do!).
Do this for specific side & for both sides.
2) Touch cheek, press fingers into cheek & **pull back toward ear (**Macam letak blusher Puan!)
Pull back cheek *without fingers (*Impossible for me to do!).
Do this for specific side & for both sides.
**Huh??? I hardly used blusher nowadays, except to special functions. Not even sure, I was doing it the correct way. Most of my cosmetic training was done in Chico with Nina, Izan & Saadah. Actually, ALL my cosmetic trainings were acquired, then. We went to the extreme... facial exercise, home blended masks that at times looked like leftover cekodok's batter kept in the fridge!
Memory is one rezeki ALLAH swt which is so very unique. Look at the memories that were being evoked & accessed by my Bell's Palsy situation :)
The intern was then assigned to show me some techniques to handle my right hand Carpal Tunnel Syndrome. Told them, maybe I could drop by some other times to get a handout on the matter.
Too much info for me to take in at the sitting.
Tahu pun... ini selalu dalam kelas, selagi ada beberapa saat atau minit pun, ada saja... "just one more slide, huh..."
Ha... Ha..
Once done, I went up to 3rd floor hoping that I could get in to visit mother of sahabat MY's.
No luck. Since Suami could only pick me up on his way back from work (1-2 hours later), instead, called up my room office hoping either *Mui Koon or *Soke Chee could pick me up near office of Medical Faculty Dean's office.
Yes, I am losing weight partly due to the waking I'm doing...
(*Zulfa, Mieza & Amzari have motorbikes... tak sanggup merempit)
It was Mui Koon driving in her normal 'gregarious way' with Soke Chee & Joan in tow. Tried sneaking into office without meeting people because I would like to concentrate on my first face-to-face real interaction with DSHA NeuroRG grad group. Tried to make the meeting as normal as possible & got Amzari to take pictures of me... printed a copy for me & instructed them to print 3 more copies -- for Pjbt Am, Pjbt HEP & for the room.
Lin Eng & NYR also came by... hope they both felt "she'll be ok" by the time I had to leave.
Suami came & we went to pick up Durrah
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I could tell which of my friends have a lot things happening in their lives or not by the way they reacted during my first meeting with them.
The ones who do, can be less difficult to convince that, "Yes, I have this problem now. BUT, myself & the family are coping/managing. Life goes on & I'm still me except for the herot-ness, difficulties in speech, eating & drinking."
Then, we could move on & normally get on the normal griping about the going ons in their lives :)
Those whose lives were not too busy / hectic & living daily activities, seemed to be more affected. They were the ones with slight tinge of sadness on their faces that were more difficult to wipe off.
Ladies & all,
InsyaAllah, with usaha + berkat doa everyone, I will have a speedy & a full recovery.
Ini dah jatuh atas rezeki dugaan masing-masing.
We'll just have to see.
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PREDNISOLONE & KESAN SAMPINGAN
http://www.buzzle.com/articles/prednisone-side-effects.html
Info from the article which I find relevant:
- Prednisone’s side effects are legendary in both the medical & patient communities. Patients usually ingest this non-synthetic corticosteroid drug orally.
- Medical professionals prescribe prednisone for many medical conditions. Prednisone turns into the steroidal product prednisolone after the liver has processed prednisone following administration. Its most common use is as an immunosuppressant that acts on almost the entire immune system. This makes it very useful in the treatment of autoimmune diseases, inflammatory diseases.
(Prednisone = blue colored small pills of 5mg each)
- The usual adult dose at the beginning of treatment ranges from 20 to 80 milligrams per day.
(I started 30mg for 3 days & then asked to increase to 50mg)
- The side effects of prednisone include adrenal suppression, which can occur with periods of prednisone use to surpass 7 days, Adrenal suppression refers to the body’s inability to synthesize natural corticosteroids, resulting in a dependency on the prednisone taken by the patient.
(My side effects started in the 2nd week of my treatment)
- Doctors do not recommend the cessation of prednisone when the patient has taken it for longer than 7 days. They reduce the dose gradually over a few days in the case of short-term prednisone use, & over weeks or months in the case of long-term treatment. Stopping prednisone treatment abruptly can cause the life-threatening Addison’s disease, in which in the body no longer produces sufficient amounts of adrenal steroid hormones.
(Life threatening!)
- Doctors treat these side effects of prednisone symptomatically, since it is not always feasible to stop prednisone administration even when severe side effects occur. These are situation where they have to weigh the disadvantages of using a drug against the advantages & make an informed decision. One must remember that while prednisone definitely does give rise to many side effects, it is also a life-saving drug.
(This was mentioned to me, I mean the importance of continuing on with prednisone... no matter what!)
SIDE EFFECTS of prednisone use include:
a) High blood glucose levels, most commonly in patients that are already has diabetes mellitus or is using medications that increase blood glucose.
(I don't have this, Alhamdulillah)
b) Insomnia / sleeplessness
(YES, most days I slept at 4am & would be up latest by 6.45am...)
c) Euphoria / hyperactivity, in some cases, even mania.
(NOT mania... but the way I interrupted doctors, etc doing their jobs... I definitely am more hyperactive than my normal hyperactive self!)
d) Unnatural fatigue or weakness
(YES, this effect showed itself once I walked into my abode)
e) Abdominal pain
(Don't think so, Alhamdulillah)
f) Can affect the eyes as well; the most common side effects in the context are glaucoma, cataract formation & blurring of vision
(YES! YES! YES! I'm most affected by this, because it hampered my reading-writing-smsing-enjoying TV-etc)
g) Peptic ulcers
(YES, given Losac / Omesec for this. Lots of angin... nausea, etc)
h) Infections
(Nope, Alhamdulillah)
i) Pain in the hips or shoulders
(Yes, in the shoulders)
j) Osteoporosis
(Taking calcium for this)
k) Occurrence of acne
(A few popped up on my face)
l) Increase in appetite... thus, weight gain
(DEFINITELY, YES! Seemingly always hungry...)
m) Stretch marks on the skin
(Already have them before this Bell's Palsy Episode)
n) Swelling in the face
(Definitely YES, after 2nd week)
o) Nervousness
(Didn't notice this one)
p) Easily bruised -- info through self experience & confirmed by a physician
q) Usage for long periods can cause side effects, e.g. Cushing's syndrome, weight gain, osteoporosis, glaucoma & type II diabetes mellitus.
(Hope this won't happen to me, InsyaAllah)
r) Upon withdrawal of prednisone after long-term use, patients also suffer from depression
(Hope this won't happen to me, InsyaAllah)
Info from the article which I find relevant:
- Prednisone’s side effects are legendary in both the medical & patient communities. Patients usually ingest this non-synthetic corticosteroid drug orally.
- Medical professionals prescribe prednisone for many medical conditions. Prednisone turns into the steroidal product prednisolone after the liver has processed prednisone following administration. Its most common use is as an immunosuppressant that acts on almost the entire immune system. This makes it very useful in the treatment of autoimmune diseases, inflammatory diseases.
(Prednisone = blue colored small pills of 5mg each)
- The usual adult dose at the beginning of treatment ranges from 20 to 80 milligrams per day.
(I started 30mg for 3 days & then asked to increase to 50mg)
- The side effects of prednisone include adrenal suppression, which can occur with periods of prednisone use to surpass 7 days, Adrenal suppression refers to the body’s inability to synthesize natural corticosteroids, resulting in a dependency on the prednisone taken by the patient.
(My side effects started in the 2nd week of my treatment)
- Doctors do not recommend the cessation of prednisone when the patient has taken it for longer than 7 days. They reduce the dose gradually over a few days in the case of short-term prednisone use, & over weeks or months in the case of long-term treatment. Stopping prednisone treatment abruptly can cause the life-threatening Addison’s disease, in which in the body no longer produces sufficient amounts of adrenal steroid hormones.
(Life threatening!)
- Doctors treat these side effects of prednisone symptomatically, since it is not always feasible to stop prednisone administration even when severe side effects occur. These are situation where they have to weigh the disadvantages of using a drug against the advantages & make an informed decision. One must remember that while prednisone definitely does give rise to many side effects, it is also a life-saving drug.
(This was mentioned to me, I mean the importance of continuing on with prednisone... no matter what!)
SIDE EFFECTS of prednisone use include:
a) High blood glucose levels, most commonly in patients that are already has diabetes mellitus or is using medications that increase blood glucose.
(I don't have this, Alhamdulillah)
b) Insomnia / sleeplessness
(YES, most days I slept at 4am & would be up latest by 6.45am...)
c) Euphoria / hyperactivity, in some cases, even mania.
(NOT mania... but the way I interrupted doctors, etc doing their jobs... I definitely am more hyperactive than my normal hyperactive self!)
d) Unnatural fatigue or weakness
(YES, this effect showed itself once I walked into my abode)
e) Abdominal pain
(Don't think so, Alhamdulillah)
f) Can affect the eyes as well; the most common side effects in the context are glaucoma, cataract formation & blurring of vision
(YES! YES! YES! I'm most affected by this, because it hampered my reading-writing-smsing-enjoying TV-etc)
g) Peptic ulcers
(YES, given Losac / Omesec for this. Lots of angin... nausea, etc)
h) Infections
(Nope, Alhamdulillah)
i) Pain in the hips or shoulders
(Yes, in the shoulders)
j) Osteoporosis
(Taking calcium for this)
k) Occurrence of acne
(A few popped up on my face)
l) Increase in appetite... thus, weight gain
(DEFINITELY, YES! Seemingly always hungry...)
m) Stretch marks on the skin
(Already have them before this Bell's Palsy Episode)
n) Swelling in the face
(Definitely YES, after 2nd week)
o) Nervousness
(Didn't notice this one)
p) Easily bruised -- info through self experience & confirmed by a physician
(Mine showed itself on my 1st day of work when I was holding on to my course files to get them ready for AD Bil 10. So shocked to see my palm thumb area bruised. Showed it to Dr Mona for confirmation)
q) Usage for long periods can cause side effects, e.g. Cushing's syndrome, weight gain, osteoporosis, glaucoma & type II diabetes mellitus.
(Hope this won't happen to me, InsyaAllah)
r) Upon withdrawal of prednisone after long-term use, patients also suffer from depression
(Hope this won't happen to me, InsyaAllah)
Friday, June 5, 2009
BP4 - 26 MEI 2009 : SELASA DI UMMC
My appointment was not until 10am, but I went out as early as everyone else.
Suami dropped me off at Klinik Perubatan entrance & I went up to register myself to see Prof KJG.
After settling that, I called Saadah & informed her that we could have breakfast if she could afford the time. She was already out of her house & driving in to work. Her 1st meeting would only be at 10am & she was not chairing it :p
Unfortunately, there was a big jam & she couldn't arrive so quickly.
When she stopped to pick me up at UMMC entrance, I had this sneaky feeling that she was avoiding to 'face reality' under the pretense of attending to a call.
I could imagine her feelings... I've always been THE big sister in our friendship which started off in Bidwell Place, Chico, California, USA (1979).
Anyway, I just let it be rather than be my normal 'confrontational self'.
We chose Amcorp over Jaya One. Only SB was opened & I knew Saadah needed her coffee morning fix. She gave this round about excuse why it's OK to have our breakfast at SB...
By the time we're ordering stuff, she was already laughing; entertained by how I pulled right corner end of my mouth to pronounce certain words.
I made her pay, "I'm the sick one... you've to belanja :p"
So, we went through what had happened to me & told her about people I had bumped into when I was at UMMC the day before.
Her mental state of mind this morning: even blamed Siti Aisyah's fell on stress caused by 'Nuno'.
Ha.. Ha... Ha... of course, next we talked about stress at work & how her health was affected.
Actually, that was the main reason I conned her to see me... so that we discuss HER health status.
I wanted to open doors / alternatives for her & Alhamdulillah, mission accomplished!
She dropped me back at UMMC & told her to send her my salam to Kamila & MR who would both be at the meeting.
I went up again to level 1 of Neuromedical.
Of course, my number was already flashed. So, I just waited some more after telling the ladies at the counter of my presence.
Prof KJG looked through my file & confirmed that it was not a stroke. THAT actually took off a lot of burden from me. He also increased dosage of the prednisolone I had to take, 10 x 5mg daily (rather than 6 x 5mg daily). Of course, I brought up issues on alternative approaches. He also asked about Tok Mak.
Gave me mc till Friday & told me to rest because he thought I should be feeling uncomfortable talking, etc.
It's true, the more I talked... the more herot my face would be & at times the inner part of my cheek get stuck in between my top-bottom teeth. Adoi!
Went to Neurolab at 5th floor to make appointment. Previously, I had come to this place to check on my Carpal Tunnel syndrome. Then of course a couple of times with Tok Mak, accompanied by Kak Ijah & even Naufal (we made him push Tok Mak's wheel chair then). For both, Tok Mak's & now mine, these visits would be to check extend of damage !
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Suami dropped me off at Klinik Perubatan entrance & I went up to register myself to see Prof KJG.
After settling that, I called Saadah & informed her that we could have breakfast if she could afford the time. She was already out of her house & driving in to work. Her 1st meeting would only be at 10am & she was not chairing it :p
Unfortunately, there was a big jam & she couldn't arrive so quickly.
When she stopped to pick me up at UMMC entrance, I had this sneaky feeling that she was avoiding to 'face reality' under the pretense of attending to a call.
I could imagine her feelings... I've always been THE big sister in our friendship which started off in Bidwell Place, Chico, California, USA (1979).
Anyway, I just let it be rather than be my normal 'confrontational self'.
We chose Amcorp over Jaya One. Only SB was opened & I knew Saadah needed her coffee morning fix. She gave this round about excuse why it's OK to have our breakfast at SB...
By the time we're ordering stuff, she was already laughing; entertained by how I pulled right corner end of my mouth to pronounce certain words.
I made her pay, "I'm the sick one... you've to belanja :p"
So, we went through what had happened to me & told her about people I had bumped into when I was at UMMC the day before.
Her mental state of mind this morning: even blamed Siti Aisyah's fell on stress caused by 'Nuno'.
Ha.. Ha... Ha... of course, next we talked about stress at work & how her health was affected.
Actually, that was the main reason I conned her to see me... so that we discuss HER health status.
I wanted to open doors / alternatives for her & Alhamdulillah, mission accomplished!
She dropped me back at UMMC & told her to send her my salam to Kamila & MR who would both be at the meeting.
I went up again to level 1 of Neuromedical.
Of course, my number was already flashed. So, I just waited some more after telling the ladies at the counter of my presence.
Prof KJG looked through my file & confirmed that it was not a stroke. THAT actually took off a lot of burden from me. He also increased dosage of the prednisolone I had to take, 10 x 5mg daily (rather than 6 x 5mg daily). Of course, I brought up issues on alternative approaches. He also asked about Tok Mak.
Gave me mc till Friday & told me to rest because he thought I should be feeling uncomfortable talking, etc.
It's true, the more I talked... the more herot my face would be & at times the inner part of my cheek get stuck in between my top-bottom teeth. Adoi!
Went to Neurolab at 5th floor to make appointment. Previously, I had come to this place to check on my Carpal Tunnel syndrome. Then of course a couple of times with Tok Mak, accompanied by Kak Ijah & even Naufal (we made him push Tok Mak's wheel chair then). For both, Tok Mak's & now mine, these visits would be to check extend of damage !
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Tuesday, June 2, 2009
OTOT TERJEJAS OLEH BELL'S PALSY
In my case I've complete paralysis of the right side muscle of the face.
Impulses from the peripheral nerve (of 7th cranial nerve) are not activating the muscles.
Yes, students... no activity at the neuromuscular junctions, no acetylcholine being released :(
Since in my case it is complete paralysis & onset is sudden, possibly the problem is at the site when the nerve has just started its journey out ipsilaterally before it even splits up to branches!
Due to the non-functioning on the right side, the left side which has normal muscle functions caused 'herot-ness syptoms' (tarik effect of sebelah yang baik & kuat).
Examples of the affected muscles are described below.
Info is taken from wikipedia (Adoi, what sort of referencing is this?)
1) Muscles around the eye : ORBICULARIS OCULI
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Gray379.png
- Acts to close the eye & is the only muscle capable of doing so.
- Loss of function for any reason results in an inability to close the eye, necessitating eye drops at the minimum to removal of the eye in extreme cases.
- A lesion of the facial nerve (e.g. seen in Bell's palsy) results in the inability to blink or close the ipsilateral eyelid. Subsequent lack of irrigation increases the risk of corneal inflammation & ulcers.
2) Muscles around the mouth : ORBICULARIS ORIS MUSCLE
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Gray381.png
- One of the muscles used in the playing of all brass instruments and some woodwind instruments.
- This muscle closes the mouth & puckers the lips when it contracts.
- Loss of function disabled one to make the sound "BOO"
3) Other muscles affected -- everything else on the right side of the face :(
Normally, the feeling is that there's some sort of inflammation of the nerve.
It could actually be the whole nerve, just the membrane or the myelin?
Wallahu'alam!
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Impulses from the peripheral nerve (of 7th cranial nerve) are not activating the muscles.
Yes, students... no activity at the neuromuscular junctions, no acetylcholine being released :(
Since in my case it is complete paralysis & onset is sudden, possibly the problem is at the site when the nerve has just started its journey out ipsilaterally before it even splits up to branches!
Due to the non-functioning on the right side, the left side which has normal muscle functions caused 'herot-ness syptoms' (tarik effect of sebelah yang baik & kuat).
Examples of the affected muscles are described below.
Info is taken from wikipedia (Adoi, what sort of referencing is this?)
1) Muscles around the eye : ORBICULARIS OCULI
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Gray379.png
- Acts to close the eye & is the only muscle capable of doing so.
- Loss of function for any reason results in an inability to close the eye, necessitating eye drops at the minimum to removal of the eye in extreme cases.
- A lesion of the facial nerve (e.g. seen in Bell's palsy) results in the inability to blink or close the ipsilateral eyelid. Subsequent lack of irrigation increases the risk of corneal inflammation & ulcers.
2) Muscles around the mouth : ORBICULARIS ORIS MUSCLE
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Gray381.png
- One of the muscles used in the playing of all brass instruments and some woodwind instruments.
- This muscle closes the mouth & puckers the lips when it contracts.
- Loss of function disabled one to make the sound "BOO"
3) Other muscles affected -- everything else on the right side of the face :(
Normally, the feeling is that there's some sort of inflammation of the nerve.
It could actually be the whole nerve, just the membrane or the myelin?
Wallahu'alam!
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Saturday, May 30, 2009
BP3 - 25 MEI 2009 : ISNIN DI UMMC
After the usual necessities, insisted that I could drive the Naza to send Durrah to Sekolah Ugama while Suami sent Aiman to the other side of town.
He would come back to pick me up & send me to UMMC. Both of us did not think that *the public parking in UMMC would be a friendly place for someone who couldn't blink one of her eyes!
(*I've been using the parking place regularly since late 2007 after T.Mak's stroke. My bad driving, the big Naza & the very bad design of the building-traffic flow, etc had contributed to all sorts of scratches, dents, etc that could be found on the Naza. Glad to say that the place had improved!)
Oopps... as I reversed the Naza out of the gate, realized that glass window on the driver's side MUST NOT be wound down!
The morning breeze that normally feel so good on the face... oooh.. oohh, could not have that today! It dried up the right eye faster. Had to remember touching the upper eyelid, so that it would be forced to close, ie to mimick blinking.
OK, the driving within a 3km distance could be done... but NOT so easy.
Passed to Durrah the *tasbih. She normally choose whatever she wants to recite. However, this time specifically asked her to do "ALHAMDULILLAH". Told her that she (& all of us) still have lots to thank ALLAH swt for, eg I can still move around & drive her to school :)
(*tasbih brought back by your latest umrah Saadah !)
A 15 minutes worth of pulses (I was asked about the limit that I could stand) were given in accordance to the sites set up.
Once done, I sms to a few of my grad students asking them to drive in one car to UMMC main entrance for our exchange of documents :)
As I was walking to the main entrance, stumbled into June with her father. We exchanged news & I thought to myself, "Who else would I be meeting today?"
11.40am: Mui Koon drove by with Joan & Amzari as passengers.
Joan said, "Dr........." in a hopeless kind of tone through the wound down window. http://foolishreport.blogspot.com/2009/05/she-optimist.html
To make matters worse, it so happened I just put in drops of artificial tears into the eye. I was not too good at it, yet, so it did make me look as if I was crying! I tried to tell them that I was not crying, but I didn't think they believe me.
Then, I went back in & stood in line to get my medication but to just realize that I left the prescriptions somewhere :(
Since it was still early, I went up to the level 1 counter for the appointment tomorrow & asked whether I could request to be seen by *Prof KJG. The girl at the counter told me that I would just have to see whoever was available tomorrow, unless of course Prof KJG had agreed to see me.
(*Prof KJG has been seeing Tok Mak both in UMMC & UMSC since we brought her after the stroke, referred by Prof I. We like him. He also had taken time to see Sieaw Ching, one of my former undergraduate students, with her elbow problem :) )
With all the walkings I had to do... Ich haber hunger (one of the few sentences I could still remember from my German 101 in CSUC, i.e. I'm hungry!)
So, to the foodcourt at level 1. Since the meehoon soup was not ready, yet, instead took away soft tofu, rojak, yong tau foo & cendol.
Rushed to the main entrance again to be picked up by Suami. Sempat lagi beli roti-roti Aiman's favourite for breakfast tomorrow (of course butter scotch & chocolate with raisins)!
As I sat in the car, I saw the prescriptions near the ADY's dashboard!
He would come back to pick me up & send me to UMMC. Both of us did not think that *the public parking in UMMC would be a friendly place for someone who couldn't blink one of her eyes!
(*I've been using the parking place regularly since late 2007 after T.Mak's stroke. My bad driving, the big Naza & the very bad design of the building-traffic flow, etc had contributed to all sorts of scratches, dents, etc that could be found on the Naza. Glad to say that the place had improved!)
Oopps... as I reversed the Naza out of the gate, realized that glass window on the driver's side MUST NOT be wound down!
The morning breeze that normally feel so good on the face... oooh.. oohh, could not have that today! It dried up the right eye faster. Had to remember touching the upper eyelid, so that it would be forced to close, ie to mimick blinking.
OK, the driving within a 3km distance could be done... but NOT so easy.
Passed to Durrah the *tasbih. She normally choose whatever she wants to recite. However, this time specifically asked her to do "ALHAMDULILLAH". Told her that she (& all of us) still have lots to thank ALLAH swt for, eg I can still move around & drive her to school :)
(*tasbih brought back by your latest umrah Saadah !)
Driving back towards home, my mind was trying to focus on THINGS TO DO / ACCOMPLISH. Not just today, but for the whole week.
I know that I am entering the next phase of my Bell's Palsy: figuring out details, treatments, etc
Had a quick breakfast because I had to take my 6 x 5mg of prednisolone (30mg total).
I looked through my UMMC card & referral letters:
25/5 (Monday): Start of physiotherapy
26/5 (Tuesday): Neuromedical
27/5 (Wednesday): Introduction to Rehabilatation Therapy
28/5 (Thursday): Neuro Lab (to check extend of damage to the nerve)
29/5 (Friday): Ear & Throat
It will be a long week!
Suami dropped me at the main entrance of UMMC & we were both unsure the kind of arrangements of when I should be picked up, etc. One thing for certain he would be picking up Durrah.
I walked over to the other building where the Physiotherapy Unit is located. Registered myself with the referral letter, etc & then plodded myself on the seat to wait.
While waiting, sent out more sms: research collaborators, mantan "auping group", senior grad students (including Ain), etc that I felt should hear the news straight from me.
I also stumbled into a friend from the department who was having an excruciating back problem after a fall, Kak Erah's friend who suddenly had a bad attack on her knee joint & Ain's friend who had a procedure for her Carpal Tunnel Sysndrome (CTS). So, we had our chats in between waitings.
The girl who was assigned to me went through the referral forms which had 'ticks' on what was supposed to be done on me. *She & her superior felt that the information in the form was not exactly correct & so they decided differently on some matters.
(*They looked familiar. I think I had socialized with them before in the past, during visits with T.Mak to the place due to problems she had with her arm-shoulder area. ProfTS had referred her to the place.)
Next she gave me a piece of paper with info on both sides of it:
Front Page: SENAMAN UNTUK OTOT-OTOT MUKA with 12 facial expressions like mengangkat kening, mengerut kening, tutup mata, buka mata, mengerut hidung, senyum, senyum lebar, mengerut dagu, kelihatan sedih, buka mulut, tutup mulut, tiup.
You think kacang, huh?
Well, I couldn't do any of it well... as in the right side of the face didn't want to do anything!
At The Back Of The Page: 5 were listed under the topic ANDA DINASIHATKAN SUPAYA:
1) Jangan baring pada bahagian muka yang terlibat.
*Practising it already :)
2) Lakukan senaman setiap 1 jam seperti yang diajar oleh fisioterapi.
*1 hour daily? Wah, tak buat aktiviti lain macam ni!
3) Sentiasa menutup masa semasa tidur (dengan gauze) & memakai cermin mata semasa keluar dari rumah.
*This is not easy! I would start out doing that, but... my hands would take off whatever was being put on the right eye!
4) Gunakan straw semasa minum.
*Practising that already... if not whatever I drink will meleleh merata-rata.
5) Urut muka ke arah atas & ke telinga, cth boleh gunakan ais semasa mengurut.
*I added the last part about using ice after the little discussion we had
Then the electrotherapy started after she prepared 3 sites for attachments:
1) Just above the forehead
2) In the area below the cheekbone
3) Near the area of the lower jaw
A 15 minutes worth of pulses (I was asked about the limit that I could stand) were given in accordance to the sites set up.
Once done, I sms to a few of my grad students asking them to drive in one car to UMMC main entrance for our exchange of documents :)
As I was walking to the main entrance, stumbled into June with her father. We exchanged news & I thought to myself, "Who else would I be meeting today?"
11.40am: Mui Koon drove by with Joan & Amzari as passengers.
Joan said, "Dr........." in a hopeless kind of tone through the wound down window. http://foolishreport.blogspot.com/2009/05/she-optimist.html
To make matters worse, it so happened I just put in drops of artificial tears into the eye. I was not too good at it, yet, so it did make me look as if I was crying! I tried to tell them that I was not crying, but I didn't think they believe me.
Then, I went back in & stood in line to get my medication but to just realize that I left the prescriptions somewhere :(
Since it was still early, I went up to the level 1 counter for the appointment tomorrow & asked whether I could request to be seen by *Prof KJG. The girl at the counter told me that I would just have to see whoever was available tomorrow, unless of course Prof KJG had agreed to see me.
(*Prof KJG has been seeing Tok Mak both in UMMC & UMSC since we brought her after the stroke, referred by Prof I. We like him. He also had taken time to see Sieaw Ching, one of my former undergraduate students, with her elbow problem :) )
With all the walkings I had to do... Ich haber hunger (one of the few sentences I could still remember from my German 101 in CSUC, i.e. I'm hungry!)
So, to the foodcourt at level 1. Since the meehoon soup was not ready, yet, instead took away soft tofu, rojak, yong tau foo & cendol.
Rushed to the main entrance again to be picked up by Suami. Sempat lagi beli roti-roti Aiman's favourite for breakfast tomorrow (of course butter scotch & chocolate with raisins)!
As I sat in the car, I saw the prescriptions near the ADY's dashboard!
At home, we quickly ate lunch & Durrah asked, "Muka Mama tak boleh bedah ke?" I think she meant plastic surgery. Poor girl!
I thought about the antibiotics prescription for the ear. It was already Monday afternoon & if my problem was related to something in my ear... then, certainly I was not attending to it!
So, I told Suami... he would have to drop me back at UMMC main entrance after dropping off Durrah at her school gate!
The line to handing in the prescription was short. Got the antibiotics for the ear & put it into the ear immediately. Oh yes, while waiting I also stumbled into TN (a former librarian & 'auping'). Again, more exchange of news!
sms a few friends who're quite insistent about meeting me ASAP. Told them to meet me in AMCORP!
Of course Suami felt that it was too many hours that I needed to kill before he could pick me up after picking up Durrah at 6:30pm. I assured him that I would be fine with one of these girls & I was not in the mood of repeating instructions to taxi drivers on how to get back to our home from UMMC. Easier to say "AMCORP" :)
None of them could actually meet me, it was too late in the day.
So, instead, I had a shopping therapy to wind down from my first day experience of this phase of my life as a person having Bell's Palsy!
I cruised & shopped from the ground level, only -- 1 blouse & 2 long skirts for Durrah (from 2 different shops), some stock up stuff from the pharmacy, tall mugs that Amzar could use in his dorm life... & finally, sat myself at Secret Recipe for a piece of carrot cake + a smoothie suggested by the waitress while waiting to go home!
Alhamdulillah, one down & four to go!
That night I asked Joan to set a blog site for me. I had stumbled into hers sometime back & so I know she could set one up for me. Joan obliged :)
Having a blog would be good therapy for myself & I would like the experience to be recorded. Ini semua training audit, kut? Most importantly, I figured that there would be many more days to go, each one bringing different experince.
Maybe my experience could be benefitial to others. When life gives lemon, make lemonade!
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QUE SERA... SERA of Doris Day:
I asked my mother: What will I be? Will I be pretty? Will I be rich?
Here's what she said to me: Que sera, sera. Whatever will be, will be. The future's not ours to see. Que sera, sera. What will be, will be.
When I grew up and fell in love, I asked my sweetheart: What lies ahead? Will we have rainbows day after day?
Here's what my sweetheart said: Que sera, sera. Whatever will be, will be. The future's not ours to see. Que sera, sera. What will be, will be.
Now I have children of my own. They ask their mother: What will I be? Will I be handsome? Will I be rich?
I tell them tenderly: Que sera, sera. Whatever will be, will be. The future's not ours to see. Que sera, sera. What will be, will be. Que sera, sera.
BP2 - 24 MEI 2009 : AHAD MALAM
Well... it's the time of day that most people started thinking back about their work, ie Sunday night (end tail of the weekend, before working back on Monday....)
I remembered about the observation session I was supposed to do at a private Higher Education Provider in SJ. Obviously, I would not be going & so arrangements have to be made. So, 1st sms out with regards to work, to the officer who was the contact point:
Salam Afizah. Please pass this message to DrRozi
{My apologies, I won't be able to observe Dr Deepa's class tomorrow. I've been given mc for a few days. An unfortunate event happened over the weekend. I woke up with total paralysis of right side of my face & I've been diagnosed as having Bell's Palsy (Thank God, not due to stroke). However, my speech is affected & I 'constantly' need to put in artificial tear to my right eye so that it doesn't dry up. I'm scheduled for my 1st session of facial retraining-physiotherapy tomorrow @UMMC. Don't worry over me, I'll bounce back (God's willing). Hope I'll be fine enough by the next session :p My regards to Dr Deepa & Dr Jasbir}
So, that was settled.
Then, it was answering sms from an international student who wanted to make an appointment to see me about her classes next semester & a graduating student asking for permission to call me to discuss about future alternatives. What a coincidence, they are both Fatimah! I told them both what had happened.
OK, it was not so early but not so late... better go to sleep. I would start the next phase of trying to handle the Bell's Palsy with treatments / tests / etc @ UMMC. Que sera... Que sera...
Of course, sleep time bring anxiety internally... hassle of getting the eye ready to sleep. Of course, BP went up :(
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I remembered about the observation session I was supposed to do at a private Higher Education Provider in SJ. Obviously, I would not be going & so arrangements have to be made. So, 1st sms out with regards to work, to the officer who was the contact point:
Salam Afizah. Please pass this message to DrRozi
{My apologies, I won't be able to observe Dr Deepa's class tomorrow. I've been given mc for a few days. An unfortunate event happened over the weekend. I woke up with total paralysis of right side of my face & I've been diagnosed as having Bell's Palsy (Thank God, not due to stroke). However, my speech is affected & I 'constantly' need to put in artificial tear to my right eye so that it doesn't dry up. I'm scheduled for my 1st session of facial retraining-physiotherapy tomorrow @UMMC. Don't worry over me, I'll bounce back (God's willing). Hope I'll be fine enough by the next session :p My regards to Dr Deepa & Dr Jasbir}
So, that was settled.
Then, it was answering sms from an international student who wanted to make an appointment to see me about her classes next semester & a graduating student asking for permission to call me to discuss about future alternatives. What a coincidence, they are both Fatimah! I told them both what had happened.
OK, it was not so early but not so late... better go to sleep. I would start the next phase of trying to handle the Bell's Palsy with treatments / tests / etc @ UMMC. Que sera... Que sera...
Of course, sleep time bring anxiety internally... hassle of getting the eye ready to sleep. Of course, BP went up :(
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Friday, May 29, 2009
BP2 - 24 MEI 2009 : AHAD SIANG
I woke up panicking... felt like the eyepad was off & the right eye felt *dried.
Oh My God.. Oh My God..
Quickly reached out for the artificial tear & squirted few drops into the eye.
(*I have high hopes, motivated with full recovery stories told to me, eg about husbands of friends... & even RS the communicator, that my speech would get back to normal sooner or later.
But the eye... an infection, a scratched cornea, etc... that would be another story!
To be honest, I've always been very protective & concerned over my eyes. )
Prepared for solat subuh, though of course spent more than a few minutes trying to make faces in front of the mirror in the bathroom!
Nope, no changes.
Suami was already out at the Old Town market. Looked in at the kids & they were back at sleep. Got myself ready for a walk at the nearby park, bringing along my handphone.
Left a note on the wall to Suami about where I was going.
As I was walking towards the park, I kept humming Louis Armstrong's WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnRqYMTpXHc
Helped Amzar with final packing. He insisted that he only wanted to bring 2 bags (one was the bag he bought from trip to Bandung with Suami last week) & NO BANTAL (even though it's on the check list) .
"Mama... Amzar dah berpengalaman duduk asrama. Dekat ASiS tu bantal penuh satu stor. Orang wakaf saja..."
10:30 am : Suami made sure photos taken, etc & we left to send our first born to his post-school life.
WOW... there were signs which started on the main road even from the junction near our housing area... cars double parked lining the roads in front of the main campus... the happy faces of parents, families & of course "the grown ups".
Back to the Bell's Palsy patient & her family:
We stayed away from sitting under the canopy with the group of parents. I was not ready to make little conversation & having those socializing with me working hard to understand what I was saying.
We stayed busy reading Sunday papers at a marble bench near by.
My group of graduate students have stumbled into the e mail I sent them last night, got first response from Mieza:
Salam.. Dr, sorry to hear about your condition.. Semoga Dr tabah hadapi dugaan daripadaNya. Hope you'll soon be feeling fine & enjoying better health again. Take good care & rest =)
Received others with similar content, mostly urging me to remain strong. Some even relaying messages from their mothers. Soke Chee's had extra information:
Dr, I had heard about medical condition similar to yours in my hometown cured by acupuncture in TS Hospital. Would like to share this information with you :)
All this time, Suami of course was busy snapping away pictures... even dari celah grill. Adoi, Baba...
I told Amzar, "If people give you the looks... just say, I'm the eldest & so this is a happy day for my father!"
I was happy & pround to see that Amzar was cool about the whole thing, he thought it was funny too & he was NOT embarassed by his Baba's actions!
Kasi chance lah kat Baba :)
I told Aiman, "Baba will do the same thing when it's your time. Just say: I'm his baby boy & so this is my father's happy day!"
Then I told Durrah, "Baba will also do the same when it's your time. Tell people: I'm his youngest & so my father is very happy today!"
The whole registration & *opening of bank account went quite quickly! Congrats Matrikulasi UIA!
(*Wanted to give him the rest of his hadiah for the 8A1 & 1A2 he got. He already took some to shop a couple of times...)
Then off to to the dorm... 4th floor & mengenjot memanjat tangga! Adoi!
All the 2 persons per room in 'no. 401 apartment' were taken.
Left was one room with 2 double deckers & another was a makeshift room with 1 single bed.
After the whole family tested the beds (of course with Baba taking more pictures), Amzar agreed it should be the latter.
THE funny thing was: NO BANTAL! Hah!
We decided to go for lunch at a place where we could get for Amzar a pillow & some clothes hangers & antibiotics for the ear plus more artificial tear for me. The fluid for the eye that I was using had preservatives & it was causing allergic reaction.
So, here we go to... where else but to AMCORP!
Aiman kept repeating with big smiles on his face of his amazement that Amzar's place was SO close to everything, even to their Samad School.
I thought, "So... he was affected by the idea that Amzar would be gone again..."
Anyway, celebratory lunch at KR, only got the artificial tear off the counter & not the antibiotics since the pharmacist had just gone out for lunch.
As for Amzar, he instead got for himself a Giordano t-shirt on sale.
Yes, back HOME to get the pillow!
Since Amzar needed to go back only at 5pm, he snoozed at the brown sofa, solat zohor, then continued on at the striped sofa.
Penatnya pelajar matrikulasi... baru pendaftaran!
After Asr, only me & Suami sent him off. We dropped him off in front of the gate. Aiman & Durrah were too tired & furthermore they had sent him all the way to his room.
So, one tanggungjawab for the weekend was settled, Alhamdulillah.
Next, back to Amcorp as I really wanted to get the antibiotics for the ear.
Sorry, they don't have it. I guess, I would just get it from UMMC on Monday during my first physiotherapy session.
When we arrived home... Refering to TAF parked in front of the house, Suami said, "Your sister is here..."
Kak Ijah was sitting facing towards the door & I thought she had this unsure with a tinge of sadness look on her face & Abang Fozi was sitting at the sofa.
So, stories were exchanged at the round table which had heard so many happy-sad-gossipy-you name it stories since 1995 when it joined the GI household. If only the table could talk...
Rahil, Zaidi & Ayrah later joined. Even the 1 year old plus cucu Ayrah looked anxiously at her WanZ & (we thought) she said, "Napanya?"
Rahil suggested that I just pulled the end part of my the right side of my lips when I wanted to pronounced anything with "B" & "P" which I had most troubled with. It helped!
They left since it was close to Maghrib.
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Oh My God.. Oh My God..
Quickly reached out for the artificial tear & squirted few drops into the eye.
(*I have high hopes, motivated with full recovery stories told to me, eg about husbands of friends... & even RS the communicator, that my speech would get back to normal sooner or later.
But the eye... an infection, a scratched cornea, etc... that would be another story!
To be honest, I've always been very protective & concerned over my eyes. )
Prepared for solat subuh, though of course spent more than a few minutes trying to make faces in front of the mirror in the bathroom!
Nope, no changes.
Suami was already out at the Old Town market. Looked in at the kids & they were back at sleep. Got myself ready for a walk at the nearby park, bringing along my handphone.
Left a note on the wall to Suami about where I was going.
As I was walking towards the park, I kept humming Louis Armstrong's WHAT A WONDERFUL WORLD:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vnRqYMTpXHc
I see trees of green, red roses too
I see them bloom for me and you
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
I see skies of blue and clouds of white
The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
The colours of the rainbow, so pretty in the sky
Are also on the faces of people going by
I see friends shakin' hands, sayin' "How do you do?"
They're really saying "I love you"
I hear babies cryin', I watch them grow
They'll learn much more than I'll ever know
And I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Yes, I think to myself, what a wonderful world
Oh yeah!
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SUBHANALLAH...
WALHAMDULILLAH...
WALA ILA HAILLAH WALLAH HU AKBAR
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I walked 1 round, did 2 rounds of walking on the reflexology stone path... then sat down on a bench.
I knew, I had to start sms-ing the others about my condition. Aaah....
1st sms: Apologizing to a family friend for our absentism from the wedding reception & to tell him that Saadah actually *kirim hadiah. I mentioned "Manusia rancang, ALLAH swt tentukan". Saadah got a cc of the sms.
(*I remembered sms-ing him last week to confirm attendance & rushing off to MJ at Mega Mall after Maghrib, to buy the wedding gift from the family & also buying one on Saadah's behalf.)
2nd sms & on were to siblings, each starting with "FYI:..." & the content was similar to the one I sent to Khalil.
I ended each sms with : "TQ atas doa muga pulih sepenuhnya ASAP, InsyaAllah. Pagi kami hantar Amzar ke Matrikulasi UIA"
That last sentence will stop them rushing to see me in the morning & a few hours into the afternoon.
That will give me sometime... I don't really know for what. BUT I know that I need the time.
Then to a few close friends (Manis, Rohaida, Nina, Jie, Brunei... even to MR). I had to of course started answering all sorts of questions... snippets of my answers (throughout the day, actually...):
- Me... yang ada course Diseases of the Nervous System ;p So, kurang risau X tentu pasal, but I also know it when doctor makes empty promises. Anyway, nak kena.. kena juga. Redha aja dugaan...
- Dulu masa @US, telinga kanan juga kena attack by virus. Yang tu jenis kena vertigo.. semua berpusing. Terbaring dekat sebulan. Ini I can still move around.
- So, now I have medical reason, pula!
- InsyaAllah, adalah hikmahnya. For one, now I have a medical reason to turn down... macam dah nak kena... Tok Mak @ Bt20
- Lepas cuti sabatikal, jawatan 'suruh' terima: Pegang balik KA (he.. he..), TPs.. Priority Tok Mak; masa Tok Ayah tak ada...
- Yes, it's serious. Drink with straw, me-family have to adjust to my speech.
- Started treatment quick + on right track. Full recovery varies; a few weeks, months to years!
- In KL, viral flu causing havoc.. macam-macam jenis, some had it bad. With me sebuk... so X ambil kisah sakit telinga 2 days ago. Thought part of body-joint aches due to viral flu. Was lethargic for about 2-3 weeks.
- I'm going about as usual, but can't speak well. OKlahtu :p
- Check on YOU TUBE, lots of examples
By then Suami had joined me at the park & did his rounds. Informed him that I told people already...
Went back & had lontong, etc that Suami bought :)
Kids up & about to send the brother.
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Helped Amzar with final packing. He insisted that he only wanted to bring 2 bags (one was the bag he bought from trip to Bandung with Suami last week) & NO BANTAL (even though it's on the check list) .
"Mama... Amzar dah berpengalaman duduk asrama. Dekat ASiS tu bantal penuh satu stor. Orang wakaf saja..."
10:30 am : Suami made sure photos taken, etc & we left to send our first born to his post-school life.
WOW... there were signs which started on the main road even from the junction near our housing area... cars double parked lining the roads in front of the main campus... the happy faces of parents, families & of course "the grown ups".
Back to the Bell's Palsy patient & her family:
We stayed away from sitting under the canopy with the group of parents. I was not ready to make little conversation & having those socializing with me working hard to understand what I was saying.
We stayed busy reading Sunday papers at a marble bench near by.
My group of graduate students have stumbled into the e mail I sent them last night, got first response from Mieza:
Salam.. Dr, sorry to hear about your condition.. Semoga Dr tabah hadapi dugaan daripadaNya. Hope you'll soon be feeling fine & enjoying better health again. Take good care & rest =)
Received others with similar content, mostly urging me to remain strong. Some even relaying messages from their mothers. Soke Chee's had extra information:
Dr, I had heard about medical condition similar to yours in my hometown cured by acupuncture in TS Hospital. Would like to share this information with you :)
All this time, Suami of course was busy snapping away pictures... even dari celah grill. Adoi, Baba...
I told Amzar, "If people give you the looks... just say, I'm the eldest & so this is a happy day for my father!"
I was happy & pround to see that Amzar was cool about the whole thing, he thought it was funny too & he was NOT embarassed by his Baba's actions!
Kasi chance lah kat Baba :)
I told Aiman, "Baba will do the same thing when it's your time. Just say: I'm his baby boy & so this is my father's happy day!"
Then I told Durrah, "Baba will also do the same when it's your time. Tell people: I'm his youngest & so my father is very happy today!"
The whole registration & *opening of bank account went quite quickly! Congrats Matrikulasi UIA!
(*Wanted to give him the rest of his hadiah for the 8A1 & 1A2 he got. He already took some to shop a couple of times...)
Then off to to the dorm... 4th floor & mengenjot memanjat tangga! Adoi!
All the 2 persons per room in 'no. 401 apartment' were taken.
Left was one room with 2 double deckers & another was a makeshift room with 1 single bed.
After the whole family tested the beds (of course with Baba taking more pictures), Amzar agreed it should be the latter.
THE funny thing was: NO BANTAL! Hah!
We decided to go for lunch at a place where we could get for Amzar a pillow & some clothes hangers & antibiotics for the ear plus more artificial tear for me. The fluid for the eye that I was using had preservatives & it was causing allergic reaction.
So, here we go to... where else but to AMCORP!
Aiman kept repeating with big smiles on his face of his amazement that Amzar's place was SO close to everything, even to their Samad School.
I thought, "So... he was affected by the idea that Amzar would be gone again..."
Anyway, celebratory lunch at KR, only got the artificial tear off the counter & not the antibiotics since the pharmacist had just gone out for lunch.
As for Amzar, he instead got for himself a Giordano t-shirt on sale.
Yes, back HOME to get the pillow!
Since Amzar needed to go back only at 5pm, he snoozed at the brown sofa, solat zohor, then continued on at the striped sofa.
Penatnya pelajar matrikulasi... baru pendaftaran!
After Asr, only me & Suami sent him off. We dropped him off in front of the gate. Aiman & Durrah were too tired & furthermore they had sent him all the way to his room.
So, one tanggungjawab for the weekend was settled, Alhamdulillah.
Next, back to Amcorp as I really wanted to get the antibiotics for the ear.
Sorry, they don't have it. I guess, I would just get it from UMMC on Monday during my first physiotherapy session.
When we arrived home... Refering to TAF parked in front of the house, Suami said, "Your sister is here..."
Kak Ijah was sitting facing towards the door & I thought she had this unsure with a tinge of sadness look on her face & Abang Fozi was sitting at the sofa.
So, stories were exchanged at the round table which had heard so many happy-sad-gossipy-you name it stories since 1995 when it joined the GI household. If only the table could talk...
Rahil, Zaidi & Ayrah later joined. Even the 1 year old plus cucu Ayrah looked anxiously at her WanZ & (we thought) she said, "Napanya?"
Rahil suggested that I just pulled the end part of my the right side of my lips when I wanted to pronounced anything with "B" & "P" which I had most troubled with. It helped!
They left since it was close to Maghrib.
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Thursday, May 28, 2009
BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU MALAM (AHAD) DI RUMAH
We had a family group Yasin reading & a doa session lead by Suami: for Amzar yang nak masuk ke dunia baru, for all family members, especially those who are currently not in the pink of health -- Mama, Nenek, Tok Mak & Pak Long.
Also each was given a chance to "verbalize whatever" that (s)he wanted to share, starting with Suami. Next Amzar, Aiman & Durrah.
Last was me. I used mine to thank everyone & to focus on Amzar's next step.
One thing at a time :)
During dinner, I called up Dr Mona & asked whether her clinic is still opened. Nak juga satu lagi opinion... Hoping against hope?
Dr Mona said exactly the same thing.
However, being an honorary *family physician-friend she was being extra nice!
She said, "I've seen so many cases like this. You will FULLY recover."
I thought to myself, "Hmmm... you're promising me more than you should, Mona."
(*Well... she did see EVERYONE, dari Parni, Bibik Khasanah, Rochanah, Tini hinggalah ke Fitri mata kena gigit lebah, Fitrah, of course GI family, VA family, Kak Erah, Tok Mak & EVEN Mak Aji Kalsum (for her lutut) + Lily (for her high BP) all the way from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia (June 2007, when they came over for wedding of Adlan-Sakina)!
Other things she commented was she thought the dosage for the prednisolone should have been slightly more.
Also my BP reading on her machine was much lower than what was shown by the machine at home. Maybe mine should be sent for calibration! The reading on mine was rather scary... but under the circumstances, "taklah mengejutkan..."
Oh yes, she mentioned that some Chinese thought Bell's Palsy has something to do with angin! There are 'stories' of individuals getting Bell's Palsy after sleeping on the concerned side of the face during long bus rides at night with open windows!
After the visit to Dr. Mona, I sat at the laptop... sent an e mail to my group of students about change of plans for Monday. I thought of having a group meeting with each having assignment to do.
I am sure they'll be busy "googling" Bell's Palsy to get more information about my problem.
The rest of the night for me was also spent "googling" till way past 2 am.
Lots of information & printed a few.
Also stumbled into some interesting "you tube recordings". I noticed that they are all rather jovial about their situations :)
I was tired & I couldn't actually digest the info anymore... same thing but worded differently in different sites. An easy one to follow: http://kidshealth.org/teen/diseases_conditions/brain_nervous/bells_palsy.html#
Basically:
- No one really know why it happened, but mostly related to post-viral infection.
- Inflammation needed to be treated with steroid ASAP (within 72 hours)
- Speed of recovery varies -- 2 weeks to months & years
- Scope of recovery varies -- the normal statistics show 95% with complete recovery while 5% don't
- Factors which may facilitate recovery -- facial re-training, physiotherapy, massage & acupuncture. Vitamin B6, B12 & Zinc have also been mentioned.
Wallahu'alam!
Deep down I think I didn't feel too comfortable with the idea of sleeping at night. Unspoken fear of what had happened the last time I slept?
Of course, I had sleep. I had to be up & about to send off Amzar later in the morning. He decided that he wanted to go at 10:30am, although registration started at 8:00am.
Well, clumsily going through the hassles of putting in a lot of artificial tear fluid, putting the pad & *a long selindang enjut-enjut to tie up the pad so that the top eyelid would not slowly open up or me taking it off, without realizing it. In the late afternoon siesta I had earlier, the pad was already slightly flapping off when I woke up.
(*I've had the selindang for many years, but I've never wear it. I am just not a selindang panjang person. However, I still kept it because Saadah got me the selindang during her Haj. TQ Saadah :)
It was way past 2:30am when I ended up sleeping. That was after I kept playing Al-Mulk & at least 2 rounds of Ar-Rahman using my *phone.
Also each was given a chance to "verbalize whatever" that (s)he wanted to share, starting with Suami. Next Amzar, Aiman & Durrah.
Last was me. I used mine to thank everyone & to focus on Amzar's next step.
One thing at a time :)
During dinner, I called up Dr Mona & asked whether her clinic is still opened. Nak juga satu lagi opinion... Hoping against hope?
Dr Mona said exactly the same thing.
However, being an honorary *family physician-friend she was being extra nice!
She said, "I've seen so many cases like this. You will FULLY recover."
I thought to myself, "Hmmm... you're promising me more than you should, Mona."
(*Well... she did see EVERYONE, dari Parni, Bibik Khasanah, Rochanah, Tini hinggalah ke Fitri mata kena gigit lebah, Fitrah, of course GI family, VA family, Kak Erah, Tok Mak & EVEN Mak Aji Kalsum (for her lutut) + Lily (for her high BP) all the way from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia (June 2007, when they came over for wedding of Adlan-Sakina)!
Other things she commented was she thought the dosage for the prednisolone should have been slightly more.
Also my BP reading on her machine was much lower than what was shown by the machine at home. Maybe mine should be sent for calibration! The reading on mine was rather scary... but under the circumstances, "taklah mengejutkan..."
Oh yes, she mentioned that some Chinese thought Bell's Palsy has something to do with angin! There are 'stories' of individuals getting Bell's Palsy after sleeping on the concerned side of the face during long bus rides at night with open windows!
After the visit to Dr. Mona, I sat at the laptop... sent an e mail to my group of students about change of plans for Monday. I thought of having a group meeting with each having assignment to do.
I am sure they'll be busy "googling" Bell's Palsy to get more information about my problem.
The rest of the night for me was also spent "googling" till way past 2 am.
Lots of information & printed a few.
Also stumbled into some interesting "you tube recordings". I noticed that they are all rather jovial about their situations :)
I was tired & I couldn't actually digest the info anymore... same thing but worded differently in different sites. An easy one to follow: http://kidshealth.org/teen/diseases_conditions/brain_nervous/bells_palsy.html#
Basically:
- No one really know why it happened, but mostly related to post-viral infection.
- Inflammation needed to be treated with steroid ASAP (within 72 hours)
- Speed of recovery varies -- 2 weeks to months & years
- Scope of recovery varies -- the normal statistics show 95% with complete recovery while 5% don't
- Factors which may facilitate recovery -- facial re-training, physiotherapy, massage & acupuncture. Vitamin B6, B12 & Zinc have also been mentioned.
Wallahu'alam!
Deep down I think I didn't feel too comfortable with the idea of sleeping at night. Unspoken fear of what had happened the last time I slept?
Of course, I had sleep. I had to be up & about to send off Amzar later in the morning. He decided that he wanted to go at 10:30am, although registration started at 8:00am.
Well, clumsily going through the hassles of putting in a lot of artificial tear fluid, putting the pad & *a long selindang enjut-enjut to tie up the pad so that the top eyelid would not slowly open up or me taking it off, without realizing it. In the late afternoon siesta I had earlier, the pad was already slightly flapping off when I woke up.
(*I've had the selindang for many years, but I've never wear it. I am just not a selindang panjang person. However, I still kept it because Saadah got me the selindang during her Haj. TQ Saadah :)
It was way past 2:30am when I ended up sleeping. That was after I kept playing Al-Mulk & at least 2 rounds of Ar-Rahman using my *phone.
(*Sahabat Kamila, I copied the Quran recitation from the KA laptop you passed down to me! I don't know who downloaded it to the laptop in the first place)
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YASIN (Surah 36: 82-83):
إِنَّمَا أَمْرُهُ إِذَا أَرَادَ شَيْئًا أَنْ يَقُولَ لَهُ كُنْ فَيَكُونُ (36:82
فَسُبْحَانَ الَّذِي بِيَدِهِ مَلَكُوتُ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ وَإِلَيْهِ تُرْجَعُونَ (36:83
Verily, when He intends a thing, His Command is, "be", and it is!
So glory to Him in Whose hands is the dominion of all things: and to Him will ye be all brought back.
"Sesungguhnya perintah-Nya apabila Dia menghendaki sesuatu hanyalah berkata kepadanya: ""Jadilah!"" maka terjadilah ia."
Maka Maha Suci (Allah) yang di tangan-Nya kekuasaan atas segala sesuatu dan kepada-Nya lah kamu dikembalikan.
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BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU SENJA DI RUMAH
6.27pm : The phone beside my pillow rang. It was Kak Ijah. She asked me, "Kamu *pengsan ke ni?"
(That's how we refer to the state when anyone of us is taking a real rest & most likely sleeping due to penat teramat).
I said something like, "Ye..."
She continued on quickly about her sms-ing Abang Ripin the details of the ole-ole & then she let me off.
It was good she called. Solat asar.
6:57pm: Went downstairs to get some drinks, etc, the phone rang... Abang Ripin from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia!
Another history in the making.
Last year it was the Kak Ijah (cucu)-Abang Fauzi (cucu menantu) duo reaching the land after 3 generations... after Atuk Laki left the land for Mekah at the age of 13 (?).
Tok Ayah (anak) never set foot on the land.
Now, here's Abang Ripin, a cucu menantu!
He was so excited & the line was not too clear.. he didn't notice my slurness.
He passed the phone to Kak Ratna & I managed to say something like, "ABANG RIPIN yang dibawa angin ke sana, ya?".
She replied in the tone that I thought also reflected, "Yeah... this is really weird, I know what you mean. But hey... we're ecstatic with whoever from the clan that ALLAH sent to us"
I was partly panicking because I seriously did not think I could be making any sense over the phone.
The line went dead in the middle of her sentence.
Phew, Alhamdulillah. I was not ready to have my Bell's Palsy news travelled all the way to Sulawesi!
Suami & kids fussed over my face. I think, hoping that "Mama's face event is just one of those things that would go away after Mama has had her sleep rest". Sorry, not this one.
To perk the situation, I was asking for the camera, etc... & how I wanted my current face to be recorded. Told them that the E&T lady doctor suggested for photos to be taken so that I could monitor progress.
I was making funny faces, but I know they did not think they were laughable.
Of course, I gave the slowly worded directive, "DON'T MMS anyone those pictures. Not yet."
Of course, in the back of my mind was, "How long do I want to keep this secret from the family -- both PP & Temerloh clans? I've got to tell them, sooner or later... Who to tell first & when?"
Deliberated a bit on my unreadiness state of mind, Amzar's preparation for UIA, Tok Mak's condition, etc etc etc... then made up my mind.
7:06pm : Sent out the Bell's Palsy news for the first time to a warga Pondok Putih (PP): an sms to Khalil, who's now doing umrah. He left the last weekend.
"Salam. Khalil, nak minta tolong doa supaya fungsi gentian saraf kanan no. 7 ke muka MakZ sembuh. FYI: Sabtu pagi hilang kawalan otot muka sebelah kanan: X boleh turunkan kelopak mata kanan, tidur kena pakai eye pad; nak bercakap / makan / minum payah & mulut herot. Tests (ECG, x-ray, CT scan) @ UMMC showed Alhamdulillah X strok, tapi kes ini namanya Bell's Palsy. Rawatan = ubat2 & facial physiotherapy. TQ atas doa muga pulih sepenuhnya dalam kadar segera, InsyaAllah"
7:23pm : Sent out the same sms to a warga Temerloh, (Dr.) Lina with an additional sentence:
Advice on matter?
(That's how we refer to the state when anyone of us is taking a real rest & most likely sleeping due to penat teramat).
I said something like, "Ye..."
She continued on quickly about her sms-ing Abang Ripin the details of the ole-ole & then she let me off.
It was good she called. Solat asar.
6:57pm: Went downstairs to get some drinks, etc, the phone rang... Abang Ripin from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia!
Another history in the making.
Last year it was the Kak Ijah (cucu)-Abang Fauzi (cucu menantu) duo reaching the land after 3 generations... after Atuk Laki left the land for Mekah at the age of 13 (?).
Tok Ayah (anak) never set foot on the land.
Now, here's Abang Ripin, a cucu menantu!
He was so excited & the line was not too clear.. he didn't notice my slurness.
He passed the phone to Kak Ratna & I managed to say something like, "ABANG RIPIN yang dibawa angin ke sana, ya?".
She replied in the tone that I thought also reflected, "Yeah... this is really weird, I know what you mean. But hey... we're ecstatic with whoever from the clan that ALLAH sent to us"
I was partly panicking because I seriously did not think I could be making any sense over the phone.
The line went dead in the middle of her sentence.
Phew, Alhamdulillah. I was not ready to have my Bell's Palsy news travelled all the way to Sulawesi!
Suami & kids fussed over my face. I think, hoping that "Mama's face event is just one of those things that would go away after Mama has had her sleep rest". Sorry, not this one.
To perk the situation, I was asking for the camera, etc... & how I wanted my current face to be recorded. Told them that the E&T lady doctor suggested for photos to be taken so that I could monitor progress.
I was making funny faces, but I know they did not think they were laughable.
Of course, I gave the slowly worded directive, "DON'T MMS anyone those pictures. Not yet."
Of course, in the back of my mind was, "How long do I want to keep this secret from the family -- both PP & Temerloh clans? I've got to tell them, sooner or later... Who to tell first & when?"
Deliberated a bit on my unreadiness state of mind, Amzar's preparation for UIA, Tok Mak's condition, etc etc etc... then made up my mind.
7:06pm : Sent out the Bell's Palsy news for the first time to a warga Pondok Putih (PP): an sms to Khalil, who's now doing umrah. He left the last weekend.
"Salam. Khalil, nak minta tolong doa supaya fungsi gentian saraf kanan no. 7 ke muka MakZ sembuh. FYI: Sabtu pagi hilang kawalan otot muka sebelah kanan: X boleh turunkan kelopak mata kanan, tidur kena pakai eye pad; nak bercakap / makan / minum payah & mulut herot. Tests (ECG, x-ray, CT scan) @ UMMC showed Alhamdulillah X strok, tapi kes ini namanya Bell's Palsy. Rawatan = ubat2 & facial physiotherapy. TQ atas doa muga pulih sepenuhnya dalam kadar segera, InsyaAllah"
7:23pm : Sent out the same sms to a warga Temerloh, (Dr.) Lina with an additional sentence:
Advice on matter?
Lina's reply, "Selalunya post viral. InsyaAllah prognosis good. Kena completekan course prednisolone."
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BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU PETANG DI RUMAH
Quickly ate lunch & took a shower.
Came to realize that in closing my eyes, especially the right eye... it was not just the upper lid that needed to come down BUT the lower lid also had to slightly come up a bit for a complete closure.
So, just holding the upper lid down with a finger would not stop the water & the shampoo from entering the right eye!
Solat zohor & at the sejadah... taking time to reflect of the day's events .
In my mind, this Quranic verse which is first mentioned as verse 13 from Surah Ar-Rahman (Surah 55) was *repeated:
Came to realize that in closing my eyes, especially the right eye... it was not just the upper lid that needed to come down BUT the lower lid also had to slightly come up a bit for a complete closure.
So, just holding the upper lid down with a finger would not stop the water & the shampoo from entering the right eye!
Solat zohor & at the sejadah... taking time to reflect of the day's events .
In my mind, this Quranic verse which is first mentioned as verse 13 from Surah Ar-Rahman (Surah 55) was *repeated:
فَبِأَيِّ آلَاء رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ
Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny?
(*This verse is the most often repeated in the Surah, ie 31 times!
Kept flashing in my mind was a time during our Haj in 2003.. we were walking back from Masjid Nabawi, Madinah back to the hotel & there was this Malay boy walking in front of us with a group of elederly men & he was reciting Surah Ar-Rahman... following a recording that was played by one of the shops on the street !
I also remembered humming a line from Louis Armstrong... "what a wonderful world" to myself..)
So, took out the Quran & read the whole Surah Ar-Rahman
Then, used the eye pad for the first time... had Amzar helped stick the tapes on.
The one-eyed lady pirate needed a rest... zzzzzz.... !!!!
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(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bsk58tjsuaM&feature=related
The one-eyed lady pirate needed a rest... zzzzzz.... !!!!
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(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bsk58tjsuaM&feature=related
AR-RAHMAN (THE BENEFICENT, THE MERCY GIVING)
Total Verses: 78 Revealed At: MAKKA, YUSUF ALI:
055.001: (Allah) Most Gracious!
055.002: It is He Who has taught the Qur'an.
055.003: He has created man,
055.004: He has taught him speech (and intelligence).
055.005: The sun and the moon follow courses (exactly) computed;
055.006: And the herbs and the trees - both (alike) prostrate in adoration.
055.007: And the Firmament has He raised high, and He has set up the Balance (of Justice),
055.008: In order that ye may not transgress (due) balance.
055.009: So establish weight with justice and fall not short in the balance.
055.010: It is He Who has spread out the earth for (His) creatures:
055.011: Therein is fruit and date-palms, producing spathes (enclosing dates);
055.012: Also corn, with (its) leaves and stalk for fodder, and sweet-smelling plants.
055.013: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.014: He created man from sounding clay like unto pottery,
055.015: And He created Jinns from fire free of smoke:
055.016: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.017: (He is) Lord of the two Easts and Lord of the two Wests:
055.018: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.019: He has let free the two bodies of flowing water, meeting together:
055.020: Between them is a Barrier which they do not transgress:
055.021: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.022: Out of them come Pearls and Coral:
055.023: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.024: And His are the Ships sailing smoothly through the seas, lofty as mountains:
055.025: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.026: All that is on earth will perish:
055.027: But will abide (for ever) the Face of thy Lord,- full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.
055.028: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.029: Of Him seeks (its need) every creature in the heavens and on earth: every day in (new) Splendour doth He (shine)!
055.030: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.031: Soon shall We settle your affairs, O both ye worlds!
055.032: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny
055.033: O ye assembly of Jinns and men! If it be ye can pass beyond the zones of the heavens and the earth, pass ye! not without authority shall ye be able to pass!
055.034: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.035: On you will be sent (O ye evil ones twain!) a flame of fire (to burn) and a smoke (to choke): no defence will ye have:
055.036: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.037: When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
055.038:Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.039: On that Day no question will be asked of man or Jinn as to his sin.
055.040: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.041: (For) the sinners will be known by their marks: and they will be seized by their forelocks and their feet.
055.042: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.043: This is the Hell which the Sinners deny
055.044: In its midst and in the midst of boiling hot water will they wander round!
055.045: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.046: But for such as fear the time when they will stand before (the Judgment Seat of) their Lord, there will be two Gardens
055.047: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.048: Containing all kinds (of trees and delights);
055.049: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.050: In them (each) will be two Springs flowing (free);
055.051: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.052: In them will be Fruits of every kind, two and two.
055.053: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.054: They will recline on Carpets, whose inner linings will be of rich brocade: the Fruit of the Gardens will be near (and easy of reach).
055.055: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.056: In them will be (Maidens), chaste, restraining their glances, whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.057: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.058: Like unto Rubies and coral.
055.059: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.060: Is there any Reward for Good - other than Good?
055.061: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.062: And besides these two, there are two other Gardens,
055.063: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.064: Dark-green in colour (from plentiful watering).
055.065: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.066: In them (each) will be two Springs pouring forth water in continuous abundance:
055.067: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.068: In them will be Fruits, and dates and pomegranates:
055.069: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.070: In them will be fair (Companions), good, beautiful;
055.071: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.072: Companions restrained (as to their glances), in (goodly) pavilions.
055.073: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.074: Whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.075 : Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.076: Reclining on green Cushions and rich Carpets of beauty.
055.077: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.078: Blessed be the name of thy Lord, full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.
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Total Verses: 78 Revealed At: MAKKA, YUSUF ALI:
055.001: (Allah) Most Gracious!
055.002: It is He Who has taught the Qur'an.
055.003: He has created man,
055.004: He has taught him speech (and intelligence).
055.005: The sun and the moon follow courses (exactly) computed;
055.006: And the herbs and the trees - both (alike) prostrate in adoration.
055.007: And the Firmament has He raised high, and He has set up the Balance (of Justice),
055.008: In order that ye may not transgress (due) balance.
055.009: So establish weight with justice and fall not short in the balance.
055.010: It is He Who has spread out the earth for (His) creatures:
055.011: Therein is fruit and date-palms, producing spathes (enclosing dates);
055.012: Also corn, with (its) leaves and stalk for fodder, and sweet-smelling plants.
055.013: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.014: He created man from sounding clay like unto pottery,
055.015: And He created Jinns from fire free of smoke:
055.016: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.017: (He is) Lord of the two Easts and Lord of the two Wests:
055.018: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.019: He has let free the two bodies of flowing water, meeting together:
055.020: Between them is a Barrier which they do not transgress:
055.021: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.022: Out of them come Pearls and Coral:
055.023: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.024: And His are the Ships sailing smoothly through the seas, lofty as mountains:
055.025: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.026: All that is on earth will perish:
055.027: But will abide (for ever) the Face of thy Lord,- full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.
055.028: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.029: Of Him seeks (its need) every creature in the heavens and on earth: every day in (new) Splendour doth He (shine)!
055.030: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.031: Soon shall We settle your affairs, O both ye worlds!
055.032: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny
055.033: O ye assembly of Jinns and men! If it be ye can pass beyond the zones of the heavens and the earth, pass ye! not without authority shall ye be able to pass!
055.034: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.035: On you will be sent (O ye evil ones twain!) a flame of fire (to burn) and a smoke (to choke): no defence will ye have:
055.036: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.037: When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
055.038:Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.039: On that Day no question will be asked of man or Jinn as to his sin.
055.040: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.041: (For) the sinners will be known by their marks: and they will be seized by their forelocks and their feet.
055.042: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.043: This is the Hell which the Sinners deny
055.044: In its midst and in the midst of boiling hot water will they wander round!
055.045: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.046: But for such as fear the time when they will stand before (the Judgment Seat of) their Lord, there will be two Gardens
055.047: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.048: Containing all kinds (of trees and delights);
055.049: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.050: In them (each) will be two Springs flowing (free);
055.051: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.052: In them will be Fruits of every kind, two and two.
055.053: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.054: They will recline on Carpets, whose inner linings will be of rich brocade: the Fruit of the Gardens will be near (and easy of reach).
055.055: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.056: In them will be (Maidens), chaste, restraining their glances, whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.057: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.058: Like unto Rubies and coral.
055.059: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.060: Is there any Reward for Good - other than Good?
055.061: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.062: And besides these two, there are two other Gardens,
055.063: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.064: Dark-green in colour (from plentiful watering).
055.065: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.066: In them (each) will be two Springs pouring forth water in continuous abundance:
055.067: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.068: In them will be Fruits, and dates and pomegranates:
055.069: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.070: In them will be fair (Companions), good, beautiful;
055.071: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.072: Companions restrained (as to their glances), in (goodly) pavilions.
055.073: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.074: Whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.075 : Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.076: Reclining on green Cushions and rich Carpets of beauty.
055.077: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?
055.078: Blessed be the name of thy Lord, full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.
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Tuesday, May 26, 2009
BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU PAGI-TENGAHARI DI UMMC
We didn't talk much on way to UMMC. Too many scary thoughts running amok in the mind.
When we arrived at *TRAUMA , I went straight to register while Suami went to park the car. The nurse at 1st station took my BP. It was high, though I took my medication before we left.
Tapi sebenarnya TAK lah mengejutkan :)
(*I'm glad original name of DATARAN Trauma was changed to what it is now sahabat FND! My point: DATARAN will remind people of Dataran Merdeka, dataran this & that which are normally associated with lots of joyous occasions, eg perayaan Hari Merdeka, etc but certainly NOT trauma!)
Then, to 2nd station -- reconfirmation of addresses, etc. But couldn't find MYCARD!
I remembered the last time I took it out was when I used it to get the additional 10% discount at mega-sale BS yesterday morning (Friday) in Mega Mall that me & Amzar stumbled into.
We went to Mega Mall after rushing off ole-ole for Tual to Irfan's house in Taman Puncak Jalil. *We were rather late; sampai 10.30am & Pak Ripin was VERY ready to go with Idura & Qaisara at hand to send him off. Had to be at airport by 11 am!
(*Must diverse a bit about why we were late...
Of course the usual sesat jalan.. even though that was the 4th time I went there! The whole time, Amzar kept offering to drive since he passed his driving test the day before.
Back to why we were so late: getting ole-ole ready!
I gift-wrapped some special gifts & had Amzar helped me packed 20 basic sets for our relatives: 1 packet of chocolates+1 packet of rempah Adabi TomYam+1 packet of rempah Adabi Mee Bandung. Apa-apalah...
Before that, straight from sending Durrah to sekolah ugama I went to office although I was on leave...
Kononnya sekejap to pick up laptop & stuff, but of course I ended up leaving 'homework notes' for Amzari, Bibi, Joan, Md Noor, Mieza, Mui Koon, Soke Chee, Zulfa... even Heida, I think!
I must also mention the funny thing that happened on why my stuffs were left in the office overnight!
Normally, laptop will go back home... no matter what.
Late evening Thursday (ie the day before)... I made Bibi, Joan & Md Noor helped carry downstairs my laptop + homework bag for the long weekend (since I was going to take leave on Friday) & to wait for me in front of surau. This was while I got my car from my coordinator's special parking spot on Bukit Bioinformatik.
Guess what I did...?
I rushed off to Sekolah Kebangsaan Alam Shah because it was sending off day for headmistress, Puan Zam Zam. She was transferred in a sudden move to what in my mind was an acknowledgement of her capability!
Students-teachers were crying & I was caught up in the whole scenario, what with the song Ayat-Ayat Cinta (?) blaring on the background & the students were singing along.
Out of the blue, I thought of checking my phone, "How come so many missed calls?"
I called back the last no., which was from Joan.
She blurted, "Did you forget... da.. da.. da..?"
Aiyyaa... I felt so bad, because it was already so late... & they were dengan setianya menunggu in front of the surau... they had to catch their buses, some more!
So, told them to send everything up to the room!
Couldn't imagine having to join the traffic towards office... it was all the way in front of the school!
Of course, I could imagine them laughing their heads off & I didn't blame them :)
I would to if my 'supervisor ala-ala ber-Q' did the same thing.
I'm sure they couldn't wait till the next day to share the hilarious incident to the rest of the group. Even I couldn't help smiling!
More of this at this link
http://foolishreport.blogspot.com/2009/05/tale-of-forgetful-supervisor-and-her.html)
Well, back to UMMC's 2nd station at the emergency, luckily the guy readily accept my driving license. A fleeting thought, "Hidup ke lagi my driving license?" Hidup lagi rupanya.
Of course, found MY CARD after everything had settled.
Asked to go to the waiting area for consultation session. Was relieved to see that no one I knew was there.
I didn't think I wait long before my name was called out.
1st doctor, an elderly lady, did background history, manual checks, 3 vials of blood & all. Basically, she thought it was Bell's Palsy but she got the nerve wrong.
Slowly I said, "You mean 7th nerve, right?"
"Hmmm... Remember Prof TJ Voneida (http://www.brainviews.com/ciFiles/tedpic.jpg)," I told myself.
Prof. Voneida was the Head of Neurobiology Department, NEOUCOM where I did my PhD. He had this infamous multiple facial expressions video tape & lectures on cranial nerves (plus of course Bell's Palsy): Facial Cranial Nerve, 7th nerve... SEVENTH.. SMILE.. SAD, SOB-SOB, etc.. control of facial muscles, facial expression!
Anyway, told me that she couldn't rule out minor stroke due to medical history (BP since *early 2000) & family background (Tok Ayah, Tok Mak, siblings...).
She was optimist, though, because I was still moving around & alert! I wanted to tell her (but it was too great an effort to start explaining matters)... about how Tok Mak could move around even after her stroke that went unnoticed back in 2007, during the latter part of sabbatical!
(*A certain dear person was very sick & I was very disturbed with being constantly trying to figure out what the visitors were thinking as they came to visit her at the ICU.
Took extra Panadol that night but the headaches & stiff neck didn't go away. Remembered telling Suami, "Lain macam aja sakit kepala ni. Kena pi jumpa Dr Selva juga."
After jenazah was taken home (from the hospital) for burial.. that's when I started my medication for BP!)
OK.. OK.. back to the consultation room.
The doctor called someone to discuss my case & I overheard her saying that she suspected I wasn't managing my BP well & that I was probably 'a non-compliance case' so more tests should be given to really rule out minor stroke.
Had this urge to tell her, my compliance about other things might be bad but NOT about my BP. What happened to Tok Mak really shook me up about what could be lost without any warnings! Could have Kak Erah vouched for that :)
Anyway, I thought, "Why not? Let me have the tests. It's not everyday one could walk in to UMMC & get all these tests done within such a short span of time."
I also wanted to make sure that 'stroke' could really be ruled out.
Suami went back to pick up kids.
So, was put in ECG's test room & by 9.56am it was done. Rather quick, I thought.
Next was escorted by a nurse with an elderly lady to the other block to do chest x-ray. The machine in emergency wasn't working? Walked back with the elderly lady to consultation waiting area.
It was 10.23am & since I was told that it would be sometime before the films would be processed, sms Suami that I might as well go for breakfast at the concourse cafetaria.
I didn't feel like eating before we left from home.
Wasn't sure I could handle the usual nasi lemak, etc... so went to the shop on the concourse & bought Tuna sandwich, apple juice & STAR.
Of course, tak selera...
Checked my face at the mirror above the washing hand sink.
Adoi... this is for real, girl... the right upper & lower lips looked thin, the right eye looked big!
Went back to the waiting are but was told that I was to see another doctor. She would come down from the ward ASAP & I probably have to do CT scan.
It was 10.59am, sms Suami about it.
I thought to myself, "Wow... CT scan! This is really getting exciting."
While waiting, sms to Saadah: "FYI: something came up... I sendiri (i.e. not anything to do with Tok Mak). Have been in UMMC whole morning. X selesai lagi. So, there is a big possibility that I won't be going to kenduri. Kut betul X pi, will find ways to pass gifts." That started off a string of sms communications about what I was going through (without telling her the details) & her own health problem.
Dugaan... dugaan...
11.23am : Done with CT scan.
Was not so scary, except for kena tanggal tudung & cermin mata. Ke kalau pakai cermin mata lagi menakutkan sebab tak pakai... semua kabur, i.e. ignorance is bliss :) Barang kemas dah tanggal masa X-ray & I actually have taken off my chains at home...
Head placed in a 'head holder' & arms in a pair of arms holder, i.e. no movement could be made.
The scanning, itself, didn't take long.
By then, suami & kids were at DF having brunch. Kirim hot vanilla & Sultana danish.
Met them at the consultation waiting area.
The kids seemed to be unsure about whole situation. They were checking my face. Never could they imagine that something could possibly be really wrong with their Mama.
Durrah looked slightly worried.
Aiman looked like he felt sorry for me.
Amzar was in a denial sort of attitude, ie "everything's normal & under control". Even brought up other issues, e.g. charge for the vanilla was too much!
They were going to Bangsar, next, to buy stuff for Amzar to bring for his 1 week stay in UIA Section 17 campus & also to see Dr Selva about a thickened painful tissue in Aiman's earlobe.
Finally, got to see the 2nd doctor: a foreigner, young lady but I have faith in her the minute she started asking me questions.
I felt better, too, when another doctor interrupted the session to get HER opinion on his case!
YES, Alhamdulillah!
She did manual checks on me again... gait, etc.
She was talking to herself, too, vocalizing her notes on CNS. My kind of girl :)
She also called her superior to discuss my CT scan results, etc & the outcome was I've to check my ear by an E&T to rule out infection of kayap (herpes zoster virus?).
In between, received a call from Zai, who wanted to kirim $ for pengantin, since she was sure I would be going to kenduri at Putra Jaya.
Told her, "No, because something came up..." She suspected that it must be something important & asked whether it was Tok Mak related. I answered in the negative & told her I couldn't talk anymore.
She already has her own set of dugaan to deal with...
12:27 noon : sms Suami to buy artificial tear, eye pads & tape.
I was asked to make myself comfortable at Bed 8, Observation Ward & wait. Took time to enjoy my cold vanilla & Sultana danish. I was starving.
1:29 noon : A young soft spoken lady doctor checked me. Ear not infected with kayap... no vesicles!
99.9% = Bell's Palsy (ie X tahu apa sebab sebenarnya, but nerve inflammed).
Wrote me a prescription for antibiotic for the pain in the ear that I complained of earlier... just in case & an appointment to see ear specialist on Friday.
Backed with the other young lady doctor.
She discharged me. Wrote note for me to do facial re-training & physiotherapy on Monday morning.
Told her about the observation session I was scheduled to do at a private Higher Education Provider in SJ with MQA.
She said, "I think you should rest, unless of course you think that (session) is VERY important to you."
OK, girl, I got your point.
She gave me mc till Monday. Wrote another note to go to Neuromedical on Tuesday to really rule out the stroke. Also gave prescription of prednisolone (steroid) to reduce inflammation of nerve. Pharmacy at emergency only had prednisolone. Asked to take 6 pills of 5mg each daily after food.
While waiting for Suami, bought a bowl of mee hoon soup for myself & 5 pieces of chicken chops + 2 ikan keli masak lemak kuning cili padi (especially for the boys).
What a long traumatic morning!!
I was just doing whatever needed to be done.
Was relieved when I flopped myself into the car seat.
The antibiotic for the ear can wait...
Alhamdulillah, I could go home !!!
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AL-BAQARAH (2: PART OF 286)
Have mercy on us."
When we arrived at *TRAUMA , I went straight to register while Suami went to park the car. The nurse at 1st station took my BP. It was high, though I took my medication before we left.
Tapi sebenarnya TAK lah mengejutkan :)
(*I'm glad original name of DATARAN Trauma was changed to what it is now sahabat FND! My point: DATARAN will remind people of Dataran Merdeka, dataran this & that which are normally associated with lots of joyous occasions, eg perayaan Hari Merdeka, etc but certainly NOT trauma!)
Then, to 2nd station -- reconfirmation of addresses, etc. But couldn't find MYCARD!
I remembered the last time I took it out was when I used it to get the additional 10% discount at mega-sale BS yesterday morning (Friday) in Mega Mall that me & Amzar stumbled into.
We went to Mega Mall after rushing off ole-ole for Tual to Irfan's house in Taman Puncak Jalil. *We were rather late; sampai 10.30am & Pak Ripin was VERY ready to go with Idura & Qaisara at hand to send him off. Had to be at airport by 11 am!
(*Must diverse a bit about why we were late...
Of course the usual sesat jalan.. even though that was the 4th time I went there! The whole time, Amzar kept offering to drive since he passed his driving test the day before.
Back to why we were so late: getting ole-ole ready!
I gift-wrapped some special gifts & had Amzar helped me packed 20 basic sets for our relatives: 1 packet of chocolates+1 packet of rempah Adabi TomYam+1 packet of rempah Adabi Mee Bandung. Apa-apalah...
Before that, straight from sending Durrah to sekolah ugama I went to office although I was on leave...
Kononnya sekejap to pick up laptop & stuff, but of course I ended up leaving 'homework notes' for Amzari, Bibi, Joan, Md Noor, Mieza, Mui Koon, Soke Chee, Zulfa... even Heida, I think!
I must also mention the funny thing that happened on why my stuffs were left in the office overnight!
Normally, laptop will go back home... no matter what.
Late evening Thursday (ie the day before)... I made Bibi, Joan & Md Noor helped carry downstairs my laptop + homework bag for the long weekend (since I was going to take leave on Friday) & to wait for me in front of surau. This was while I got my car from my coordinator's special parking spot on Bukit Bioinformatik.
Guess what I did...?
I rushed off to Sekolah Kebangsaan Alam Shah because it was sending off day for headmistress, Puan Zam Zam. She was transferred in a sudden move to what in my mind was an acknowledgement of her capability!
Students-teachers were crying & I was caught up in the whole scenario, what with the song Ayat-Ayat Cinta (?) blaring on the background & the students were singing along.
Out of the blue, I thought of checking my phone, "How come so many missed calls?"
I called back the last no., which was from Joan.
She blurted, "Did you forget... da.. da.. da..?"
Aiyyaa... I felt so bad, because it was already so late... & they were dengan setianya menunggu in front of the surau... they had to catch their buses, some more!
So, told them to send everything up to the room!
Couldn't imagine having to join the traffic towards office... it was all the way in front of the school!
Of course, I could imagine them laughing their heads off & I didn't blame them :)
I would to if my 'supervisor ala-ala ber-Q' did the same thing.
I'm sure they couldn't wait till the next day to share the hilarious incident to the rest of the group. Even I couldn't help smiling!
More of this at this link
http://foolishreport.blogspot.com/2009/05/tale-of-forgetful-supervisor-and-her.html)
Well, back to UMMC's 2nd station at the emergency, luckily the guy readily accept my driving license. A fleeting thought, "Hidup ke lagi my driving license?" Hidup lagi rupanya.
Of course, found MY CARD after everything had settled.
Asked to go to the waiting area for consultation session. Was relieved to see that no one I knew was there.
I didn't think I wait long before my name was called out.
1st doctor, an elderly lady, did background history, manual checks, 3 vials of blood & all. Basically, she thought it was Bell's Palsy but she got the nerve wrong.
Slowly I said, "You mean 7th nerve, right?"
"Hmmm... Remember Prof TJ Voneida (http://www.brainviews.com/ciFiles/tedpic.jpg)," I told myself.
Prof. Voneida was the Head of Neurobiology Department, NEOUCOM where I did my PhD. He had this infamous multiple facial expressions video tape & lectures on cranial nerves (plus of course Bell's Palsy): Facial Cranial Nerve, 7th nerve... SEVENTH.. SMILE.. SAD, SOB-SOB, etc.. control of facial muscles, facial expression!
Anyway, told me that she couldn't rule out minor stroke due to medical history (BP since *early 2000) & family background (Tok Ayah, Tok Mak, siblings...).
She was optimist, though, because I was still moving around & alert! I wanted to tell her (but it was too great an effort to start explaining matters)... about how Tok Mak could move around even after her stroke that went unnoticed back in 2007, during the latter part of sabbatical!
(*A certain dear person was very sick & I was very disturbed with being constantly trying to figure out what the visitors were thinking as they came to visit her at the ICU.
Took extra Panadol that night but the headaches & stiff neck didn't go away. Remembered telling Suami, "Lain macam aja sakit kepala ni. Kena pi jumpa Dr Selva juga."
After jenazah was taken home (from the hospital) for burial.. that's when I started my medication for BP!)
OK.. OK.. back to the consultation room.
The doctor called someone to discuss my case & I overheard her saying that she suspected I wasn't managing my BP well & that I was probably 'a non-compliance case' so more tests should be given to really rule out minor stroke.
Had this urge to tell her, my compliance about other things might be bad but NOT about my BP. What happened to Tok Mak really shook me up about what could be lost without any warnings! Could have Kak Erah vouched for that :)
Anyway, I thought, "Why not? Let me have the tests. It's not everyday one could walk in to UMMC & get all these tests done within such a short span of time."
I also wanted to make sure that 'stroke' could really be ruled out.
Suami went back to pick up kids.
So, was put in ECG's test room & by 9.56am it was done. Rather quick, I thought.
Next was escorted by a nurse with an elderly lady to the other block to do chest x-ray. The machine in emergency wasn't working? Walked back with the elderly lady to consultation waiting area.
It was 10.23am & since I was told that it would be sometime before the films would be processed, sms Suami that I might as well go for breakfast at the concourse cafetaria.
I didn't feel like eating before we left from home.
Wasn't sure I could handle the usual nasi lemak, etc... so went to the shop on the concourse & bought Tuna sandwich, apple juice & STAR.
Of course, tak selera...
Checked my face at the mirror above the washing hand sink.
Adoi... this is for real, girl... the right upper & lower lips looked thin, the right eye looked big!
Went back to the waiting are but was told that I was to see another doctor. She would come down from the ward ASAP & I probably have to do CT scan.
It was 10.59am, sms Suami about it.
I thought to myself, "Wow... CT scan! This is really getting exciting."
While waiting, sms to Saadah: "FYI: something came up... I sendiri (i.e. not anything to do with Tok Mak). Have been in UMMC whole morning. X selesai lagi. So, there is a big possibility that I won't be going to kenduri. Kut betul X pi, will find ways to pass gifts." That started off a string of sms communications about what I was going through (without telling her the details) & her own health problem.
Dugaan... dugaan...
11.23am : Done with CT scan.
Was not so scary, except for kena tanggal tudung & cermin mata. Ke kalau pakai cermin mata lagi menakutkan sebab tak pakai... semua kabur, i.e. ignorance is bliss :) Barang kemas dah tanggal masa X-ray & I actually have taken off my chains at home...
Head placed in a 'head holder' & arms in a pair of arms holder, i.e. no movement could be made.
The scanning, itself, didn't take long.
By then, suami & kids were at DF having brunch. Kirim hot vanilla & Sultana danish.
Met them at the consultation waiting area.
The kids seemed to be unsure about whole situation. They were checking my face. Never could they imagine that something could possibly be really wrong with their Mama.
Durrah looked slightly worried.
Aiman looked like he felt sorry for me.
Amzar was in a denial sort of attitude, ie "everything's normal & under control". Even brought up other issues, e.g. charge for the vanilla was too much!
They were going to Bangsar, next, to buy stuff for Amzar to bring for his 1 week stay in UIA Section 17 campus & also to see Dr Selva about a thickened painful tissue in Aiman's earlobe.
Finally, got to see the 2nd doctor: a foreigner, young lady but I have faith in her the minute she started asking me questions.
I felt better, too, when another doctor interrupted the session to get HER opinion on his case!
YES, Alhamdulillah!
She did manual checks on me again... gait, etc.
She was talking to herself, too, vocalizing her notes on CNS. My kind of girl :)
She also called her superior to discuss my CT scan results, etc & the outcome was I've to check my ear by an E&T to rule out infection of kayap (herpes zoster virus?).
In between, received a call from Zai, who wanted to kirim $ for pengantin, since she was sure I would be going to kenduri at Putra Jaya.
Told her, "No, because something came up..." She suspected that it must be something important & asked whether it was Tok Mak related. I answered in the negative & told her I couldn't talk anymore.
She already has her own set of dugaan to deal with...
12:27 noon : sms Suami to buy artificial tear, eye pads & tape.
I was asked to make myself comfortable at Bed 8, Observation Ward & wait. Took time to enjoy my cold vanilla & Sultana danish. I was starving.
1:29 noon : A young soft spoken lady doctor checked me. Ear not infected with kayap... no vesicles!
99.9% = Bell's Palsy (ie X tahu apa sebab sebenarnya, but nerve inflammed).
Wrote me a prescription for antibiotic for the pain in the ear that I complained of earlier... just in case & an appointment to see ear specialist on Friday.
Backed with the other young lady doctor.
She discharged me. Wrote note for me to do facial re-training & physiotherapy on Monday morning.
Told her about the observation session I was scheduled to do at a private Higher Education Provider in SJ with MQA.
She said, "I think you should rest, unless of course you think that (session) is VERY important to you."
OK, girl, I got your point.
She gave me mc till Monday. Wrote another note to go to Neuromedical on Tuesday to really rule out the stroke. Also gave prescription of prednisolone (steroid) to reduce inflammation of nerve. Pharmacy at emergency only had prednisolone. Asked to take 6 pills of 5mg each daily after food.
While waiting for Suami, bought a bowl of mee hoon soup for myself & 5 pieces of chicken chops + 2 ikan keli masak lemak kuning cili padi (especially for the boys).
What a long traumatic morning!!
I was just doing whatever needed to be done.
Was relieved when I flopped myself into the car seat.
The antibiotic for the ear can wait...
Alhamdulillah, I could go home !!!
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AL-BAQARAH (2: PART OF 286)
لاَ يُكَلِّفُ اللّهُ نَفْسًا إِلاَّ وُسْعَهَا لَهَا مَا كَسَبَتْ وَعَلَيْهَا مَا اكْتَسَبَتْ
رَبَّنَا لاَ تُؤَاخِذْنَا إِن نَّسِينَا أَوْ أَخْطَأْنَا
رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تَحْمِلْ عَلَيْنَا إِصْرًا كَمَا حَمَلْتَهُ عَلَى الَّذِي مِن قَبْلِنَا
رَبَّنَا وَلاَ تُحَمِّلْنَا مَا لاَ طَاقَةَ لَنَا بِهِ
وَاعْفُ عَنَّا وَاغْفِرْ لَنَا وَارْحَمْنَآ
YUSUF ALI:
On no soul doth Allah Place a burden greater than it can bear. It gets every good that it earns, and it suffers every ill that it earns. (Pray:)
"Our Lord! Condemn us not if we forget or fall into error;
Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden Like that which Thou didst lay on those before us;
Our Lord! Lay not on us a burden greater than we have strength to bear.
Blot out our sins, and grant us forgiveness.
Have mercy on us."
Allah tidak membebani seseorang melainkan sesuai dengan kesanggupannya. Ia mendapat pahala (dari kebajikan) yang diusahakannya dan ia mendapat siksa (dari kejahatan) yang dikerjakannya. (Mereka berdo`a):
"Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau hukum kami jika kami lupa atau kami tersalah.
Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau bebankan kepada kami beban yang berat sebagaimana Engkau bebankan kepada orang-orang yang sebelum kami.
Ya Tuhan kami, janganlah Engkau pikulkan kepada kami apa yang tak sanggup kami memikulnya.
Beri maaflah kami; ampunilah kami; dan rahmatilah kami"
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Monday, May 25, 2009
BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU PAGI DI RUMAH
I had a tough time to sleep last night. It was already way past 2am... everyone was already asleep, maybe with smiles on their faces. Amzar belanja tengok Night At The Museum (Part II) with popcorns & all. Kononnya before his start of 'serious life as post-SPM student' after 'menganggur' for 3 months. He said PLKN was enjoyable & not really serious...
I had this discomfort on the right side of my head & there was a nagging pain in the inner right ear & neck area underneath the earlobe.
The pain in the ear was already noticeable on Thursday night to a point that I asked Kak Ijah who wanted to have a chat with me to call me using the home phone because I told her that my ear for what ever reason was being extra sensitive to my handphone. I know the conversation was going to be a rather long one since we were trying to figure out what to get as ole-ole for Pak Ripin to bring to Tual. He's leaving on a 1noon Air Asia flight to Jakarta on Friday before moving on to Tual, Sulawesi.
Back to my problem of sleeping, I figured it must be part of this viral flu-like problem I was having.. pain at the back of neck, fatigue, the works...
I had been fighting it off with alternatives, eg horseradish & garlic, multivitamin, etc.
I wanted to take a few days leave but I had a few things to settle (my hutang I called them) since I had pushed almost everything to the side to get the exam matters settled. My last paper (Diseases of the Nervous Sustem) was on the LAST session of the the whole exam period!
So, I dragged myself to work.
On Wednesday, though, my medication for BP had finished & so I saw the panel doctor, Dr Selva. Other than the Atacand, he only gave me something for the body-ache, difflam, nasal spray for my malaise. I was also given an mc but I already brought along a bagful of MQF files to work on, so... I stayed on till late.
Anyway, I thought, ok... tomorrow (Saturday), I would see Dr Selva again & get something for the pain in the ear.
I didn't know when I ended up sleeping.
Next thing I know, it was time for solat subuh.
Then... the shock came when I wanted to wash my face for wudu'. The water hit my right eye. Adoi, pedih! I splashed the water again to the face & it happened again!
I could not figure out what actually happened.
Then, I looked in the mirror above the sink & I realized that my right eye could not be closed.
Oh... I thought, "Bila kita basuh muka... mata automatically tutup rupanya. Huh, interesting!" Something that I took for granted all this time! This morning, only the left eye closed itself to avoid the water.
I still didn't realize what was happening & I continued on with the wudu'.
When I berkumur, then I know something was REALLY SERIOUSLY WRONG.
I couldn't contain the water in my mouth, instead some came out through the right side of my mouth which could not be closed.
I looked up to the mirror & I thought to myself:
- OH MY GOD, DID I HAVE A STROKE LAST NIGHT?
- DID I FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDICATION FOR MY BP?
- THIS IS SO WEIRD... AM I GOING TO BE AN EXAMPLE FOR MY DISEASES OF THE NERVOUS SYSTEM COURSE? Adoi...
I tried pushing all these thoughts aside & quickly continued on & went ahead with my solat subuh. Prioritize... prioritize... Selesaikan yang wajib dulu.
Another thing I realized was that when we did our sujud our eyes would also close!
This morning, my right eye was brushing against the normal thickness sejadah & that hurt a bit.
So, I kept using my right hand to close the right eye & I figured all these extra movements I was making kira daruratlah... Wasn't sure the state of khusyuk-ness of my solat subuh this morning.
I then got myself ready to ask Suami to send me to the hospital, but he was out jogging at the nearby park.
All the time, I was thinking to myself, "Shall I go to PMC where I can remain anonymous or to UMMC & take the chance of bumping into people I know?" Then, logic took over, "You know this is serious. It won't be solved so easily & quickly. It has to be UMMC!"
Suami came back from jogging at the nearby park... & I told him, "I think you have to send me to UMMC... maybe I had a mini stroke, look at my face..."
While he was getting ready, I remembered about my offer to Rahil to babysit Ayrah (who was also supposed to be sick) 8am till 1noon (before going to a wedding reception of a family friend in Putra Jaya).
It was already 7.40am... they were still not here.
I tried calling Rahil. Since she was also sick yesterday, I was partly hoping that she was on mc & so would not be going to work. I wasn't sure that Tini could handle a feverish Ayrah. No answer.
OK, next I called Abang Em's house enquiring whether Ayrah was supposed to go there in as few words as possible. Abang Em gave a lengthy answer about Kak Hana having to go to a PIBG meeting, i.e. Ayrah would not be send oer to Jalan Penchala.
One last attempt, I thought...sent an sms to Rahil (cc-ed to Pak Fozi @ Tok Pa) asking her about her plans.
It was already 8.20am & I told Suami, probably they were not coming.
Then, Ayrah's grandfather replied with an sms saying that NekMa was already in VA, to the rescue :) Phew...
Off we went... Both of us knew that we should get me to UMMC ASAP.
Oops... not before I went upstairs & planted kisses on Durrah, Aiman & Amzar who had gone back to sleep after solat subuh.
Felt a bit like crying, since I sincerely didn't know what to expect once I sent my body to UMMC... whether I would come back to the house today & be able to send Amzar who was supposed to register for his UIA Law matriculation tomorrow.
Manusia merancang... ALLAH menentukan
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I had this discomfort on the right side of my head & there was a nagging pain in the inner right ear & neck area underneath the earlobe.
The pain in the ear was already noticeable on Thursday night to a point that I asked Kak Ijah who wanted to have a chat with me to call me using the home phone because I told her that my ear for what ever reason was being extra sensitive to my handphone. I know the conversation was going to be a rather long one since we were trying to figure out what to get as ole-ole for Pak Ripin to bring to Tual. He's leaving on a 1noon Air Asia flight to Jakarta on Friday before moving on to Tual, Sulawesi.
Back to my problem of sleeping, I figured it must be part of this viral flu-like problem I was having.. pain at the back of neck, fatigue, the works...
I had been fighting it off with alternatives, eg horseradish & garlic, multivitamin, etc.
I wanted to take a few days leave but I had a few things to settle (my hutang I called them) since I had pushed almost everything to the side to get the exam matters settled. My last paper (Diseases of the Nervous Sustem) was on the LAST session of the the whole exam period!
So, I dragged myself to work.
On Wednesday, though, my medication for BP had finished & so I saw the panel doctor, Dr Selva. Other than the Atacand, he only gave me something for the body-ache, difflam, nasal spray for my malaise. I was also given an mc but I already brought along a bagful of MQF files to work on, so... I stayed on till late.
Anyway, I thought, ok... tomorrow (Saturday), I would see Dr Selva again & get something for the pain in the ear.
I didn't know when I ended up sleeping.
Next thing I know, it was time for solat subuh.
Then... the shock came when I wanted to wash my face for wudu'. The water hit my right eye. Adoi, pedih! I splashed the water again to the face & it happened again!
I could not figure out what actually happened.
Then, I looked in the mirror above the sink & I realized that my right eye could not be closed.
Oh... I thought, "Bila kita basuh muka... mata automatically tutup rupanya. Huh, interesting!" Something that I took for granted all this time! This morning, only the left eye closed itself to avoid the water.
I still didn't realize what was happening & I continued on with the wudu'.
When I berkumur, then I know something was REALLY SERIOUSLY WRONG.
I couldn't contain the water in my mouth, instead some came out through the right side of my mouth which could not be closed.
I looked up to the mirror & I thought to myself:
- OH MY GOD, DID I HAVE A STROKE LAST NIGHT?
- DID I FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDICATION FOR MY BP?
- THIS IS SO WEIRD... AM I GOING TO BE AN EXAMPLE FOR MY DISEASES OF THE NERVOUS SYSTEM COURSE? Adoi...
I tried pushing all these thoughts aside & quickly continued on & went ahead with my solat subuh. Prioritize... prioritize... Selesaikan yang wajib dulu.
Another thing I realized was that when we did our sujud our eyes would also close!
This morning, my right eye was brushing against the normal thickness sejadah & that hurt a bit.
So, I kept using my right hand to close the right eye & I figured all these extra movements I was making kira daruratlah... Wasn't sure the state of khusyuk-ness of my solat subuh this morning.
I then got myself ready to ask Suami to send me to the hospital, but he was out jogging at the nearby park.
All the time, I was thinking to myself, "Shall I go to PMC where I can remain anonymous or to UMMC & take the chance of bumping into people I know?" Then, logic took over, "You know this is serious. It won't be solved so easily & quickly. It has to be UMMC!"
Suami came back from jogging at the nearby park... & I told him, "I think you have to send me to UMMC... maybe I had a mini stroke, look at my face..."
While he was getting ready, I remembered about my offer to Rahil to babysit Ayrah (who was also supposed to be sick) 8am till 1noon (before going to a wedding reception of a family friend in Putra Jaya).
It was already 7.40am... they were still not here.
I tried calling Rahil. Since she was also sick yesterday, I was partly hoping that she was on mc & so would not be going to work. I wasn't sure that Tini could handle a feverish Ayrah. No answer.
OK, next I called Abang Em's house enquiring whether Ayrah was supposed to go there in as few words as possible. Abang Em gave a lengthy answer about Kak Hana having to go to a PIBG meeting, i.e. Ayrah would not be send oer to Jalan Penchala.
One last attempt, I thought...sent an sms to Rahil (cc-ed to Pak Fozi @ Tok Pa) asking her about her plans.
It was already 8.20am & I told Suami, probably they were not coming.
Then, Ayrah's grandfather replied with an sms saying that NekMa was already in VA, to the rescue :) Phew...
Off we went... Both of us knew that we should get me to UMMC ASAP.
Oops... not before I went upstairs & planted kisses on Durrah, Aiman & Amzar who had gone back to sleep after solat subuh.
Felt a bit like crying, since I sincerely didn't know what to expect once I sent my body to UMMC... whether I would come back to the house today & be able to send Amzar who was supposed to register for his UIA Law matriculation tomorrow.
Manusia merancang... ALLAH menentukan
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