I had a tough time to sleep last night. It was already way past 2am... everyone was already asleep, maybe with smiles on their faces. Amzar belanja tengok Night At The Museum (Part II) with popcorns & all. Kononnya before his start of 'serious life as post-SPM student' after 'menganggur' for 3 months. He said PLKN was enjoyable & not really serious...
I had this discomfort on the right side of my head & there was a nagging pain in the inner right ear & neck area underneath the earlobe.
The pain in the ear was already noticeable on Thursday night to a point that I asked Kak Ijah who wanted to have a chat with me to call me using the home phone because I told her that my ear for what ever reason was being extra sensitive to my handphone. I know the conversation was going to be a rather long one since we were trying to figure out what to get as ole-ole for Pak Ripin to bring to Tual. He's leaving on a 1noon Air Asia flight to Jakarta on Friday before moving on to Tual, Sulawesi.
Back to my problem of sleeping, I figured it must be part of this viral flu-like problem I was having.. pain at the back of neck, fatigue, the works...
I had been fighting it off with alternatives, eg horseradish & garlic, multivitamin, etc.
I wanted to take a few days leave but I had a few things to settle (my hutang I called them) since I had pushed almost everything to the side to get the exam matters settled. My last paper (Diseases of the Nervous Sustem) was on the LAST session of the the whole exam period!
So, I dragged myself to work.
On Wednesday, though, my medication for BP had finished & so I saw the panel doctor, Dr Selva. Other than the Atacand, he only gave me something for the body-ache, difflam, nasal spray for my malaise. I was also given an mc but I already brought along a bagful of MQF files to work on, so... I stayed on till late.
Anyway, I thought, ok... tomorrow (Saturday), I would see Dr Selva again & get something for the pain in the ear.
I didn't know when I ended up sleeping.
Next thing I know, it was time for solat subuh.
Then... the shock came when I wanted to wash my face for wudu'. The water hit my right eye. Adoi, pedih! I splashed the water again to the face & it happened again!
I could not figure out what actually happened.
Then, I looked in the mirror above the sink & I realized that my right eye could not be closed.
Oh... I thought, "Bila kita basuh muka... mata automatically tutup rupanya. Huh, interesting!" Something that I took for granted all this time! This morning, only the left eye closed itself to avoid the water.
I still didn't realize what was happening & I continued on with the wudu'.
When I berkumur, then I know something was REALLY SERIOUSLY WRONG.
I couldn't contain the water in my mouth, instead some came out through the right side of my mouth which could not be closed.
I looked up to the mirror & I thought to myself:
- OH MY GOD, DID I HAVE A STROKE LAST NIGHT?
- DID I FORGET TO TAKE MY MEDICATION FOR MY BP?
- THIS IS SO WEIRD... AM I GOING TO BE AN EXAMPLE FOR MY DISEASES OF THE NERVOUS SYSTEM COURSE? Adoi...
I tried pushing all these thoughts aside & quickly continued on & went ahead with my solat subuh. Prioritize... prioritize... Selesaikan yang wajib dulu.
Another thing I realized was that when we did our sujud our eyes would also close!
This morning, my right eye was brushing against the normal thickness sejadah & that hurt a bit.
So, I kept using my right hand to close the right eye & I figured all these extra movements I was making kira daruratlah... Wasn't sure the state of khusyuk-ness of my solat subuh this morning.
I then got myself ready to ask Suami to send me to the hospital, but he was out jogging at the nearby park.
All the time, I was thinking to myself, "Shall I go to PMC where I can remain anonymous or to UMMC & take the chance of bumping into people I know?" Then, logic took over, "You know this is serious. It won't be solved so easily & quickly. It has to be UMMC!"
Suami came back from jogging at the nearby park... & I told him, "I think you have to send me to UMMC... maybe I had a mini stroke, look at my face..."
While he was getting ready, I remembered about my offer to Rahil to babysit Ayrah (who was also supposed to be sick) 8am till 1noon (before going to a wedding reception of a family friend in Putra Jaya).
It was already 7.40am... they were still not here.
I tried calling Rahil. Since she was also sick yesterday, I was partly hoping that she was on mc & so would not be going to work. I wasn't sure that Tini could handle a feverish Ayrah. No answer.
OK, next I called Abang Em's house enquiring whether Ayrah was supposed to go there in as few words as possible. Abang Em gave a lengthy answer about Kak Hana having to go to a PIBG meeting, i.e. Ayrah would not be send oer to Jalan Penchala.
One last attempt, I thought...sent an sms to Rahil (cc-ed to Pak Fozi @ Tok Pa) asking her about her plans.
It was already 8.20am & I told Suami, probably they were not coming.
Then, Ayrah's grandfather replied with an sms saying that NekMa was already in VA, to the rescue :) Phew...
Off we went... Both of us knew that we should get me to UMMC ASAP.
Oops... not before I went upstairs & planted kisses on Durrah, Aiman & Amzar who had gone back to sleep after solat subuh.
Felt a bit like crying, since I sincerely didn't know what to expect once I sent my body to UMMC... whether I would come back to the house today & be able to send Amzar who was supposed to register for his UIA Law matriculation tomorrow.
Manusia merancang... ALLAH menentukan
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