Thursday, May 28, 2009

BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU MALAM (AHAD) DI RUMAH

We had a family group Yasin reading & a doa session lead by Suami: for Amzar yang nak masuk ke dunia baru, for all family members, especially those who are currently not in the pink of health -- Mama, Nenek, Tok Mak & Pak Long.

Also each was given a chance to "verbalize whatever" that (s)he wanted to share, starting with Suami. Next Amzar, Aiman & Durrah.
Last was me. I used mine to thank everyone & to focus on Amzar's next step.
One thing at a time :)

During dinner, I called up Dr Mona & asked whether her clinic is still opened. Nak juga satu lagi opinion... Hoping against hope?

Dr Mona said exactly the same thing.
However, being an honorary *family physician-friend she was being extra nice!
She said, "I've seen so many cases like this. You will FULLY recover."
I thought to myself, "Hmmm... you're promising me more than you should, Mona."

(*Well... she did see EVERYONE, dari Parni, Bibik Khasanah, Rochanah, Tini hinggalah ke Fitri mata kena gigit lebah, Fitrah, of course GI family, VA family, Kak Erah, Tok Mak & EVEN Mak Aji Kalsum (for her lutut) + Lily (for her high BP) all the way from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia (June 2007, when they came over for wedding of Adlan-Sakina)!

Other things she commented was she thought the dosage for the prednisolone should have been slightly more.

Also my BP reading on her machine was much lower than what was shown by the machine at home. Maybe mine should be sent for calibration! The reading on mine was rather scary... but under the circumstances, "taklah mengejutkan..."

Oh yes, she mentioned that some Chinese thought Bell's Palsy has something to do with angin! There are 'stories' of individuals getting Bell's Palsy after sleeping on the concerned side of the face during long bus rides at night with open windows!

After the visit to Dr. Mona, I sat at the laptop... sent an e mail to my group of students about change of plans for Monday. I thought of having a group meeting with each having assignment to do.
I am sure they'll be busy "googling" Bell's Palsy to get more information about my problem.

The rest of the night for me was also spent "googling" till way past 2 am.
Lots of information & printed a few.
Also stumbled into some interesting "you tube recordings". I noticed that they are all rather jovial about their situations :)

I was tired & I couldn't actually digest the info anymore... same thing but worded differently in different sites. An easy one to follow: http://kidshealth.org/teen/diseases_conditions/brain_nervous/bells_palsy.html#

Basically:
- No one really know why it happened, but mostly related to post-viral infection.
- Inflammation needed to be treated with steroid ASAP (within 72 hours)
- Speed of recovery varies -- 2 weeks to months & years
- Scope of recovery varies -- the normal statistics show 95% with complete recovery while 5% don't
- Factors which may facilitate recovery -- facial re-training, physiotherapy, massage & acupuncture. Vitamin B6, B12 & Zinc have also been mentioned.


Wallahu'alam!

Deep down I think I didn't feel too comfortable with the idea of sleeping at night. Unspoken fear of what had happened the last time I slept?

Of course, I had sleep. I had to be up & about to send off Amzar later in the morning. He decided that he wanted to go at 10:30am, although registration started at 8:00am.

Well, clumsily going through the hassles of putting in a lot of artificial tear fluid, putting the pad & *a long selindang enjut-enjut to tie up the pad so that the top eyelid would not slowly open up or me taking it off, without realizing it. In the late afternoon siesta I had earlier, the pad was already slightly flapping off when I woke up.

(*I've had the selindang for many years, but I've never wear it. I am just not a selindang panjang person. However, I still kept it because Saadah got me the selindang during her Haj. TQ Saadah :)

It was way past 2:30am when I ended up sleeping. That was after I kept playing Al-Mulk & at least 2 rounds of Ar-Rahman using my *phone.



(*Sahabat Kamila, I copied the Quran recitation from the KA laptop you passed down to me! I don't know who downloaded it to the laptop in the first place)


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YASIN (Surah 36: 82-83):


إِنَّمَا أَمْرُهُ إِذَا أَرَادَ شَيْئًا أَنْ يَقُولَ لَهُ كُنْ فَيَكُونُ (36:82


فَسُبْحَانَ الَّذِي بِيَدِهِ مَلَكُوتُ كُلِّ شَيْءٍ وَإِلَيْهِ تُرْجَعُونَ (36:83


Verily, when He intends a thing, His Command is, "be", and it is!

So glory to Him in Whose hands is the dominion of all things: and to Him will ye be all brought back.

"Sesungguhnya perintah-Nya apabila Dia menghendaki sesuatu hanyalah berkata kepadanya: ""Jadilah!"" maka terjadilah ia."

Maka Maha Suci (Allah) yang di tangan-Nya kekuasaan atas segala sesuatu dan kepada-Nya lah kamu dikembalikan.

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BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU SENJA DI RUMAH

6.27pm : The phone beside my pillow rang. It was Kak Ijah. She asked me, "Kamu *pengsan ke ni?"
(That's how we refer to the state when anyone of us is taking a real rest & most likely sleeping due to penat teramat).
I said something like, "Ye..."
She continued on quickly about her sms-ing Abang Ripin the details of the ole-ole & then she let me off.

It was good she called. Solat asar.

6:57pm: Went downstairs to get some drinks, etc, the phone rang... Abang Ripin from Tual, Pulau Kei, Sulawesi, Indonesia!
Another history in the making.
Last year it was the Kak Ijah (cucu)-Abang Fauzi (cucu menantu) duo reaching the land after 3 generations... after Atuk Laki left the land for Mekah at the age of 13 (?).
Tok Ayah (anak) never set foot on the land.
Now, here's Abang Ripin, a cucu menantu!
He was so excited & the line was not too clear.. he didn't notice my slurness.
He passed the phone to Kak Ratna & I managed to say something like, "ABANG RIPIN yang dibawa angin ke sana, ya?".
She replied in the tone that I thought also reflected, "Yeah... this is really weird, I know what you mean. But hey... we're ecstatic with whoever from the clan that ALLAH sent to us"
I was partly panicking because I seriously did not think I could be making any sense over the phone.
The line went dead in the middle of her sentence.
Phew, Alhamdulillah. I was not ready to have my Bell's Palsy news travelled all the way to Sulawesi!

Suami & kids fussed over my face. I think, hoping that "Mama's face event is just one of those things that would go away after Mama has had her sleep rest". Sorry, not this one.
To perk the situation, I was asking for the camera, etc... & how I wanted my current face to be recorded. Told them that the E&T lady doctor suggested for photos to be taken so that I could monitor progress.
I was making funny faces, but I know they did not think they were laughable.
Of course, I gave the slowly worded directive, "DON'T MMS anyone those pictures. Not yet."

Of course, in the back of my mind was, "How long do I want to keep this secret from the family -- both PP & Temerloh clans? I've got to tell them, sooner or later... Who to tell first & when?"
Deliberated a bit on my unreadiness state of mind, Amzar's preparation for UIA, Tok Mak's condition, etc etc etc... then made up my mind.

7:06pm : Sent out the Bell's Palsy news for the first time to a warga Pondok Putih (PP): an sms to Khalil, who's now doing umrah. He left the last weekend.

"Salam. Khalil, nak minta tolong doa supaya fungsi gentian saraf kanan no. 7 ke muka MakZ sembuh. FYI: Sabtu pagi hilang kawalan otot muka sebelah kanan: X boleh turunkan kelopak mata kanan, tidur kena pakai eye pad; nak bercakap / makan / minum payah & mulut herot. Tests (ECG, x-ray, CT scan) @ UMMC showed Alhamdulillah X strok, tapi kes ini namanya Bell's Palsy. Rawatan = ubat2 & facial physiotherapy. TQ atas doa muga pulih sepenuhnya dalam kadar segera, InsyaAllah"

7:23pm : Sent out the same sms to a warga Temerloh, (Dr.) Lina with an additional sentence:
Advice on matter?

Lina's reply, "Selalunya post viral. InsyaAllah prognosis good. Kena completekan course prednisolone."


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BP1 - 23 MEI 2009 : SABTU PETANG DI RUMAH

Quickly ate lunch & took a shower.

Came to realize that in closing my eyes, especially the right eye... it was not just the upper lid that needed to come down BUT the lower lid also had to slightly come up a bit for a complete closure.

So, just holding the upper lid down with a finger would not stop the water & the shampoo from entering the right eye!

Solat zohor & at the sejadah... taking time to reflect of the day's events .

In my mind, this Quranic verse which is first mentioned as verse 13 from Surah Ar-Rahman (Surah 55) was *repeated:


فَبِأَيِّ آلَاء رَبِّكُمَا تُكَذِّبَانِ

Then which of the favours of your Lord will you deny?


(*This verse is the most often repeated in the Surah, ie 31 times!
Kept flashing in my mind was a time during our Haj in 2003.. we were walking back from Masjid Nabawi, Madinah back to the hotel & there was this Malay boy walking in front of us with a group of elederly men & he was reciting Surah Ar-Rahman... following a recording that was played by one of the shops on the street !
I also remembered humming a line from Louis Armstrong... "what a wonderful world" to myself..)

So, took out the Quran & read the whole Surah Ar-Rahman
Then, used the eye pad for the first time... had Amzar helped stick the tapes on.

The one-eyed lady pirate needed a rest... zzzzzz.... !!!!

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(http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bsk58tjsuaM&feature=related
AR-RAHMAN (THE BENEFICENT, THE MERCY GIVING)
Total Verses: 78 Revealed At: MAKKA, YUSUF ALI:

055.001: (Allah) Most Gracious!
055.002: It is He Who has taught the Qur'an.
055.003: He has created man,
055.004: He has taught him speech (and intelligence).
055.005: The sun and the moon follow courses (exactly) computed;
055.006: And the herbs and the trees - both (alike) prostrate in adoration.
055.007: And the Firmament has He raised high, and He has set up the Balance (of Justice),
055.008: In order that ye may not transgress (due) balance.
055.009: So establish weight with justice and fall not short in the balance.
055.010: It is He Who has spread out the earth for (His) creatures:
055.011: Therein is fruit and date-palms, producing spathes (enclosing dates);
055.012: Also corn, with (its) leaves and stalk for fodder, and sweet-smelling plants.
055.013: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.014: He created man from sounding clay like unto pottery,
055.015: And He created Jinns from fire free of smoke:
055.016: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.017: (He is) Lord of the two Easts and Lord of the two Wests:
055.018: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.019: He has let free the two bodies of flowing water, meeting together:
055.020: Between them is a Barrier which they do not transgress:
055.021: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.022: Out of them come Pearls and Coral:
055.023: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.024: And His are the Ships sailing smoothly through the seas, lofty as mountains:
055.025: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.026: All that is on earth will perish:
055.027: But will abide (for ever) the Face of thy Lord,- full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.
055.028: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.029: Of Him seeks (its need) every creature in the heavens and on earth: every day in (new) Splendour doth He (shine)!
055.030: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.031: Soon shall We settle your affairs, O both ye worlds!
055.032: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny

055.033: O ye assembly of Jinns and men! If it be ye can pass beyond the zones of the heavens and the earth, pass ye! not without authority shall ye be able to pass!
055.034: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.035: On you will be sent (O ye evil ones twain!) a flame of fire (to burn) and a smoke (to choke): no defence will ye have:
055.036: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.037: When the sky is rent asunder, and it becomes red like ointment:
055.038:Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.039: On that Day no question will be asked of man or Jinn as to his sin.
055.040: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.041: (For) the sinners will be known by their marks: and they will be seized by their forelocks and their feet.
055.042: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.043: This is the Hell which the Sinners deny
055.044: In its midst and in the midst of boiling hot water will they wander round!
055.045: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.046: But for such as fear the time when they will stand before (the Judgment Seat of) their Lord, there will be two Gardens
055.047: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.048: Containing all kinds (of trees and delights);
055.049: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.050: In them (each) will be two Springs flowing (free);
055.051: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.052: In them will be Fruits of every kind, two and two.
055.053: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.054: They will recline on Carpets, whose inner linings will be of rich brocade: the Fruit of the Gardens will be near (and easy of reach).
055.055: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.056: In them will be (Maidens), chaste, restraining their glances, whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.057: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.058: Like unto Rubies and coral.
055.059: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.060: Is there any Reward for Good - other than Good?
055.061: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.062: And besides these two, there are two other Gardens,
055.063: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.064: Dark-green in colour (from plentiful watering).
055.065: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.066: In them (each) will be two Springs pouring forth water in continuous abundance:
055.067: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.068: In them will be Fruits, and dates and pomegranates:
055.069: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.070: In them will be fair (Companions), good, beautiful;
055.071: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.072: Companions restrained (as to their glances), in (goodly) pavilions.
055.073: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.074: Whom no man or Jinn before them has touched;
055.075 : Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.076: Reclining on green Cushions and rich Carpets of beauty.
055.077: Then which of the favours of your Lord will ye deny?

055.078: Blessed be the name of thy Lord, full of Majesty, Bounty and Honour.



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